This is a picture of the actual paddle Mistress uses on me.
The spanking has happened and once again i feel the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The burden of regret for having disappointed Mistress is removed, and the anxiety of wondering if it will be one of those tolerable spankings, or one of those god awful painful ones. Since the spanking was delayed, i had more to time to sit and squirm in anticipation. One's mind will play tricks on itself, given the opportunity. Frankly, it had been some time since i had a punishment spanking and because they serve to "clear the deck" so to speak, the deck was quite cluttered. As such, iI began to worry that it was going to be a severe punishment. i even woke up in the middle of the night in a sweat because i became convinced that Mistress was going to have me masturbate to orgasm immediately before administering a harsh spanking. i don't know why i thought that, but the mere idea was upsetting. If you don't already know .......... THAT IS THE WORST!
i love Mistress Wife so very much and there are hardly any moments where i feel more emotionally vulnerable, emotionally close to her than when i am hugging and snuggling with her during aftercare.
Life is good!