Are we there already?

Are we at that inevitable point in our relationship, where Mistress's pleasure naturally would/should include another man's cock?  Maybe one that isn't prone to erupt in seconds because it has been constantly teased and denied, for weeks on end, like mine can be?  Is it that time in our relationship already?  Is it inevitable?  Am I prepared?

Each of us has our own little worlds that we live in.  We want those worlds to be safe, warm and full of love.  My love for Mistress K. is undeniable and as deep as anything I know and feel.  I want to bring her pleasure in life.  I want for her to have access to and the ability to enjoy, as much pleasure in life as possible.  Not just sexual pleasures, but every pleasure that is available to her.  I trust Mistress K. to be a very good arbiter of common sense when it comes to determining which pleasures she can safely indulge in, and which ones she can't.  For example, there is pleasure in cake and pie.  Mistress K., I suppose, could decide that because eating cake and pie is indeed a pleasure, and because she is in charge of determining what pleasures she can indulge in, she can eat cake and pie as much as she wants without ramifications.  Right?  Of course not, and she, like any rational person, knows that. 

What about sex?  Ah, now that's a different story, right?  I mean after all, Mistress K. is among a select group of people in this world.  Like relatively few others, she is someone that lovingly owns the heart, mind and body of someone else, which of course means that she could have any kind of sex, anytime she wants, any way she wants, simply because she wants to.  She decides the if, the when, the how of sex.  She also is the one that decides the who.  How great is that? 

Like any other group of people, those of us the FLR/FLM world are sometimes subject to what is claimed to be "normal".  Newbies starting out are worried about whether or not they are "doing it right".  Experienced couples ask and are asked questions all the time, about "is it normal for us to do this, or normal to do that ....?"  Personally, I've never been a fan of worrying about where any of us actually do or should "fit in".  I get a bit weary at the natural inclination of people (me included) to constantly try to define everything into narrow definitions.  There are even those that will give unsolicited opinions of how you/we are doing it right or doing it wrong.  I have a commenter who is an anonymous "Mistress".  She will occasionally comment or email me to let me know that until Mistress K. requires me to consume my own cum, we really don't have a legitimate FLM because, well, you know, it's what everyone does in an FLM.  Although she's adamant about, she's pleasant enough and even humorous about it that I really can't take offence to it.  Besides, even if I did, unless a commenter is blatantly, obviously and needlessly offensive, I'll always leave their comments in place.  Thankfully, Mistress K. and I don't feel the need to allow anyone outside of our deep love for each other, to define the parameters that love.

Even though some things are never "always required" to define the kind of relationship Mistress K. and I have, there are undeniable commonalities to a D/s relationship.  Especially a Female Led D/s relationship.  Of course, one of those "not uncommon" things is for the Dominant Female to take on a male lover .....  be it a full-on cuckold relationship, with humiliation, forced bi and other things that serve to degrade and humiliate the submissive male;    or Her taking a random, nameless, faceless male, human sex toy, it's obviously not an uncommon thing in a FLM/FLR. 

That being said, there are many, many monogamous FLM's, and my marriage is one of them.  Neither Mistress K. nor I have previously expressed a desire in the past for a separate male lover to sexually service Mistress K.  We are both very, very protective of the core elements of our love, and would never do anything to risk that.  It's a key reason why we never actually did engage I a threesome with other women when we had the chances in the past.  Safeguarding our love. 

One of the effects on me that has evolved from our FLM is that is I get an ENORMOUS amount of joy and pleasure from seeing Mistress K. having intense sexual pleasure and orgasm.  It is a genuine thrill for me.  It really is.  I've even been able to have a ruined orgasm by simply watching my beloved wife having a orgasm.  I am also so grateful that Mistress allows me to see her have her orgasms.  I know that isn't always the case for many submissive husbands.  Witnessing her having an orgasm will usually put me into immediate and deep subspace.  Our evolution has brought me to now get as much sexual pleasure from her orgasms, as I could get from having one on my own.  It is just that much of a joy to be a part of and to witness my beloved Wife having such pleasure. 

One of the realities of a FLM, is daily teasing/edging, followed by orgasm denial. For many couples, it's a key component in their recipe for happiness.  I know it is in mine.  As such, the male is in a nearl constant state of arousal, which means that he often a hair trigger penis, and can usually come in a matter of seconds when his penis is pressed into service (pun intended).  I'm sure there are some men out there than can do it, ..... that can go from a teased/denied, constant state of edge-of-orgasm arousal, to a porn-star like man that can fuck as long as she wants, and cum on command.  For the rest of us mortal humans, that kind of thing is usually not possible. 

There are times when suddenly Mistress feels the desire to be fucked, good, hard and for as long as she wants. When the times comes, and because of my constant state of arousal, it usually requires some numbing cream, a cock sleeve and waiting time for the cream to numb the cock. Should she have to be concerned about her sub cumming without permission, or worse, having to stop altogether to avoid ejaculation? This doesn't seem fair for any Mistress not to have a hard cock available to fuck her like she wants.

Last night I was having many random, crazy dreams.  In one of them, Mistress K. was getting fucked by another man, she was loving every second of it.  Not only that, I was there, naked, sitting behind her, holding her legs apart.  Not only that, I helped this strange man him fuck my wife by grabbing and holding his cock, and guiding it into her pussy, then watched as he brought intense pleasure from being fucked long and hard.  (In my dream, he didn't have a big, giant cock like that depicted in the picture below, but there are only so many pictures of husbands holding their wife's legs apart so she can fucked, and except for the giant cock, it's pretty much how I remember the scene in my slumbering head. * smile)

Not only that, when recalling that portion of the dream, I got a huge erection, and then I got another huge erection telling Mistress K. about it.  Wait, what?  Did I just say that?  This is something new.

How could this be?  The last time I had a sex dream that included any other man, it caused me to wake up in a panic.  It was one of those .... "oh good, it was only a dream, but I still need some reassurance from you right now" kind of dreams.  And in this particular dream, all she did was barely handle a guy's cock that happened to be lying next to us in bed, for some reason. 

With these things in mind and being a bit jealous by nature, how could I go from near panic about a dream where Mistress K. briefly touches another man's cock, to waking up as hard as a rock and very  aroused because another man fucked her?  How could this be?  I'd say the biggest difference between the two "mind-fuck" dreams, was that the man in my latest dream was merely a faceless, nameless human sex toy.  There was no intimacy between him and my Mistress.  No kissing, no typical cuckold fodder about how I was a useless man when it came to sex.  There was none of that.  He wasn't there to steal her, or replace me in her life in any way.  Mistress seemed very intent on making sure I knew that, during the dream.  In fact, there was a great deal of gratitude and intimacy that was directed solely at me while she was being well fucked by this other man. 

Are we there already?  Are we at that milepost on our journey?  Are we growing up?  Are we growing into our journey?  Oh boy ..........  What's next?

Cucked?

Not really, no.

This morning, I was naked and approached Mistress to inform her that I was about to get dressed.  She then informed me that she had bought me some golf pants yesterday and that since i was already naked, it would be a good time to try them on.  She ordered me to our closet, showed me the pants and had me try them on, then stand on a stool so she could pin the legs where they were to be hemmed.  After both pairs were pinned, she ordered me out of my clothes and to stay standing on the stool.  She reached for some lube and starting stoking my rapidly growing erection.  At the same time, her other hand was roaming my naked body and she started to bite my butt.  Being naked on that stool while she was edging me was so hot that it was only a matter of seconds before I was straining to avoid an orgasm.  There is just something about being objectified by this gorgeous woman that sends me straight to the edge quickly.  After a few repeated trips to the edge, she abruptly stopped and told me to clean up and get dressed for work.  "You'll be wearing a cock ring today" she said as I made my way toward the bathroom.  it was hot.  Really hot.

I left for the office with a rock hard cock. I couldn't take my mind off of what just happened.  While sitting at a red light i texted here a few sexy pictures.  One of them was of the suction-cup dildo that she used to simulate a cuck experience.  More about that can be viewed in this post:

http://subhubphx.blogspot.com/2015/01/i-was-good-boy.html

I got to the office, had to focus on my job because an important meeting was waiting for me the second I walked in the door.  That meeting lasted about 90 minutes and as I was walking from the conference room to my office, i received a text from her that simply said "jealous?".   At first I didn't know what she meant.  Then it occurred to me that she was referring to the suction cup dildo in the pictures.  The very one she "cucked " me with a couple of weeks ago.  I had to stop and think .... am I actually jealous of a sex toy?  No.  I thoroughly enjoy using sex toys in our lovemaking, without ever having an ounce of self-consciousness.  Does she think I am jealous of the imaginary man that was represented by the dildo that day, and that was fucking her hard and for as long as she wanted?  Maybe a little, but no, because it wasn't an actual man that was pleasuring her that way. 

I replied by saying that jealous may not be the right word and that perhaps "conflicted" was the right word.  Immediately after sending it I thought to myself ... Conflicted?  Conflicted about what?  I came to realize that my conflict had to do with the disappointment I feel when I am not physically able to fuck her for as long as she wants to be fucked.  Not without having to stop and start frequently in order to avoid orgasm or ejaculation.  I understand this to be common among submissive men in a loving FLM if for no other reason than the constant edging and teasing, and for being in what amounts to a constant state of arousal.  Still, I want to be the kind of bull-like lover that she sometimes wants to be fucking her.  I can't absolutely do it with some time to plan and some knowledge that it is going to be something she will want right then.  A little desensitizing spray and maybe even a cock-sleeve usually does the trick. 

I went on to tell her that the other side of the conflict coin was my incredible desire to see my Mistress in the absolute throes of passion, and to witness the joy she has by being fucked hard, long and in a way that allows her to have reckless abandon.  I've said it before and often ... It truly is an enormous source of sexual pleasure for me to witness Mistress in that state of reckless abandon.  So much so in fact that I know I could conjure up my own ruined orgasm without any direct stimulation to my cock and by merely watching her. Ideally, the cock that would otherwise be giving her that pleasure would be mine.  I wouldn't be able to handle it emotionally, to watch my Mistress being fucked in that fashion by a living, breathing, other man.  In other words, I wouldn't be able to handle being actually cucked by her with an actual other man.  A rubber, suction cup dildo?  yes.  Another woman?  Yes!  (I know, I know ... typical piggish male attitude, but at least I am honest about it.)  But not another real, live man. 

It got me to thinking ... Is it inevitable?  Are we headed toward the cuckold conversation.  OMG, could this be happening?  You know how the mind works ... once a little anxiety sets in, illogical thoughts begin to take over at which point, I had to abandon any idea that this could actually be happening because it wasn't actually logical.

That was earlier today.  Since then I have had time to think about it all calmly and I have come to the conclusion that although I still am in no way able to emotionally handle actually (probably now more than before), really being cucked by my Mistress with real, other man, I do hope that Mistress will "cuck" me again with that suction cup dildo again real soon, and real often.  Somewhere in the back of my mind, I dreaded having the knowledge that this topic and conversation would someday come into my view.    Guh!

Conflicted.

Switching roles today

Mistress K. most certainly has placed the "clip on the drawer", which is our private way to communicate that Mistress wishes to temporarily taste the submissive side of things. The amount of time we will be in reversed roles will be determined solely but Mistress K. and at her complete and absolute discretion.  Those are the rules. 

Before we were a FLM, Mistress K. and used to switch roles when we played D/s games.  Plus, Mistress K. keeps hearing me prattle on and on about how awesome subspace is ............ when in the presence of someone that you love more than anything.  I don't think it will be possible for that deep subspace feeling to happen in such a short period of time, but it will be my goal for her. Whether I have 10 minutes or 10 days in a temporary dominant role, that will be my goal.

Not surprisingly, the things that I want to do with/to her are many of the same things she enjoys having me do in my normal sub role.  I feel like having her allow me to worship her pussy and her ass.  Maybe worship her whole body with those all-over baby kisses that she loves (I love them too) so much? 

As an aside, Mistress lost a bet we made the day.  The wager was 5 spanks, meaning I would give her 5 spanks if she lost the bet.  She lost the bet!  I think I'll be incorporating that into my temporary Dom-ness. 

There will a point where she hands over the dominant reigns but before doing so we will have discussed what amounts to limits.  Both limits of where she is willing to go, and limits of where I am ALLOWED to go.  For example, regardless of our temporary status, I will not have the right to unilaterally decide that I am allowed.  Specifically, I will not be.  Also, I will be operating with the understanding that if I were to cross any previously discussed limits line during our role-reversal play, Mistress K. would likely think long and hard about ever wanting to do this with me again.  In short, I'll be required to figure out on my own, where the sweet spot (so to speak) is between my natural sub husband role and my temporary Dom role.  After it is over, it must end up being a thrilling, exciting, sexy adventure for Mistress to want to ever do it again with me, but I will have to be able to figure how get her there on her own.  I can't ask her to tell me what she wants.  She wants to be brought there.

Lastly, I came across this stunningly beautiful picture. 

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It is not Mistress K., but if I already didn't know that it wasn't her, I would be wondering when it was taken of her.  The resemblance is uncanny.  MMMMMMMM

Cock Therapy

Last night, while cooking dinner, Mistress walked behind me, patted my butt and whispered that in the morning, after she returned from taking the kids to school, we would resume my Cock Therapy.  I stoppped what I was doing, stood up straight and with a big smile on my face, turned my head toward Mistress, who was looking at me over her shoulder as she was leaving the room, sipping her wine and giggling.  I winked, nodded and indicated that I had heard her and that I understood.

For those of you who don't know what "cock therapy", at least as been described by my Mistress, you can read about it here:

http://subhubphx.blogspot.com/2014/09/summond-to-bedroom.html

The goal, of course, is to train me to be not so susceptable to coming so quickly, even though Mistress will tease and deny/edge me often and usualy denies an orgasm for me.  Like most sexual women, Mistress K. will often like to be able to have her man make love to her and frankly fuck her long and hard, whenever she wants.  She shouldn't have to hear ... "I'm close to cumming Mistress" ... before she is anywhere near getting the kind of sexual pleasure she is entitled to.

Yes, things like desenstizing spray help, especially applied under a condom and then under a cock sleeve.  Mistress K. gets the kind of fucking she really wants when we are able to plan that.  But soetimes, Mistress K. wants that kind of thing spontaneously.  That means I have to go from someone that has been probably teased and denied and held at the edge of orgasm, to someone that forget all that and resist the urge to come in order to pleasure Mistress.

This training goes essentially like this.  Mistress will say a number.  It can be 20 or it can be 100 or it can be ???  That number represents he number of thrusts I am required to make into whatever Mistress has decidd I must thrust my cock into.  It could be her hand, or it could be her pussy or mouth.  Whatever it is, i am to count how many thrusts I am actually able to consecutively complete without stopping or coming.  Oh, and God help me if I come because I aboslutely am prohibited from having any kind of ejaculation during this excercise.  If the number was 100 and my thrusts had to stopp at 50, then I am to receive 50 hard swats of her paddle.  Like this!  (That's actually me, and yes, that is a butt plug ... *smile)

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After that paddleing, the training will resume just a few minutes later under the same rules.

I am so happy to be resuming this training.  It was working before whe we were doing, although there was much more to do.  That said, we were making real progress.  It's hard work trying to prevent yourself from coming, and yes the spankings hurt.  At the end of the day I so much appreciate that Mistress is willing to train me the way she wants me to be. 

Oh what a night!

When I came home from work last night, I intended to pour myself a cocktail and settle in for a nice, relaxing Friday night.  Mistress K. had other ideas about how my night was going to go. 

She said, "Here's what you will be doing tonight" .....................  She went on to explain how I was going to be her driver and deliver her to a friends house because there was going to be several women there for "happy hour", and she had decided she was going.  Then she said that after I delivered her to her party, I would then be gathering and shuttling kids to place across town for them to have an evening for themselves.  The kids would be at this place until 10pm, at which point they would be picked up and returned by the parents of one of the other kids.  After delivering the kids, I was return home and prepare myself for the return of Mistress from the party at around 8pm. After properly preparing myself, I was to drive to the party, naked under my loose clothes, and pick her up.  She would have been drinking and would be in no condition to drive.  By prepare myself, she meant be ready (and more importantly able) to give her multiple orgasms that evening.  I also knew it meant that I must be clean, clean-smelling, clean-shaved (face, cock, balls and ass) and to be prepared for whatever sexual adventure Mistress K. was in the mood for when I came to pick her up from the party. 

By this time, was fully immersed in subspace.  The very idea that I was to do these tasks, then to prepare myself like a slut-in-waiting for Mistress to return from drinking with her friends, and to be prepared for sexually pleasuring her in a yet-to-be-determined fashion, was the reason why I was in subspace. 

I'm not going to go into the intimate details of our play last evening because I don't want to cheapen how emotionally important it was to us.  I will tell you that I have never been as deep in subspace, as deep in love and as much in awe of the Goddess that owns me as I was last night.

However, the second we walked into the empty house and the second I was in my required naked condition, and present before Mistress K., she did feel the overwhelming desire to do this to me .............

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The stated reason she did this to me was "because I want to.  Because at this moment, it brings me pleasure to she you be inflicted with a little pain"

She used someone she has never used on me before for a spanking.  This wooden spoon ........

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She's used a wooden spoon on me before.  But not this particular wooden spoon.  And it hurt like FUCK!!!  I don't if it was the spoon itself, or more the fact that Mistress K. was a little drunk and therefore a tiny bit sadistic, but it hurt like FUCK!  The more I whimpered, the more pleasure she was getting from what she was doing.  The picture doesn't show it, but the marks she was leaving were the kind that red all around and white in the middle.  You know, the kind that really, really hurt?

What an incredible night.  The amount of orgasms obtained were plenty.  The actual amount unknown for Mistress.  For me, it was zero.  I thoroughly enjoyed being the one that was expected to be sex ready when Mistress came home from drinking with friends.  I enjoyed how it made me feel like her slut-in-waiting.  After it was all over and it was time for bed, I asked Mistress if I could keep wearing my butt plug overnight while I slept.  She said yes.  I was hopeful that it would inspire vivid sex dreams ... I wasn't at all disappointed.  I'll try and post about some of those later.

Cock Sleeve

This is what it looks like mostly when Mistress K. is being sexually satisfied the way she wants. 

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This is not a picture of us, but it is eerily similar to what it is we do when Mistress allows me to enter her. There is one big difference ... Mistress K. has a much sexier ass.  :-)

It is rare that get to have a full orgasm when we have sex, but when I do, it is often following several orgasms by Mistress K. being serviced this way, When she makes me orgasm like this, she will require that I remove the sleeve, reenter her and have a glorious orgasm looking directly into her eyes.  She knows that is my absolute favorite to have a real orgasm.  I believe she prefers me to orgasm after satisfying her with the cock sleeve because she gets very lovely-dovey afterward and wants me to feel some of that too.  She doesn't allow, she will require that I do.  She requires me to because often I am usually begging her to deny me an orgasm and if an orgasm is inevitable, i ask for a ruined orgasm.  (She's trained me well)

New Toys for Mistress

Hi everyone,

Today I was able to go home for "lunch".  There was no food to eat, but there was something that needed to get accomplished.  Mistress and I had been apart for 5 days and there was some catching up to do.  A couple of weeks ago I sent a very sexy picture of a woman fucking herself on a suction cup dildo that was attached to a pole.  Mistress thought that was hot and mentioned that I might want to look into to getting her one of those.  Today, I got her two of them on my way home for lunch.  I got two because I didn't know which of them she'd like better. 

When i got home, I stripped naked of course.  Then i eagerly showed Mistress the purchase I had made.  In addition to the two suction cup cocks, i also bought some more lube and some Stud 100 desensitizing spray, which I believe is the best thing out there.  Although .... I've never tried the Emla Cream.  Has anyone else tried it?  If so, drop me a note.  I'd like to know more about it. 

She was pretty excited at having those and as she was leading my into the bedroom, her only in panties and me naked, she told me to bring them along in case she wanted to use one of them.  On this day, Mistress started me off like she usually does by having me give her entire body soft kisses.  All over.  When i first giving these kisses, she likes them to be soft and romantic.  there are times that she says she could have me do that to her for hours ........... and I would because I consider it the ultimate treat to be able to put my mouth on her in any fashion.  It's an incredible way to worship and Mistress just loves it.

As is usually the case Mistress started to get horny from the soft kisses.  She told me to spend some time in the "ass area".  I asked her if it would be ok if i removed her panties.  She was laying on her tummy and simply raised her bottom up off the bed and pulled her legs together, indicating that she wanted them removed.  I was able to worship Mistress' ass for about 15 glorious minutes.  She had her back arched and was spreading her les wider and wider as i continue to tongue her tiny rear hole.  It is one of the things i enjoy most and I am grateful that Mistress let me linger there today.

She wanted my mouth on her clit and the only way i was able to do that was to roll onto my back and slide under her between her legs.  She loved and started to grind against my face.  Mistress has said in the past that she doesn't usually like this position but her moaning and writhing told me that today she loved it.  I was thrilled to see how she was enjoying it and i hope that she remembers how much she enjoyed.  Suddenly she had be get the butt plug.  She told me to carefully lube it so it be inserted in HER!  She did not want any of the lube to get on her pussy because my mouth was going back there.  i placed a small amount of lube on the plug and a tiny amount on her rosebud and started to press it against her when she told me to stop.  She instructed me to get on my back again so she could straddle my face.  She wanted me to resume licking her this way while I inserted the plug into her.  Hole fuck that was awesome!

After what seemed like a long time, Mistress stopped and told me to grab one of her new suction cup dildos and follow her into the closet.  She was looking frantically for a smooth service to putt he dildo on.  I loved watching her walk from behind because i could see my pink glass butt plug firmly in her ass.  She stuck the dildo against one of the cabinets and expertly backed herself right onto it.  Then, from her knees with the cock in her pussy and the plug in her ass, she ordered me to kneel in front of her so she could suck my cock, thereby having all 3 holes filled.  I asked her if this was something that she always wanted and she nodded and moaned in the affirmative while she fucked herself against the dildo.  After only a few second she spit my cock out because it tasted bad.  I had some lube on it somehow.  ( I promised, there was no unauthorized stroking)  Mistress then ordered me to lay on my back, feet facing away from her, and had me slide my face under hers and she was kissing me as passionately as she ever has while she was being fucked.  I asked her if this was acting out a fantasy of being fucked by another while I watched and she said yes.  She had me then put my hand on her clit and rub it so she could cum this way.  She was kissing me as I laid there, arm stretched, rubbing her pussy and clit while she was getting fuck by the cupboard.  She had tremendous screaming orgasm (I don't exactly know how many) and then just collapsed on the carpeted floor of the closet.  We both laid there, breathing hard, trying to catch our breath.

After a moment, i asked her if I had just been cucked by the cupboard.  We laughed her ass off and said "I guess so".  We both laughed.  Being cucked by a dildo wearing cabinet is fine with me ..... as long as Mistress never truly desires another man to perform that function.

After another minute, I got to my feet, my rock hard cock (I was not allowed to cum) pointing to the sky and i said to Mistress that i would clean things up while she rested.  What an incredible day.

Let's see how you do today

Thursday morning, Mistress was intent on continuing my cock-therapy.  For those of you just joining us, cock-therapy is training that Mistress is putting me through to increase the amount of time I can have direct stimulation to my cock and not have to fight off the urge to cum (stop), when Mistress is wanting a spontaneous, good, hard fucking.  Of course it can be accomplished with desensitizers and with the use of the cock sleeve, but that takes planning and therefore isn't spontaneous.  Her training plan isn't scientific, but she is interested in seeing how it will work.

Mistress called me into the bedroom and in a methodical, clinical manner, explained that we were going to be continuing cock-therapy today while she was removing her clothes.  Watching her do this was getting very excited and aroused and by the time Mistress commanded me to enter her and see how many pumps I could go before I had to stop, I was super horny.  The previous day (day 1) is was able to have 7 good, long, slow pumps before having to stop to avoid cumming.  Quite disappointing to both of us.  It resulted in 23 hard swats from the pink leather paddle.

As was the case on the first day, Mistress wasn't done and decided that she was going to get her orgasm and had me get her vibrator for her and she proceeded to have her orgasm.  Beautifully so I might add!  She was still a bit mischievous after her orgasm and instructed me to see if i could make myself orgasm by straddling her tummy and humping the air above it, while i looked down on her. Although it is something i aspire to do some day, and have come close to doing in the past, i wasn't able to on this occasion.  Without hesitation, Mistress instructed me to re-enter her pussy, give it 2 quick pumps, withdraw and see if it could cause myself to have a ruined orgasm that way.  That was all I need.  Boy did I ever have a ruined orgasm, futilely pumping my cum from my rock yet neglected cock, directly onto her tummy. 

Mistress instructed me to clean her up and then she surprised by having me re-enter her pussy yet another to see how many thrust I could go (after the ruined orgasm) before I had to fend off the urge to cum.  This time the number was 60.  Mistress looked at me, smiled, got up from the bed to leave the room, kissed me and told me to clean up the mess before getting ready for work.

She had that "I think we may be on to something here" look on her face.

let me know how it works

Even though Mistress and i couldn't be together this past long weekend, Mistress did send along a couple of instructions for me while she was dealing with things at home.  One of those was to wear a cock ring all day to commemorate in my mind that she owns my cock and balls.  The other thing?  Well, that was a little more interesting.

2 weeks ago i was at the grocery store picking up a few things.  In my shopping, i came across this.

It's dental pain relieving cream that is 20% benzocaine and is designed to temporarily ease the pain of toothaches and the like.  I had hear (or did i read?) that some people will use Orajel to desensitize the penis to help with premature ejaculation.  I even heard that some Mistresses that keep their submissives locked in a cock cage for a long period, will remove the cage, apply a desensitizer, allow enough time for it to do it numbing, and then give the submissive something like 30 seconds to try and have an orgasm/ejaculation, before being locked right back up. 

Anyway, in reading this blog you'll know that we like to use a desensitizer on me before putting my cock into a cock sleeve whenever so that Mistress can get the kind of good hard fucking she wants from time to time.  So when i came across "Benzodent" I thought I'd give it a try and see if it worked as good as the spray we currently use. 

As you know, Mistress was unable to join me over the weekend so instead of trying it out together, Mistress texted me and had me apply it to my entire cock.  After waiting an hour, my instructions were to masturbate myself to the edge of orgasm and report back to her on how effective this cream was.  Shortly after her initial instructions, she sent supplemental instructions and those were .... keep applying the cream all day and masturbate myself tot he edge repeatedly during the day.  What a frustratingly wonderful day it was.  All in all, I've come to the conclusion that I really enjoy having my cock numbed.  It makes me feel like I can almost feel like i can thoroughly pleasure my Mistress with my cock as long as she likes, without telling her that I am about to cum.  I was so close so many times to having to let Mistress know that is ejaculated, but thankfully, I never had to report that.

How did it work?  Meh!  First, this cream is designed for the mouth (wet environment) and is thicker than toothpaste.  I applied it to my cock right out of the tube and it was very sticky.  After that first hour, when i started to masturbate, I applied some water to my hand and it became very, very slippery and the water seemed to ignite the numbing agent in the cream, so subsequently when I applied it throughout the rest of the day, I did so with water.  Knowing this, I'll try it again and see how it works out.

I have a question for all of you.  Which is the best numbing cream to use on a subs cock?  I've heard of Emla Cream but i understand you need a prescription for that.  Like I said earlier, I've heard that people use Orajel too and i think I'll ask Mistress if we can try it too.  Please leave a comment with your thoughts/suggestions/recommendations.  Mistress and I would very much appreciate it.

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I'm horny and want to be fucked hard and long ... right now.

So, Thursday morning, I'm sitting at the computer working on a tersely worded email to some a-hole I was dealing with.  I was naked when Mistress arrived back from taking the kids to school, which was a good thing because those are the rules.  The day before I did just barely get them off after Mistress had come into the house and she saw with my shorts on as I remembered at the last minute and scooted off to the other to remove them.  She let it slide.

ON this day, walked up behind me and started kissing all over my rubbing everywhere on my naked body except for my cock, balls and ass.  She loves to teases me that way.  She left and 2 minutes later she called for me.  She said to hurry. I asked her if I would finish this paragraph I was working and she said "NO!  I want you in here now."  I did finish my sentence then go toward the bedroom.  I had my mind on my work and was frustrated when I entered the room, not knowing why I was even going in there.  I thought she was going to show me something "interesting" she saw on TV, which kind of aggravated me a little given the state of mind I was in. 

When I walked into the rook, Mistress was naked, on the bed and stacking pillows in the middle.  She laid herself on the pillows, her beautiful ass high in the air when she said "I horny and want to be fucked long and hard, right now".  With that she ordered my to fetch pinky (our cock extension) and to return quickly, hard and ready to fuck her.  I asked her to rub my cock to get it started and that was all I needed.  I went into the closet where we keep pinky and I lubed the inside of it and my cock with desensitizer lotion.  Normally I would use lube to get it on and hold it in place but all of a sudden I was faced with Mistress using me, my body and my cock for pure, raw animalistic fucking, and I knew that even though I was going to be wearing pinky and could feel a single thing with my cock, the vision before and the sensation of thrusting my pinky covered cock into Mistress gorgeous, extremely eager pussy was going to cause me to want to cum inside the extension. 

I was fucking Mistress good and hard for a good 5-10 minutes when the urge to orgasm was slowly coming on.  I let Mistress know and she told me to go get the rubber but realistic feeling large dildo, complete with ball, put a condom on it and use both it and my pinky covered cock to give her the fucking she demanded right then.  That's exactly what she got.  I caught a second wind and went back and forth with the two different cocks and fucked her hard!  She was so lost in being fucked like that and it was a beautiful thing to see.  She was doggie style the whole time, face and shoulders on the bed, legs wide, back arched and ass high.  She got fucked good.  I would put my hand on her head and force her head into the bed while fucking her to make her feel like she was just being taken,  I even slapped her ass a few times to let her be lost in the sensation of not having a choice of whether or not she was going to be fucked like this.  Looking down, watching my pinky covered cock stretch her pussy and slide in and out, her tiny rear hole was begging for some attention .... so I pressed my thumb against the opening.  There was barely any resistance at her anal opening and so I took that as I sign that my thumb as being invited inside.  It slide in very easily  and Mistress let out a guttural groan and came from her very core.  She reached for the vibrator she was holding nearby, turned it on placed it against her clit and had one of the most intense orgasms I have ever seen her have.  Ever!

When she collapsed, I got off the bed and walked over to the other side and tenderly kiss her sweat soaked face.  Her hair was wet from her sweat and sticking to her face.  She was the epitome of freshly fucked hard.  She was as beautiful as I have ever seen here at that moment.  I went to clean to the equipment and when I returned 5 minutes later, she hadn't moved an inch.

Yeah, I fucked her good!

She Made be do it

Mistress made me have a full-on orgasm.  It had been at least 6 weeks since I had an orgasm.  This of course does not take into account the 3 ruined orgasms I had during that time. 

It was Friday evening about 8pm.  Mistress had just returned from having drinks with some friends.  Almost at that same moment, one of her besties (who wasn't out with them) came by to pick up our children to accompany her and her children for a treat (ice cream I think).  We said goodbye to her friends and told all the kids to have a good time and then Mistress went off to go to the bathroom.  I returned to the coach to watch the baseball game. 

About five minutes later I heard "come here pet" coming from the bedroom.  I sprang up from my previously reclined position, remembered that we were sudden alone and stripped naked before going in to the bedroom to see Mistress.  When I arrived she was wearing only her panties and was laying on the bed.   "Go put pinky on, and hurry", she said.  Pinky, for those of you that don't know, is a pink, translucent cock sleeve that I sometimes wear in order to fuck Mistress thoroughly without cumming.

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I rushed into the closet and sprayed my cock with desensitizing spray and slipped pinky over my rock hard cock using the still wet spray as the lube necessary to get it on.  I told Mistress that I wanted to wash the spray of the rubber cock so it didn't numb her pussy too. 

I returned to the bed and I fucked here good!  It was awesome.  I don't know how many orgasm she was able to have but I only stopped fucking her when she said she couldn't take anymore.  It has happened more that I would still have the uncontrollable urge to orgasm even though I was wearing pinky.  NOT THIS TIME.   I was so happy to be able Mistress K. the thorough fucking that she wanted right then.

I last fucked her to orgasm doggy style when she told me to stop.  I pulled out and watched her slowly lower her body down to the bed until she was resting comfortable on her tummy.  I love to see her like this.  I was about to ask her if I could get anything for her when she said "take off pinky and come put your cock inside of me".

I did as I was told and although I was still able to last a good bit before the urge to cum was about to overwhelm me, the need to cum was upon me.  I told Mistress that I was about to cum, hoping and fully expecting for Mistress to tell me I wasn't going to be cumming this night.  Instead she said, you will not cum until I cum again and started rubbing her clit.  She started to cum again and I knew I was about to be told to experience a full orgasm.  My instinct now is beg to NOT orgasm, and so I was begging Mistress to not let me orgasm fully and if I was going to be required to ejaculate for her, to please make it a ruined orgasm.  She would have none of it and forced me to have a full orgasm by demanding I not stop fucking her until I have cum.

Holy shit that orgasm was incredible!!!!!  Unbelievable in fact.   In the afterglow of our lovemaking, I mentioned to Mistress K. how ironic it was that the begging that takes place in bed is for me to not be allowed to cum.  It seems like the training I have been receiving has been paying off in that regard. 

Of course the reason I beg not to cum is because I don't want to be in the "orgasm hangover" state afterward.  I enjoy being denied and in a constant state of desire.  That being said, I can tell you that the "recovery" period in the last 3 full orgasms (only in the last 5 months) has been a day or so, rather than the normal few days it would've taken before we started our FLM. 

One of the things I remember us doing early in our FLM adventure was forced orgasms.  One Friday afternoon, Mistress informed me that I was going to be required to have 5 orgasms (ruined or otherwise) before we went to bed on Sunday night or I would be severely punished.  It was difficult.  On Sunday, mid-morning, I stall had only had 2 orgasms.  I was able to complete my task but it was tough as shit.  I wonder how i'd do now. 

Hmmm, interesting

Come here

The past 2 weeks since Mistress returned from Her trip have been awfully hectic for a variety of reasons i won't get into (cuz they'll bore you).  All is well it's just that there hasn't been much time or opportunity to for intimate time together for U/us.

This morning i woke before Her and was making coffee.  She called me into the bedroom, flung the sheets off of Her body and said "come here".  I went over to Her and started kissing on her body thinking She was just warm under the sheets.  She wasn't.  She wanted to cum!  She told me to get inside Her.  Did i hear that right?  Yes, get inside her.

i was rock hard in an instant and climbed on the bed when She said "be rough with me".  I pulled Her panties down as if She was my willing little slut, waiting there for me take my pleasure from Her.  I slide my cock inside Her and starting fucking Her, but it only took a few strokes before i wanted to cum.  i begrudgingly told Her i was close and She said "no coming".  I ground into her forcefully but in a way that not make me cum right away but the feeling was building and i told her again.  She said again "no cumming".  i rested for a moment while She relished my cock being inside Her and then tried again to be the forceful lover that was just going to take her and fuck Her.  She was on Her tummy with Her left leg pulled up to her chest.  i leaned forward and with my hand pressed Her face into the pillow to hold her there while i fucked Her.  She loves it when i do that.  As i was approaching orgasm again She said "pull my hair".  Holy fuck, i can't hold off having an orgasm with the most gorgeous woman in my world telling me to take Her like a slut.  i finally had to tell Her that i wasn't going to be able to hold off my orgasm if She wanted me to continue fucking Her this way.  Had i known earlier, i would've sprayed my cock with desensitizer and put the cock sleeve my numbed cock so i could fuck Her the way She wanted to be fucked right then.  One of the downsides of orgasm denial is when i finally get to be inside Her, or She strokes my cock, or She makes me masturbate for Her, i can't last long before cumming.

In any event, She was well on her way to orgasm but wanted her fave vibrator (actual picture below)

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i gave it to her and continued to fuck Her while struggling not to cum.  She came hard while i alternated pulling Her hair and pressing Her face into the pillow.  When She was through, She said thank you and i was excused.

God I love her!

Postscript note:  i do love it when She wants it to be rough.  i love seeing be a wanton slut, begging to be fucked and used, albeit for a short period of time.  i know the unmitigated joy of surrender and release and know that She occasionally likes to feel that way too.  It now has me wishing for a day where She wishes to be the sub and have me dominate her.   Wishful thinking?  Perhaps.  A boy can dream

Free Day

i was just informed by Mistress that this evening i will have free access to the pleasure of by body , in any way i want, to do anything i wish to myself sexually.  Not only that ....... get this, i am required to bring myself to orgasm.  Yes, that's what i said, i am required to bring myself to orgasm.  What a special treat, a special that Mistress had given to me.

When i first saw the words on the text, i thought she must be kidding.  Maybe it was a typo?  So i asked for her to confirm that not only was i allowed to cum, i was REQUIRED to cum.  Holy crap!!  It didn't take long for me to realize that this would be the first time in 2 years that will orgasm fully and ejaculate without her being a witness.  my initial reaction was unsettling.  i have lovingly and willingly committed myself to only ever ejaculating while in the presence of my Mistress.  So late, when i am done teasing and denying myself repeatedly, and i am done repeatedly filling my hungry bottom with her strappy cock, i will have an orgasm.  One hour from now, i will be going to have dinner with some buddies.  While there i will be wearing my new glass plug (wearing it now) and will have my balls-stretcher harness on in tribute to my Mistress Wife.

There is an old joke .....  "I had sex last night and i was nervous.  Yeah, I was all alone."  Genuinely, i will be nervous.

I love you Mistress.  You are a glorious Mistress, lover, Wife and friend.  Thank You.

Making Love

On Friday night past, Mistress and i had made plans for Mistress to get fucked really well that night.  The plan was for us to get some of O/our chores completed, get the kids to bed early because they had to wake up early the next morning, and then W/we could spend some time alone.  i had no expectation of being allowed cum.  Mistress had to me to shower and an hour or so before the planned event, then i was to apply the Stud 100 desensitizing spray to her cock and allow that hour to really make it numb.  Also, that i would be using the cock sleeve on Her that night. This would really allow me to last long so She could have the good hard fucking she wanted. 

The night was kind of getting away from U/us because the kids weren't cooperating and shit in general was just going wrong.  i had showered as planned and applied the spray to my cock and then slipped on some loose fitting shorts to allow the spray to do it's thing.  Meanwhile, Mistress was becoming more and more frustrated with shit going wrong around Her.  Finally, when walking past me, She looked at me and said something to the effect that there would be no sex tonight because she was frustrated (in general, not with me) and losing interest, and then left the room to go into the bathroom.

i went to Her and told Her (in as cute a way as possible) that i understood and that if She did not want to get fucked really, really well, of course W/we didn't have too.  That seemed to lighten her mood a bit but not much.

The kids were finally in bed and She went in to take a shower.  When Mistress is frustrated, i know well enough to let Her have Her space.  That said, i poked my head into the shower and asked Her if She wanted me to be prepared to pleasure Her when She emerged from the shower, or if i should simply go about my business and give Her space.  She opted for the space.  Undaunted, i went about my business and began to close down the house for the night.  When i was done, i again poked my head into the bathroom to let Mistress know i would be in bed, waiting for Her, not knowing what, if anything would happen.

The room was dark except for the light of the TV.  When She walked out of the bathroom to the kitchen, She was naked and She never looked more beautiful and sexy as she disappeared from the bedroom. When She came back in the bedroom and came toward the bed, She was even sexier than She was 3 minutes before.  She climbed into and immediately began to nuzzle into my chest  and wrapped her arms around me.  She immediately felt my rock hard cock and whispered that She was pleased with that.  i had idea that sex was to come because Her hands roamed my back and then my ass and She did one of my absolute favorite things ......... She spread my ass cheeks with both hands.  It made my hard cock harder. 

She whispered "give me those kisses i like" and rolled over onto her tummy.  Regular readers of this blog will know that there is hardly anything i enjoy more than giving her entire body soft licks, kisses and bite on Her naked body.  After about 10 minutes of that, She rolled over onto her back and told me to resume my kisses.  After a few minutes of that, She asked me .... "are you hard for me lover?"  I sat up on my knees so that She could see my rock hard cock pointing to the ceiling.  Then She made it abundantly clear that She wanted my mouth on Her pussy by spreading Her legs.  i moved right and savored having the honor of putting my mouth on her pussy.  i'm sure someone has actually had an orgasm while licking his Mistress's pussy before, but i was actually close.  It is that much of an honor for me.

After Mistress had a nice orgasm while on her back, She told me She wanted my cock inside of Her for another orgasm.  i asked her is She wanted me to get the cock sleeve and She said No .... "fuck me now".  Even though my cock had been fully numbed by the Stud 100, it wasn't long before i felt an orgasm building in me.  i informed Mistress that i was about to come and She didn't say a word.  then i asked her if She intended for me to cum this night, and She didn't say a word.  Then i asked Her if i could have Her permission to cum and She said YES!!!!!!!! holy shit!  Yes?  i totally wasn't expecting that.  She said that i had better hold out until She had Hers and then i was allowed to cum inside of Her.  It was mere second later that Her orgasm began and i immediately began to orgasm while cumming deliciously inside of Her.   OMG!  It was a very strange orgasm because of the numbing spray but i didn't care.  Being able to have my mouth on Her body, then on Her pussy, then ......... being able to witness 2 orgasms ........... was glorious! 

i didn't asked if she intended on allowing me to cum that night and She didn't offer.  We feel asleep and slept like a couple of rocks.

I love this Woman so much!

Unexpected Opportunity

Wake Saturday morning to find there is a flat tire on my car.  Not the end of the world, but sitting in the lobby of Discount Tire was not how i wanted to spend my morning hours on Saturday.  Mistress was already relishing in the fact that She did not have to do anything all day, and was going to sleep in, lounge around, and be waited on.

Well, as i pull up to the tire shop, i notice that right across the street is a Fascinations sex shop.  A little smile comes over my face knowing that i could at least use my 90 minutes or so at the tire shop to browse sex toys.  i even told the guy at the shop i'd be "across the street" doing my Mother's Day shopping.

Came away with three items.  A new glass butt plug to replace the other one that shattered when it hit the floor.  This one while most certainly be easier to hold in. 

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Not an exact picture but pretty damn close.  It's nice and fat and tapers down nicely to a skinny base that my ass should be able to grip well.  The other one we have just didn't enough of a taper and when it was lubed up, it shot out of me like a missile onto the tile floor.

Also bought a spreader bar.  We've never had one.  I always wanted one and now we have one.  I can't wait to play it.  If i were to be honest (and i am nothing if i am not honest), i dream of Mistress asking me to place her legs in these.  There, i said it!

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The last item was more desensitizing spray  Was almost out.  This stuff is wonderful.  It allows me to fuck Mistress for as long as she wants without cumming. 

Boy o boy do i love Her!

Human Sex Toy

i had a notion yesterday.  Mistress had a couple of orgasm just a couple of days ago and i wanted for her to be in a position to be able to enjoy a nice hard fucking, followed by an orgasm, followed by sleep.

While Mistress was putting the kids down to sleep, i showered, shaved and prepared my body to be used as her human sex toy.  i made sure that my body was in pristine bull-like fucking condition for Her.  Before showering, i prepared the bedroom and bed for sex.  Sex for Her.  A good hard fucking for her to be exact.  i folded the sheets down, lit a few candles in the room, turned the lights waaaay down lo,  placed a pile of pillows in the middle of the bed and even laid her favorite vibrator there for east reach should She feel She wanted it.  All the while She was luxuriating in our big tub. 

About an hour before, right after i showered, i liberally sprayed "Stud 100 - Male Genital Desensitizer" (which is a lidocaine spray) to my cock.  i didn't want for my trying to resist cumming to take away from the good hard fucking that Mistress was going to get.  i know how much she like to be fucked long and hard and under normal circumstances, especially after weeks of tease and denial, well cumming very quickly is what happens.  On top of sufficiently numbed cock, i wore a penis sleeve to subdue the sensation even more.

Long story short, Mistress loved it !.  i was able to go for as long and as hard as Mistress wanted.  She came HARD!!!!!  She was reduced to a puddle.  A completely satisfied puddle, but a puddle nonetheless. 

i love my Mistress and seeing her in such deep sexual pleasure is the most satisfying and thrilling thing for me to see.