Monday, June 30, 2014
Sunday, June 29, 2014
i don't know what has gotten into my beloved Wife, but i like it!!!!
Impromptu supervised masturbation for my Mistress is hands down one of my most favorite things to do.
i came home last night around 10pm from outdoor physical activities with my son. When i got home, Mistress and my other son where down at the neighbors swimming (son) and drinking wine with the ladies on the street. Mistress had just returned from a lovely night out with Her friends at a local chain (but still very upscale) restaurant. She was having fun. The kids were all having fun and my buddies (the husband of the ladies on the street) had already left for the bar.
So there i was with choices. Do i swim with kids? Sometimes fun, but nah. Do i sit with the ladies and participate on the "hens clucking" (as we joke about here in the neighborhood)? Now this has some possibilities because Mistress is already loose from the drinks She had throughout the night, and since She had just returned from being out at a nice restaurant, She was looking FINE! I chose no to that too because i would've been the only one in the room that hadn't had a drink, i was dead tired and sweaty stinky from being on the baseball field all night. Instead, i would kiss my Mistress and then all the ladies goodnight to walk down the street, take a shower and get into my comfy bed.
In the shower, i shaved my cock, balls and ass as good as they have ever been shaved before. i don't know about y'all, but it can't hardly get 5 seconds into shaving my cock, balls and hole before i get hard and horny. Since it was a pretty thorough shave job, i was pretty horned up when it came time to rinse and dry. I was rubbing the aftercare lotion all over the shaved parts and was convinced that Mistress would appreciate the meticulous shave job as much as i was right then.
Nonetheless, i got into bed and my mind began to conjure up a scene (one of my favorites) where i'm sleeping in deep REM sleep, and Mistress will wake and immediately expect my full attention to her pending, urgent need to orgasm.
When my eyes opened, and i saw that it was light outside, i couldn't help be disappointed. i know, i know, my disappointment was self induced and all on me, but still ..................
Friday, June 27, 2014
Hmmm, now what?
my mind immediately to go through my options and of course i immediately went to all of the things that i enjoy wearing the most. Was it going to be the Velcro balls-separator that comfortably hold my balls so deliciously out in front of my legs when i sit and walk, that cause me to constantly be reminded of who owns them?
Was it going to be another one of my favorites, our new glass butt plug that feels like it was made for me, which constantly fills me and reminds me of who owns the cavity that holds it?
Would i go with cock ring with balls splitter?
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Then She told me to stand by the bed and masturbate for Her. While standing upright and erect (pun intended) i started to stroke my cock for Her visual amusement. i asked Her how much She enjoyed watching me stroke my cock and She said it always made Her hot, even before our time in our FLM. i asked Her if there is any added excitement for Her knowing that Her husband was more than willing to stop whatever he was doing in order to stand (or lay, or kneel) before her and Masturbate. Her response was to tell me to stop, leave all the lube on my swollen, rock hard, red-tipped cock and go into the bathroom and wash only the hand i was using to stroke myself with.
When i returned, She remove the covers, turned on to Her back, pulled Her little nightie up, pulled Her panties to the side and had me join Her on the bed. She said something like "I want you inside me". I didn't need to be asked twice and moved between Her legs and slowly pushed my desperate, eager cock inside Her. She moaned in delight and did one of my favorite things She does to me and that is put Her hands on my ass, gently spread my cheeks and pull me into Her. As you can imagine, it didn't take long before the urge to come caused the dutiful submissive in me to let Mistress know that i was near an orgasm. She was writhing and moaning and whispered "you will not cum". Then She ordered me to get her vibrator and return.
Once i returned to between Her legs with the vibrator, i turned it on and handed it to Her. She placed the vibrating end against Her clit, closed Her eyes in delight, rolled Her back and told me to re-enter Her pussy. She said to slowly slide it in all the way and once it was as deep as it was going to go, to stop and not moved while She made love to the toy. She had an incredible orgasm right there before, which for those of you that read my blog, should know by now that there is hardly anything else in the world i enjoy than being allowed to witness my beloved Mistress having an orgasm.
When She was done, She ordered me into the shower and then go off to work. Before unlocking my eyes from Her beautiful eyes, i thanked her. i thanked her for 1. allowing me the joy of being allowed to worship Her body ... 2. Allowing me to edge myself by standing next to the bed and masturbate for Her..... 3. for allowing me the amazing luxury of being allowed to penetrate Her beautiful pussy with my cock up to the edge, and 4. for allowing me to witness one of my favorite things in this world .... being able to witness Her have an incredible orgasm.
She is a wonderful Mistress and love Her so much. After my punishment this morning, i thought i would be just going off to work feeling good about being absolved (for now) for my infractions. Instead, Mistress allowed to experience those magnificent events described above and as an added bonus, told me to wear the balls-separating harness under my clothes for work.
i am a very, very lucky man.
This is a picture of the actual paddle Mistress uses on me.
The spanking has happened and once again i feel the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The burden of regret for having disappointed Mistress is removed, and the anxiety of wondering if it will be one of those tolerable spankings, or one of those god awful painful ones. Since the spanking was delayed, i had more to time to sit and squirm in anticipation. One's mind will play tricks on itself, given the opportunity. Frankly, it had been some time since i had a punishment spanking and because they serve to "clear the deck" so to speak, the deck was quite cluttered. As such, iI began to worry that it was going to be a severe punishment. i even woke up in the middle of the night in a sweat because i became convinced that Mistress was going to have me masturbate to orgasm immediately before administering a harsh spanking. i don't know why i thought that, but the mere idea was upsetting. If you don't already know .......... THAT IS THE WORST!
i love Mistress Wife so very much and there are hardly any moments where i feel more emotionally vulnerable, emotionally close to her than when i am hugging and snuggling with her during aftercare.
Life is good!
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
i lubed a finger and inserted into my bottom to loosen it a bit before putting the plug in. It is not a large plug but larger that the one it replaced. After loosing myself with my finger for a minute or so, i pressed the plug against my bottom hole and slowly pushed it inside me. Since it was the initial attempt at entry, there was a small amount of resistance but nothing at all like i was used to. On the second attempt, it slide inside me comfortably as if it was meant to be there, and plopped into place. Now, off to the shower i go.
i am conflicted on how i feel. It is 8:15 as i write this and i am grateful for having bruises and deep redness on ass right now. On the other hand, i know that it has only been delayed and not forgiven and i get to relive the worry leading up to my punishment one more time. As an added bonus, i have my ass filled with a butt plug that my Mistress told me to wear. i believe it will be a good day.
That little device that squeezes the sub's balls at their base and separates them from the body is my absolute favorite thing for mistress to choose for me to wear under my clothes. The added torment of a rubber-gloved finger over a slippery cock that wants to go off is just so wonderful.
Then, there is this:
i just love it when i am allowed the pleasure of putting my mouth on Mistress anywhere, but especially here and especially while She is in lost abandon with pleasure while gently rubbing my head in an encouraging manner. i just love it and frankly wish i was allowed to pleasure her more there. Everyday even!
Hopefully after having pleased Mistress well enough for her to think i may have earned a reward, She might feel the need to not make me to go sleep with the unfulfilled thoughts of wanting Her to take me like a wanton slut and use my ass with her strap on. Like this:
After all, falling asleep wanting it like a cheap ass-whore, laying on my tummy subconsciously rubbing my cock against the sheets while reaching behind and spreading myself for a Mistress-cock that isn't there ... well, that is a miserable way to try and fall asleep, right, and decent Mistress would want for Her submissive husband to have to be tormented like that right? OK, sometimes She would. OK, OK, usually She would ... not tonight. Mistress has a surprise for Her dutiful sub husband. She won't deny him the fullness and utter submissiveness of her strappy cock. No, instead, when he has reached the pinnacle of lust and desire and after having fulfilled 3 of Her subs favorite desires, and he is begging for release, She simple pulls out, leans over and kisses him and tells him that release will not be happening tonight and that he should probably get some rest because at 8 am in the morning, he is going to be punished.
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
i texted Mistress earlier today and asked if we could schedule the corrective punishment for 8 am local time, Wednesday morning. i did this because at 9:54, the 48 hours since Mistress declared a punishment was to take place will expire. If it were to expire, it would mean another, more significant punishment. She agreed and now i will be punished shortly after i wake in the morning.
Wish me luck.
In a previous post i talked about the myriad of feelings that go through my head when i am in this very situation of being made aware that i had an infraction and that the 48 hour clock began ticking. The primary and sometime overwhelming feeling is of regret for having disappointed Mistress K. i truly feel bad when i know that she has feels i have a punishable offense. Another strong feeling is one of apprehension because i know it will hurt. i have also talked in previous posts about wishing how Mistress K would test my limits further when administering a spanking to me and although i am certain that more intensity is necessary in my training and in order to correct my behavior, i know it will hurt even more than before.
One of my followers MRBILL made a comment to yesterday's post and included a mention that he craved being dominated by his Mistress and wished she would spank him more (regularly). Like most submissive husbands, i share that sentiment because i feel that without regular spankings, i will always be in a cycle of behaving in a way that will make Mistress proud (right after a spanking) to slowly behaving in a way that will increasingly disappoint Mistress.
Lastly, when i am in the process of being spanked and if Mistress hasn't made me orgasm and ejaculate immediately beforehand (she'll do this only when there has been a serious infraction), my cock is rock hard even when the sting of the paddle is at it's very worst. i used to wonder why that was because even though the whole idea of being naked before my Mistress for the purpose of being corrected by spanking is of course very erotic, but it's still intended to hurt and when it is a punishment spanking there is never the prospect of sex to follow. Then i figured it out ... throughout my relationship with Mistress, starting when She was my girlfriend, then as my Wife, then as my Wife Mistress, i would get "love boners". a love boner is a hard-on that i would while thinking about how much i love my Wife. How much i ache for Her when i am not with Her and how beautiful She is. When i get a love boner, it has nothing to do with sex and has only to do with the emotional joy i am feeling by the love that i have for Her. Love boner is the explanation for my erection when i am receiving corrective pain or punishment from Mistress.
This is in my near future
Sunday, June 22, 2014
This morning i woke before Her and was making coffee. She called me into the bedroom, flung the sheets off of Her body and said "come here". I went over to Her and started kissing on her body thinking She was just warm under the sheets. She wasn't. She wanted to cum! She told me to get inside Her. Did i hear that right? Yes, get inside her.
i was rock hard in an instant and climbed on the bed when She said "be rough with me". I pulled Her panties down as if She was my willing little slut, waiting there for me take my pleasure from Her. I slide my cock inside Her and starting fucking Her, but it only took a few strokes before i wanted to cum. i begrudgingly told Her i was close and She said "no coming". I ground into her forcefully but in a way that not make me cum right away but the feeling was building and i told her again. She said again "no cumming". i rested for a moment while She relished my cock being inside Her and then tried again to be the forceful lover that was just going to take her and fuck Her. She was on Her tummy with Her left leg pulled up to her chest. i leaned forward and with my hand pressed Her face into the pillow to hold her there while i fucked Her. She loves it when i do that. As i was approaching orgasm again She said "pull my hair". Holy fuck, i can't hold off having an orgasm with the most gorgeous woman in my world telling me to take Her like a slut. i finally had to tell Her that i wasn't going to be able to hold off my orgasm if She wanted me to continue fucking Her this way. Had i known earlier, i would've sprayed my cock with desensitizer and put the cock sleeve my numbed cock so i could fuck Her the way She wanted to be fucked right then. One of the downsides of orgasm denial is when i finally get to be inside Her, or She strokes my cock, or She makes me masturbate for Her, i can't last long before cumming.
In any event, She was well on her way to orgasm but wanted her fave vibrator (actual picture below)
i gave it to her and continued to fuck Her while struggling not to cum. She came hard while i alternated pulling Her hair and pressing Her face into the pillow. When She was through, She said thank you and i was excused.
God I love her!
Postscript note: i do love it when She wants it to be rough. i love seeing be a wanton slut, begging to be fucked and used, albeit for a short period of time. i know the unmitigated joy of surrender and release and know that She occasionally likes to feel that way too. It now has me wishing for a day where She wishes to be the sub and have me dominate her. Wishful thinking? Perhaps. A boy can dream
Friday, June 20, 2014
I try to go and visit as many as can with the hopes that I will see a recent update, but without Blogger now telling me what's recent, I may missed some of your posts.
If anyone has experienced the same thing and knows a remedy, please teach me!
I can't stand sudden, unexplained mysteries like this in the electronic world. The only thing worse is that it is impossible to interact with someone that can help. Such is live in the convenient modern world.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
It's been a while since i wore this thing under my clothes to work.
i am sorry Mistress!
Friday, June 13, 2014
She said .... "yeah, the kids wanted to get it". It's a paddle ball game. You know, the kind you play on the beach. (they didn't even go to the beach).
It's light, has a good grip and is easy to handle. All I have to say is that it is going to sting.
i crave Her touch and She knows that i do. She knows that for me, having Her hand on my skin, especially those naughty, sexy parts of my skin can almost induce an orgasm in and of itself.
Last night i was in bed, almost asleep when She plopped into the bed, assuring that i would be awake. She immediately started to seductively rub my bod all over and eventually got to my cock and starting stroking my cock. It was heaven. i just lay there while She roams my body with Her. It is one of my all time favorite fantasies, laying there, especially bound, while i am mercilessly teased and at the edge of orgasm for hours. But i digress ....... Mistress was enjoying herself by reacquainting herself with my body.
Mistress asked .... "What do you have to do in the morning?" i told her i had a conference all at 9am. She said ...... "you will wake me up no later than 8am and no earlier that 7:30 am, because i want your cock inside me". Holy shit! I asked Her if i was going to be allowed or required to cum, and She said NO!!!! She then proceeded to seductively rub almost every inch of body but my cock and my ass. She would act like she was going for my cock, but would purposely avoid it. She would lightly run a finger over the crack of my ass as if She was going to dive in. i'd arch my back and offer it to Her like a wanton ass slut, but She would not indulge me. i eventually came right out and asked her to touch me. No, i begged Her to touch me. i begged her to fuck me. i begged her to allow me to enter Her pussy for 2 tiny thrust while i went to sleep frustrated and dreaming of Her. None of that happened.
She said .... "I want you to go to sleep hard", and then she turned over and went to sleep. I went to sleep hard. Right now, it is 6:30 am and i have gone to the side of Her bed and looked at Her, knowing that in an hour or so, i will be able to be inside Her. Unless of course She changes Her mind.
I love this woman so, so much!
Thursday, June 12, 2014
She saw me and smiled and came over and gave me a big kiss and a big hug. It felt so good to hold Her. She was wearing a very light sundress and i could feel Her naked body through the fabric. i was hard in 2 seconds starting from when i first put my eyes on Her.
The neighbor kids all gathered because they missed their pals and the house was in utter chaos with unpacking and kids running around everywhere. One of O/our kids is leaving again today to visit a friend in San Diego so Mistress was busy focusing Her attention on getting him ready for his trip. Laundry, unpacking, repacking and so on. W/we had a few minutes to lay together on the couch and watch a show but there wasn't going to be any play tonight! Holding Her, smelling Her kissing Her skin wherever it was exposed was glorious. It was getting late and She had plenty more to do so She sent me off to bed but not before letting me know that for the foreseeable future there was going to be plenty of alone "we" time and that She was really looking forward to putting me through my paces.
This morning She harnessed my balls with a splitter and sent me off to work.
i feel Her now in my pants and am just so happy that She is back home.
Welcome home Mistress!
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
One of my favorite regular commenters, Hannah Jay, made a comment on a recent post called "Free Day" where she explained how she enjoyed having her husband plunge his cock and balls into a bucket of ice water. She described it as "fun" for her husband.
Well, Mistress must've been able to set aside some reading time while on the road because here is the text i received from Her last night;
I have never done that before and was a little apprehensive because, well, shit it was ice water and i was supposed to submerge my balls in it. As i was preparing the bowl with ice and water, my cock got rock hard and i know it was because i was about to do something that i normally would not at all like to do, but doing it for my Mistress gave me immense erotic pleasure.
i placed the bowl on a short stool and lowered my trembling balls into the icy exactly as instructed above and then went on to complete the task as instructed.
How did it go? IT WAS COLD! It wasn't painful but it was cold. During the last plunge into the icy water, i left my balls submerged for 30 seconds instead of only 15 because i wanted to see if i could do. Of course i was able to do it but just barely. i later texted Mistress and asked if this was an activity that She now liked and her reply was an ominous "maybe". We'll see.
Well Hannah Jay, as promised, if it happened i was going to tell you about it, so here you go, consider yourself told. Mistress seemed to enjoy your suggestion very much.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
i can't wait to see Her!
Thursday, June 5, 2014
When i first saw the words on the text, i thought she must be kidding. Maybe it was a typo? So i asked for her to confirm that not only was i allowed to cum, i was REQUIRED to cum. Holy crap!! It didn't take long for me to realize that this would be the first time in 2 years that will orgasm fully and ejaculate without her being a witness. my initial reaction was unsettling. i have lovingly and willingly committed myself to only ever ejaculating while in the presence of my Mistress. So late, when i am done teasing and denying myself repeatedly, and i am done repeatedly filling my hungry bottom with her strappy cock, i will have an orgasm. One hour from now, i will be going to have dinner with some buddies. While there i will be wearing my new glass plug (wearing it now) and will have my balls-stretcher harness on in tribute to my Mistress Wife.
There is an old joke ..... "I had sex last night and i was nervous. Yeah, I was all alone." Genuinely, i will be nervous.
I love you Mistress. You are a glorious Mistress, lover, Wife and friend. Thank You.
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Well, after receiving a reply to my text this morning, and while Mistress was contemplating my instructions for this day, i informed Her that i inadvertently failed to follow her instructions yesterday. She replied and said that i was to wear my balls-separator harness and the panties was to wear yesterday. She made a passing comment that i "should've worn the panties yesterday", but did not elaborate. Although She didn't say, i suspect i am in line to be punished for that. Something else that i wish i had read in a text but never came was the direction/authorization for free self-play (no cumming though). Poor me!
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
After the tender aftercare, i asked Mistress if i was allowed to be my own ass whore while She was away, like the last time i was home alone. She said that i probably shouldn't have asked, but that She would consider it. I also asked Her if i could cum before She left. She said no. Then i asked if i could have a ruined orgasm, and She said no. When pulling out of the driveway, She instructed me to wear panties today under my clothes.
i am really going to miss Her!
Monday, June 2, 2014
After is was done showering and shaving and putting on Mistress's favorite cologne, i went over to her in bed (our son sleeping beside her) and proceeded to "kiss her awake". After all, i needed to know what is was to wear under my clothes this day. Her eyes opened for just a brief moment, She said the word "splitter", rolled over and went right back to sleep. i went right into the closet and proceed to get dressed, starting with the leather cock ring that snaps into place that has 2 separate straps that snap into place to spread and isolate each one of my balls. it's one of my favorite things She has me wear.
When i emerged from the closet, Mistress was in the kitchen going about starting Her day. My first thought was ........... hole shit, i did not get Her coffee. Right then She said "I got my own coffee". Silly as it sounds, my heart sank for not having accomplished one of the simplest obligations i have to my Queen. Then she said "you are due a punishment for that!".
Presumably, Mistress knows that while She is away, that i will do something that will earn a punishment. i wonder if that will be on Her mind will She administers the latest earned punishment before she leaves. Uh oh!
The night was kind of getting away from U/us because the kids weren't cooperating and shit in general was just going wrong. i had showered as planned and applied the spray to my cock and then slipped on some loose fitting shorts to allow the spray to do it's thing. Meanwhile, Mistress was becoming more and more frustrated with shit going wrong around Her. Finally, when walking past me, She looked at me and said something to the effect that there would be no sex tonight because she was frustrated (in general, not with me) and losing interest, and then left the room to go into the bathroom.
i went to Her and told Her (in as cute a way as possible) that i understood and that if She did not want to get fucked really, really well, of course W/we didn't have too. That seemed to lighten her mood a bit but not much.
The kids were finally in bed and She went in to take a shower. When Mistress is frustrated, i know well enough to let Her have Her space. That said, i poked my head into the shower and asked Her if She wanted me to be prepared to pleasure Her when She emerged from the shower, or if i should simply go about my business and give Her space. She opted for the space. Undaunted, i went about my business and began to close down the house for the night. When i was done, i again poked my head into the bathroom to let Mistress know i would be in bed, waiting for Her, not knowing what, if anything would happen.
The room was dark except for the light of the TV. When She walked out of the bathroom to the kitchen, She was naked and She never looked more beautiful and sexy as she disappeared from the bedroom. When She came back in the bedroom and came toward the bed, She was even sexier than She was 3 minutes before. She climbed into and immediately began to nuzzle into my chest and wrapped her arms around me. She immediately felt my rock hard cock and whispered that She was pleased with that. i had idea that sex was to come because Her hands roamed my back and then my ass and She did one of my absolute favorite things ......... She spread my ass cheeks with both hands. It made my hard cock harder.
She whispered "give me those kisses i like" and rolled over onto her tummy. Regular readers of this blog will know that there is hardly anything i enjoy more than giving her entire body soft licks, kisses and bite on Her naked body. After about 10 minutes of that, She rolled over onto her back and told me to resume my kisses. After a few minutes of that, She asked me .... "are you hard for me lover?" I sat up on my knees so that She could see my rock hard cock pointing to the ceiling. Then She made it abundantly clear that She wanted my mouth on Her pussy by spreading Her legs. i moved right and savored having the honor of putting my mouth on her pussy. i'm sure someone has actually had an orgasm while licking his Mistress's pussy before, but i was actually close. It is that much of an honor for me.
After Mistress had a nice orgasm while on her back, She told me She wanted my cock inside of Her for another orgasm. i asked her is She wanted me to get the cock sleeve and She said No .... "fuck me now". Even though my cock had been fully numbed by the Stud 100, it wasn't long before i felt an orgasm building in me. i informed Mistress that i was about to come and She didn't say a word. then i asked her if She intended for me to cum this night, and She didn't say a word. Then i asked Her if i could have Her permission to cum and She said YES!!!!!!!! holy shit! Yes? i totally wasn't expecting that. She said that i had better hold out until She had Hers and then i was allowed to cum inside of Her. It was mere second later that Her orgasm began and i immediately began to orgasm while cumming deliciously inside of Her. OMG! It was a very strange orgasm because of the numbing spray but i didn't care. Being able to have my mouth on Her body, then on Her pussy, then ......... being able to witness 2 orgasms ........... was glorious!
i didn't asked if she intended on allowing me to cum that night and She didn't offer. We feel asleep and slept like a couple of rocks.
I love this Woman so much!