Sunday, April 8, 2018
How can this be exciting?
Ironically, I was explaining to Mistress K. about how happy and aroused with a recent (some might call ironic) episode we had together. More like a non-episode really. I was explaining to her how excited (and yes, even aroused) in recalling this past Thursday morning. I was leaving town that morning right after Mistress left for work. The night before in bed, she edged me 7-8 times ..... and it was so awesome, each time I was begging her to allow me to ejaculate, ruined-orgasm style. (Notice I said ejaculate, and NOT orgasm?)I wanted it sooooo bad (still do). When she was finally finished, she said, "we're done! Go to sleep!" Then a small giggle and said you've been a good boy. Maybe you'll get to release your cum in the morning before you leave town.
Well, the following morning came. Mistress woke up late. She had a busy day ahead with client meetings scheduled for early and often. That set off on the course of a shitty day. Then, the outfit she planned on wearing was tight and making her feel uncomfortable and, her hair wasn't cooperating ... you get the idea. Needless to say, there was ZERO interest in my desire, my "need" my craving to ejaculate. It's as if the incredible desire for me to ejaculate was of zero interest or concern for her. AS if whatever she was dealing with was way important than anything she may have felt I needed.
IN the past, Mistress K. may have otherwise felt a little bit of pressure to feel like the attention she thought I might need at that moment was something she needed to live up to. Yes, she is my Dominant Mistress Wife, but she comes from a place of feeling obligated to give in to what she thinks I was hoping for ... you know, so as to not disappoint me.
Not today. She now instinctively did not even give it a second thought. There was going to be NO attention paid to my perceived need for some sort of expected attention, let alone any release of my semen following the previous nights intense edging, and subsequent "promise" of release in the morning. NONE!
Instead of me being disappointed at her lack of attention ... I was thrilled that she had zero intention if giving in to what she may have perceived I might need or want. And, IT WAS AWESOME! Weird, right? No ... not weird. Mistress has come into her own and has embraced to the instinctive understanding that it HER needs and wants at any given moment, and NOT mine!