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Saturday, November 5, 2016

Subspace .... it's been a while

Because of our busy suburban lives, lives that are ruled and dictated by the schedules of our busy suburban and very socially active children, the time we have to practice and hone our FLM is scarce at best.  It's basically the core of the reason for my being AWOL for a few months there. 

When the opportunities and amount of time to "be ourselves" by being alone is precious and few, the benefits of a well practiced FLM begin to fade into the background and, characteristics of an old lifestyle of disorder begin to appear ..... such as my being disrespectful when we might have a disagreement. 

A couple of weeks back we had a disagreement.  It was completely unnecessary, but because some old characteristics started to creep back into my behavior, I was too stupid to realize it.  Mistress wanted to watch her new TV obsession (Pretty Little Liars) while we laid in bed and fall asleep.  I had a caniption (sp?) fit because I find the detestable, especially for a grown woman of grace, class and intelligence (that would be Mistress K.).

Instead of instinctively realizing that even though she was asking me to agree to watch it, she was actually telling me .... I battled.  I guess I thought I was intellectually entitled to be incredulous and throw a fit about, you know, because it's a sophomoric, moronic show.  Well, the night ended with Mistress being pissed off before she fell asleep.  Or so it seemed.  I was still wallowing in some misguided sense of righteousness, beginning to doze off into my slumber.  I had long assumed Mistress K. was fast asleep.   She wasn't!

Suddenly she popped up, wide awake and said .... "I will not stand for this.  Lay on your tummy and put your face in your pillow!"  Her words made instantly understand that she was invoking her right as the leader of our marriage to end this madness  ...... and she was pissed.  With that she removed the covers exposing my bare bottom (I always sleep naked) and immediately starting hard spanking my ass with her hand.  She was spanking me for probably 25-30 really hard spanks, then she abruptly turned over and then went to sleep.  Before dozing off she said "this is not over and neither is your punishment!.

Like I said, busy suburban lives ..... can't do this .... can't do that .... the kids are always around ... school .... PTA ..... sports .... you get the idea.  Mistress took Friday off from work.  On Wednesday she informed me that I would be going into the office "a little late on Friday" because we needed to fix the problem that I created the other night.   Gulp!

Knowing what was coming on Friday gave me an opportunity to reflect on what had happened and why, and as such I was able to process things and anticipate what was coming.  Or so I thought ......... Mistress came home from taking the kids to school.  I heard the garage door open then close.  She came into the house, I was naked (cuz, you know, I'm required to be) and nervous.  She slammed her purse on the counter and just said FUCK!  She had spilled her coffee in the garage.  She pointed to the garage and said "get out there .... now!".  So naked I walked into the garage where she proceeded to scold me for the clutter that was evident.   This went on for several minutes before she stormed back into the house, me following.  She told me to leave her be and she would summon me when she was ready for me. 

After about 30 minutes, she said "I'm ready for you" and summoned me to the bathroom where she was.  She was wearing only loose fitting, not flattering sweat pants and she was topless.  Her hair was a mess and in a pony tail and she had on no make up whatsoever.  She order me to the bed where she had arranged pillows in the middle of the bed.  "Lie on those pillow with your ass in the air and wait for me".  Gulp!

I waited for what seemed like 30 minutes until she finally came into the room.  What followed next was the longest spanking session with the most number of swats that I ever had.  It hurt.  All the while she was spanking me, she was lecturing me on the how things where going to change around here.  She told me that if I truly thought I was worthy of giving her my submission, I'd better remember how I needed to ALWAYS demonstrate that, and that it "includes more than just offering to give me orgasms!"  By the time it was over I'd guess 30 minutes had passed and I had received perhaps 250-300 whaps on my bare ass.  I had genuine tears.  It hurt like hell ............

Afterward, Mistress went and sat in her easy chair in our bedroom and called me over to kneel before here.  When I did, I was awash in something that I truly hadn't felt in months ...... deep subspace!  I begged her for forgiveness as she pulled my head into her breasts and told me that everything was going to be ok.  At that moment, I was swimming in one of my absolute favorite things about her ..... her smell.  The smell of her face, her head, her skin.  OMG it was pouring into my nose and covering like a warm blanket. 

After several minutes of adoration, worship and forgiveness, Mistress ordered to dress for work (wearing a cock ring) and prepare to go to the office.  The entire day was spectacular.  My punishment had refreshed me.  Cleared the slate.  Mistresses words of admonishment were ringing in my ears like music.  Mistress had reset our course and I couldn't love her more for it.

Mistress had errands to run throughout the day (mani/pedi, massage, Lulu Lemon, etc.) which I knew would keep busy and coming and going from the house throughout the day.  When I got home from work and walked into the bedroom, the pillows that were placed in punishments position on what had become the punishment bed, had not been moved from that morning.  I took a picture and sent it to Mistress K. and asked her if I should move the pillows back to where they belonged or not.  She replied and said "no, leave it that way until you go to bed tonight because when you go to bed, I want your spanking this morning to be the last think you remember before going to sleep." 

I gasped in utter devotion, respect and love .....


This picture because the woman reminds so much of Mistress K.


 This picture because, she reminds me of Helen Mirren, who I think is one of the hottest women on the planet



Thank you Mistress for re-setting our course.  I will strive to be the kind of submissive you want me to be!



17 comments:

  1. Great to have you back blogging sub hub, glad the punishment left you with such wonderful memories :)

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    1. Hi Julie, and thank you for the warm welcome back.

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  2. Great story, though I am totally with you on Pretty Little Liars. My wife loves it, while I think it's just awful.

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    1. What is it about that show that our ladies (and others) like so much. Do some women still long for those catty high school days?

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  3. Great to see you back SubHub and what a fantastic post!
    Robert Anthony

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  4. Hi sub hub, life and old patterns creeping back do get in the way sometimes. Glad Mistress K was able to put things back to rights and love how it ended and how it made you feel :)

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Yes Roz, I so agree. Ultimately, the manner in which I perform is up to me and holding me to that standard is up to Mistress. I always appreciate your input.

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  5. Vanilla life can get in the way of a FLM. Mistress K finally made time to correct things. The pillows under your hips does present her with a good target as you well know. Knowing what you went thru I can almost feel what you felt after your punishment was over and what you thought about at work, along with your cock ring to remind you. Thank you for posting it.
    archedone

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    1. Thanks as always archedone. Things are going well for you in your like I hope!

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    2. Things are going great. No spanking for the past week catching up on yard work before winter. But today is Sunday and she told me to lay out four implements on the bed to spank me with after the football game. I told her I'd set them out right away and as I turned to go she said I also want my strap on. Now I have butterflies knowing I'm getting a good spanking and pegging after. I'm sure after my pegging my head will be between her legs giving her the service she deserves. If I'm lucky she might even let me cum. If she does I kmow I'll be licking it up no matter where it lands.
      archedone

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  6. FLRs are such an important part of our lives, and yet it is so easy to allow them to drift at times. I know that this has happened to my Wife/Mistress at times. One answer was to try weekly Discipline and Atonement sessions in which we talked (her in her easy chair, me on my knees) about the past week primarily focusing on the ABC's - A= my attitude, B=my behavior and obedience, and C = my chores. Mistress decided what sort of discipline and atonement was called for (usually a paddling and/or corner time). While I usually scored pretty well with the Chore part, my attitude and behavior were often found wanting and I needed to focus more on these. Her discipline has been a great help, and it helped my feel atonement for my bad behavior and attitude. While we don't do scheduled meetings any more (maybe we should), I am permitted to request such meetings (which I do) and she uses her authority to call such meetings when she feels they are needed (which she does).

    Sometimes I wonder how is it we men feel so good and secure when we submit ourselves to our women, and yet we so often allow ourselves to drift out of it.

    Thanks for allowing me to ramble. So glad to have you back.
    vic

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    1. Thanks so much vic. Mistress has been talking something along those lines. Discipline and Atonement sessions. Maintenance sessions that would follow a review of my behavior, or more importantly how successful I was at making her life pleasurable and happy.

      Thanks for the great comment my friend, and for the lovely welcome back.

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  7. Great story. It is great to see you thankful for the punishment that you deserved.

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  8. Wow! What a definitive return to your FLR. As with any relationship, it does take effort, attention and sometimes work. But it is worth it.
    This prolonged spanking hurt for sure, but hearing where it brought you to certainly indicates that it was worth it.
    My wife has found it personally difficult to hurt me with a long hard spanking. Invariably, when she is done, I still want more. You might say, "Be careful what you wish for" based upon this punishment.
    I think that many men who are in this lifestyle really want to be spanked, paddled, whipped, beaten, whatever, beyond what they may feel is their "limit". To be taken to that point and then experience kneeling before your Mistress and Queen has to be an amazing experience.
    Thank you again, for taking the time to share this with your readers.

    mrbill

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  9. I don't think it matters who you are, we ALL meander off course at times. Lose focus, misprioritize, whatever. In many circumstances and relationships this can become a debilitating process that can become hard to return from. One of the main reasons why I believe that formal WLM's have found their place in society and are growing in number (although I have no proof to back that up, just a hunch) is that there is a hierarchy, understood and accepted by both parties, wherein the Dom can re-establish order. When she/he takes the step to do that, a committed and humble sub will acquiesce and probably do so graciously. Just as you did for Mistress K.

    I imagine that Pretty Little Liars will now have a different significance in your life and balking at watching the show is now a thing of the past. It was the straw that broke the camels back so to speak and your FLM is now in its proper perspective. Congratulations :)

    Congrats as well on enduring and growing from your severest spanking to date! What a thoughtful Mistress huh?

    sublove

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  10. Wow. Absolutely breath taking to read. How blessed you are that she cares so much about you.

    HQ420

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