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Monday, August 24, 2015

Blue Balls

 
It may sound crazy, but I have the epitome of aching blue balls and I love how it feels!  The dull ache that rests inside my pants is a constant reminder of the object of my emotional, spiritual and lustful desires.
 
On Friday I posted about how Mistress K. instructed me to masturbate to the edge every hour, on the hour, for the entire day.  Right up until bedtime.  I had no idea what, if anything would come of it in the sex play department but I found out as soon as we got into bed.  NOTHING!  Mistress wanted nothing more than for me to cuddle and nuzzle her while she fell quietly to sleep i our marital bed.  I asked if I could have relief then and she quietly said no.  "This is not the time .... now go to sleep "
 
Saturday was a day filled with busy family and parenting stuff, all day and night.  Apart from me walking over to her at various times during the day, to nuzzle in her neck and to tell her that I loved her, there was no physical interaction romantically or sexually.
 
Sunday?  Sunday?  Sunday was quite a bit different.  Mistress awoke about 7:45 in the morning.  When I heard her rise, I scurried to retrieve her coffee as I do every morning.  I handed it her and she was still very bleary eyed and sleepy.  Her long straight red hair was a disheveled tangled mess that half covered her face.  She was wearing her short little nightie that although isn't designed to be sexy but rather comfortable, I think it is sexy as hell.  I held her tight, kisses her face and neck and took in the body aroma that is uniquely her and declared my daily devotion to her.  She then hurried off to the restroom.
 
When she returned, she had shaken off the sleepiness and walked over to me sitting in the chair at the computer and began to kiss my neck.  She reached down and started to rub me through my shorts and gave me my instructions for the day.  She said "beginning at 8 this morning, you are to edge yourself every half hour for the entire day".  She grabbed my face, looked me in the eye and asked me if I understood my instructions.  I said "Yes maam".  "Good boy" and with that she kissed me softly then went to the kitchen to make breakfast for the kids.  She got 5 feet away then returned and said "oh, and you'll be wearing frilly panties all day".  She kissed me again and then left. 
 
EVERY HALF HOUR!!!!!  We went to bed at 10:30 that night.  Some quick math will tell that during the day on Sunday, I brought myself to the edge 29 times.  Yes .... 29 times.  She didn't come right out and say it, but she eluded to the fact that at the end of the day that I would be separated from the fluid that was gathering in my balls.  When we finally got into bed (she had to wake me up from the couch), she turned to me and started kissing me softly and saying what a good boy I was.  She started rubbing my soft cock and in no time i was all revved up in anticipation of, well, I didn't;t actually know, but i was certain it would be something.  Would she just drain me to ease the ache?  Would she stroke me until I couldn't hold it any longer and feign being disappointed that I came without permission?  I was pretty certain that she wasn't going to allow me to enter her because she knew that with all of that edging, I'd go off before I was able to get the whole head in. 
 
She stroked me to the edge 3 or 4 more times to the point i was begging her to allow me to ejaculate.  I wasn't asking to orgasm, I was begging to be drained.  She kissed me softly, held my face and quietly said no.  Now is not the time, and then rolled over and instructed me to cuddle her.  For the next 10 minutes I begged, whimpered, begged some more in desperate hope that she would acquiesce
and allow me to drain my balls.  She would have none of it and finally had to sternly tell me that if she had to say no one more time, I would be punished right then! 
 
Which brings us to today.  This morning, i was noticeably pouty about the fact that I was so frustrated about being denied the previous night.  She made a very subtle warning that this sort of behavior was not going to be tolerated ... at all!  I got the message real quick and apologized for being pouty.  A short time later, after bringing her a fresh cup of coffee and while she was facing the mirror putting on her makeup, I knelt behind her, slowly lifted her nightie and placed tender soft kisses on her gorgeous bottom and thanked her for her strength and for allowing me to be owned by her.  She informed that today I was to edge myself every 90 minutes throughout the day and then she handed me the panties that she wanted me to wear for the day.  I took the panties, said "Yes Mistress" and then thank her before leaving her to finish what she was doing.
 
Being in this state of unbelievably constant state of desire has allowed me to remember that it is not at all about my desire, or whether or not i think i should be allowed to cum, ruined or otherwise.  it is all about her and if having do this makes her happy, then it most certainly makes me happy. 

18 comments:

  1. Sounds like a tough exercise. Hope you get relief sometime soon.

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    1. Hi Michael ... thanks for stopping by. It is tough but so rewarding.

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  2. Oh my! I think I shall never complain about edging again. I agree with Michael M... What a tough exercise. When being edged and denied like that, I am terribly afraid I will orgasm in my sleep, which isn't allowed either. But I haven't quite figured out how I could control that one. Thankfully, it hasn't happened yet. Good luck! I hope she has something wonderful planned for you soon:)

    xo

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    1. Thanks sweetie. You know, at first I was hopeful that she had something in store for me too but then I just sort got comfortable knowing that she was pleased every time time she saw me get up to go complete my task. I could see the genuine happiness on her face.

      It is a tough exercise, but one that I am willing to endure for Mistress K. In the shower this morning, I wasn't even masturbating, and just from the warm water running down my body, a small but steady stream of precum involuntarily came out. There was no pleasure, no sexual sensation, just my body doing what comes natural I guess.

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  3. Wow. I am not sure I would want to go through that at all. Of course, since I am in a Steelheart becasue of my old habits of pleasuring myself I am not sure MrsL would ever use this type of exercise. Here's to hoping you get some relief soon!

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    1. Hi Carolina cyclist. You said " ... not sure I would want to go through that at all." I guess given the opportunity to think abut it before being thrust into it, I may be inclined to say the same thing. I can tell you thoughg, each and every time I edge myself, I consider myself lucky to be able to touch myself in a way that will bring me toward orgasm, while I think about my Mistress.

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  4. actually, I am very happy she did not let you cum....that she actually said no...it is apparent its about her pleasure and not yours....I didn't get to cum either and Im not complaining about it.....but at least I did get very leaky....

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    1. Hi bdenied, and thanks as always for commenting. I hope i didn't come off as complaining. I'm absolutely not complaining. It IS all about her pleasure and I know it. Even if that pleasure comes from seeing me be a whimpering mess from being almost constantly on the edge of orgasm.

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  5. Hi sub hub, this sounds like a difficult and at the same time wonderful experience. I am glad that you love your Mistress for showing you who decides what you are allowed to do, and I admire your discipline. Hubby has used orgasm denial and that was a pretty frustrating and sexy experience at the same time, but edging that often sounds like a rather demanding task. It is great that you managed to do that, and I think that your Mistress must be proud of you.

    hugs

    Nina

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    1. Hi Ni Na, and thank you for stopping by. It is certainly a task that requires me to be focused on what time it is, and what I am supposed to accomplish (and not accomplish). It is wonderfully difficult and I am honored to be expected to do this for Mistress K. I'm certainly hoping Mistress K. is proud of me. That is my daily goal.

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  6. Hey.Wow. I have to say that you are very lucky to have a wife and Mistress that cares for you the way that she does. I have always hoped that my wife would be half the wife and Mistress that you have.

    Love your post

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    1. What an incredibly nice thing to say Stan Crimson. Thank you!

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  7. Wow sub hub, what a tough but rewarding exercise. I admire your discipline too and love your last paragraph. I hope your Mistress grants you relief soon.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz. Always love hearing from you. As of this writing, there has been no release. I don't believe that release for is the goal or intention, but rather the pleasure Mistress receives in having me become more and more desperate for her. She is relishing in it and there appears to be no end in sight.

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  8. Every hour, half hour, 90 minutes, how have you been able to keep track. Oh the painful pleasure you must have been feeling, but as you said - it's not all about you and your pleasure. Hope relief has arrived or is on the way. Hugs. K

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    1. Hi S.H.I.P.
      Well, quite the task-Mistress you have yourself there... :)
      I bet those edges were coming quicker and quicker throughout the day huh?
      Enjoy your release... when Mistress allows it.
      :)

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    2. Hi sweet sweet K in New England. It is indeed a painful pleasure but a pleasure nonetheless. Mistress has not granted a release and its possible, even likely that my release will not be coming. The more painful part for me is the fact that has must lust and desire to please her increases, she has denied me thus far, access to the areas of her body that I desire to pleasure the most.

      So great to hear from you. Hugs!

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    3. RA, always an honor to hear from you my friend. Mistress never does anything without growth for me, us and her in mind. Individually and collectively. I love being taught by my Mistress.

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