Are we there already?

Are we at that inevitable point in our relationship, where Mistress's pleasure naturally would/should include another man's cock?  Maybe one that isn't prone to erupt in seconds because it has been constantly teased and denied, for weeks on end, like mine can be?  Is it that time in our relationship already?  Is it inevitable?  Am I prepared?

Each of us has our own little worlds that we live in.  We want those worlds to be safe, warm and full of love.  My love for Mistress K. is undeniable and as deep as anything I know and feel.  I want to bring her pleasure in life.  I want for her to have access to and the ability to enjoy, as much pleasure in life as possible.  Not just sexual pleasures, but every pleasure that is available to her.  I trust Mistress K. to be a very good arbiter of common sense when it comes to determining which pleasures she can safely indulge in, and which ones she can't.  For example, there is pleasure in cake and pie.  Mistress K., I suppose, could decide that because eating cake and pie is indeed a pleasure, and because she is in charge of determining what pleasures she can indulge in, she can eat cake and pie as much as she wants without ramifications.  Right?  Of course not, and she, like any rational person, knows that. 

What about sex?  Ah, now that's a different story, right?  I mean after all, Mistress K. is among a select group of people in this world.  Like relatively few others, she is someone that lovingly owns the heart, mind and body of someone else, which of course means that she could have any kind of sex, anytime she wants, any way she wants, simply because she wants to.  She decides the if, the when, the how of sex.  She also is the one that decides the who.  How great is that? 

Like any other group of people, those of us the FLR/FLM world are sometimes subject to what is claimed to be "normal".  Newbies starting out are worried about whether or not they are "doing it right".  Experienced couples ask and are asked questions all the time, about "is it normal for us to do this, or normal to do that ....?"  Personally, I've never been a fan of worrying about where any of us actually do or should "fit in".  I get a bit weary at the natural inclination of people (me included) to constantly try to define everything into narrow definitions.  There are even those that will give unsolicited opinions of how you/we are doing it right or doing it wrong.  I have a commenter who is an anonymous "Mistress".  She will occasionally comment or email me to let me know that until Mistress K. requires me to consume my own cum, we really don't have a legitimate FLM because, well, you know, it's what everyone does in an FLM.  Although she's adamant about, she's pleasant enough and even humorous about it that I really can't take offence to it.  Besides, even if I did, unless a commenter is blatantly, obviously and needlessly offensive, I'll always leave their comments in place.  Thankfully, Mistress K. and I don't feel the need to allow anyone outside of our deep love for each other, to define the parameters that love.

Even though some things are never "always required" to define the kind of relationship Mistress K. and I have, there are undeniable commonalities to a D/s relationship.  Especially a Female Led D/s relationship.  Of course, one of those "not uncommon" things is for the Dominant Female to take on a male lover .....  be it a full-on cuckold relationship, with humiliation, forced bi and other things that serve to degrade and humiliate the submissive male;    or Her taking a random, nameless, faceless male, human sex toy, it's obviously not an uncommon thing in a FLM/FLR. 

That being said, there are many, many monogamous FLM's, and my marriage is one of them.  Neither Mistress K. nor I have previously expressed a desire in the past for a separate male lover to sexually service Mistress K.  We are both very, very protective of the core elements of our love, and would never do anything to risk that.  It's a key reason why we never actually did engage I a threesome with other women when we had the chances in the past.  Safeguarding our love. 

One of the effects on me that has evolved from our FLM is that is I get an ENORMOUS amount of joy and pleasure from seeing Mistress K. having intense sexual pleasure and orgasm.  It is a genuine thrill for me.  It really is.  I've even been able to have a ruined orgasm by simply watching my beloved wife having a orgasm.  I am also so grateful that Mistress allows me to see her have her orgasms.  I know that isn't always the case for many submissive husbands.  Witnessing her having an orgasm will usually put me into immediate and deep subspace.  Our evolution has brought me to now get as much sexual pleasure from her orgasms, as I could get from having one on my own.  It is just that much of a joy to be a part of and to witness my beloved Wife having such pleasure. 

One of the realities of a FLM, is daily teasing/edging, followed by orgasm denial. For many couples, it's a key component in their recipe for happiness.  I know it is in mine.  As such, the male is in a nearl constant state of arousal, which means that he often a hair trigger penis, and can usually come in a matter of seconds when his penis is pressed into service (pun intended).  I'm sure there are some men out there than can do it, ..... that can go from a teased/denied, constant state of edge-of-orgasm arousal, to a porn-star like man that can fuck as long as she wants, and cum on command.  For the rest of us mortal humans, that kind of thing is usually not possible. 

There are times when suddenly Mistress feels the desire to be fucked, good, hard and for as long as she wants. When the times comes, and because of my constant state of arousal, it usually requires some numbing cream, a cock sleeve and waiting time for the cream to numb the cock. Should she have to be concerned about her sub cumming without permission, or worse, having to stop altogether to avoid ejaculation? This doesn't seem fair for any Mistress not to have a hard cock available to fuck her like she wants.

Last night I was having many random, crazy dreams.  In one of them, Mistress K. was getting fucked by another man, she was loving every second of it.  Not only that, I was there, naked, sitting behind her, holding her legs apart.  Not only that, I helped this strange man him fuck my wife by grabbing and holding his cock, and guiding it into her pussy, then watched as he brought intense pleasure from being fucked long and hard.  (In my dream, he didn't have a big, giant cock like that depicted in the picture below, but there are only so many pictures of husbands holding their wife's legs apart so she can fucked, and except for the giant cock, it's pretty much how I remember the scene in my slumbering head. * smile)

Not only that, when recalling that portion of the dream, I got a huge erection, and then I got another huge erection telling Mistress K. about it.  Wait, what?  Did I just say that?  This is something new.

How could this be?  The last time I had a sex dream that included any other man, it caused me to wake up in a panic.  It was one of those .... "oh good, it was only a dream, but I still need some reassurance from you right now" kind of dreams.  And in this particular dream, all she did was barely handle a guy's cock that happened to be lying next to us in bed, for some reason. 

With these things in mind and being a bit jealous by nature, how could I go from near panic about a dream where Mistress K. briefly touches another man's cock, to waking up as hard as a rock and very  aroused because another man fucked her?  How could this be?  I'd say the biggest difference between the two "mind-fuck" dreams, was that the man in my latest dream was merely a faceless, nameless human sex toy.  There was no intimacy between him and my Mistress.  No kissing, no typical cuckold fodder about how I was a useless man when it came to sex.  There was none of that.  He wasn't there to steal her, or replace me in her life in any way.  Mistress seemed very intent on making sure I knew that, during the dream.  In fact, there was a great deal of gratitude and intimacy that was directed solely at me while she was being well fucked by this other man. 

Are we there already?  Are we at that milepost on our journey?  Are we growing up?  Are we growing into our journey?  Oh boy ..........  What's next?

Would Love your advice

Hi everyone.  I hope you all had a wonderful and safe 4th of July weekend.  Mistress K., the kids and I all had a great time in the mountains of Arizona and are now safely back home in the Valley of Sun (heat).

Being away like we were, surrounded with family and friends at all times, meant that our alone time was essentially non-existent.  That obviously meant that there was no time for US, to do, you know , the things that a Dominant Wife and submissive husband like to do sometimes.  Purely vanilla all weekend long!

After we got home late last night, unpacked the car, settled the kids for bed, we finally got to be naked and alone.  I was laying in bed already when Mistress K. came into the bedroom, went to the closet and a few minutes later, emerged, tired and ready to get some sleep.  The only light in the room was the TV and when she walked in front of it to get into bed, wearing only a black thong, she looked absolutely gorgeous.  One of the favorite parts of her body (her torso) was illuminated by the dim light of the TV and I instantly got hard.  Even though I was already half asleep, I immediately got hard just by the sight of her nearly naked body.  She was checking her phone before putting it on the charger and then climbed into bed and ordered me to cuddle (spoon) her.  I immediately did so, pressing my hard cock against the other favorite part of her body ... her ass. 

When she realized that she had forgotten to set her alarm, she shifted and moved to reach for her phone on the nightstand.  By doing so, she stretched her arms to reach for the hone, rolling slightly onto her tummy, exposing her beautiful back and ass to me.  While setting her alarm, I couldn't resist so I started rubbing her ass and back and started kissing her all over.  Something came over me and I started to act in a dominant fashion by telling her (not asking her) that I was going to fuck her right then.  I started thrusting my cock into the fleshly part of her bottom, mockingly fucking her while she fiddled with her phone.  When she finished and rolled onto her back, I "ordered" her to remove her panties and spread her legs.  She just looked at me.  Not defiant or disappointed that I was assuming a somewhat dominant role for a moment, but just looking at me.  I immediately just pulled her panties down and removed, throwing them to the floor beside the bed.  I "ordered" her open her legs, not knowing how she would respond to me talking to her like this.  Almost immediately she opened her legs with a smile on her face.  I grabbed her wrists in one hand and held them above her head and positioned myself to enter her.

I had been without much sex for almost two weeks, save for a few stolen moments when Mistress would stroke my cock through my shorts, or the day last week when Mistress ordered me to edge myself at (am, noon and 3pm precisely, regardless of where I was that day.  Being a chaste husband and having very few orgasms, I am usually in what amounts to a constant state of arousal.  Just the way Mistress K. likes to keep me.  It's July and so far this year I have had only 2 real orgasms and probably as little as 10 or 12 ejaculations (ruined orgasms).  There are times that I know Mistress K. wants to be taken and just fucked.  Fucked hard.  This was one of those times.  The downside of being chaste and in a constant state of arousal is that I can be brought to the edge of orgasm in a very short time.  After a short time of slowly moving my cock inside of restrained Mistress, the need to orgasm came rushing toward me and I had to stop in order to avoid an unauthorized orgasm.  I tried to start again and last longer but it just wasn't going to happen.  The disappointment on Mistresses face was obvious even though she did her best not to show it.  I offered to get "pinky" (our cock sleeve) and put it on so I could fuck her longer, but she said no.  She just ordered me to retrieve her panties so she could put them back on.  After helping her back into her panties, she said "that's all for you tonight so lay down and go to sleep". 

So, what advice do I need?  Well, if you haven't figured it out already, I need your advice on how to be both chaste and in a constant state of arousal, while also being able to satisfy my Mistress with my cock when she has the desire to be fucked, without having to stop to avoid orgasm.  Stamina! 

My friends ... what advice to you have for me to be able to give Mistress the good hard fucking she wants/needs/deserves, without being a typical feeble male that wants to ejaculate too soon?  I know that this very conundrum is the reason that Dominant wives will often cuck their husbands, or otherwise take on other lovers ... and this seemingly natural progression is what I hope to avoid.  This morning Mistress and I talked again about "cock therapy", which is Mistress K.'s idea to help prevent premature ejaculation.  If you don't already know, Mistress K.'s "cock therapy" goes like this ....  Mistress K. will give a number.  Say that number is 100.  I am then required to give Mistress K. as many full thrusts as I can leading up to that number, without stopping.  Let's say I get to 25 but need to stop in order to avoid cumming.  That leaves 75 ... the number of hard swats I will receive from Mistress' paddle.  After the paddling, I am immediately required to make another attempt, with the same outcome.  We have used "cock therapy" in the past and it was beginning to work, especially at the time when Mistress K. decided that if she was going to go through the trouble of paddling me, each swat was gong to be meaningful  (ouchy). 

Anyone have any advice for me?  I would especially love to hear from Mistresses out there that very well could be having to deal with the same issue.

Just returned

Hi everyone.  I hope each of you had a lovely weekend.  Our family just returned from another visit to the mountains of Arizona where we really enjoy going in the summer.  Gets hot in Phoenix in the summer you know!

While there, we stayed with friends and there were kids running about as well.  There was a particular moment where we would have 15 minutes or so of known alone time.  I was in the garage on my way into the house when Mistress opened the door, poked her head out and said "get hard and come put yourself inside".  At first I didn't think I heard her correctly because I wasn't expecting it so when she repeated herself, the getting part was accomplished in about 2.3 seconds.

Once inside, I found her in the bedroom was had just removed her pants and was lowering her panties.  Side note .... seeing Mistress bottomless while still wearing something on top has always been one of my favorites visions of her.  She has such a sexy and hips area and when being bottomless, it is perfectly accentuated.  But I digress ............

Mistress leaned over the bed and ordered me to put my cock inside her.  In instants like this, when something so sexy is unexpected, I can sometimes last for a good long time.  This wasn't one of those times and it wasn't even a minute or so before I had to pull out and fight real hard not to cum, or ejaculate.  As much as Mistress is aware that the orgasm denial lifestyle and frequent edgings that I am subject to do a good job of keeping me in a constant state of arousal, she also knows that it plays hell on my ability to last long enough sometimes for her to get the kind of pleasure she wants in spontaneous moments like this.  She didn't express too much disappointment, but I could tell that she had some.  At least a little.  I offered to put pinky (cock extension) on and give her a good, hard fucking but she felt we were running out of "safe alone time".  She stood up from the bed, turned to face me, kissed me tenderly and told me I was not allowed to clean her juices from my cock. She also said, "we are going to have to work on you lasting longer".  I reminded that not too long ago we were doing cock therapy for this very reason.  You can see some of the posts regarding cock therapy by clicking on "cock therapy" under the Labels section on the right side and at the bottom of the page here.  Basically though, cock therapy was an exercise she would put me through by declaring a certain number of thrusts inside I was expected to complete without stopping and without having to pull out.  Any number less than the prescribed number meant that was how many hard paddle swats I was to receive immediately.  Say the number she gave was 100 and I go only go (nonstop) to 30.  I'd get 70 spanks right then!

She smiled, kissed me again and said, "yeah, maybe we'll start that again and went to the bathroom.  when she returned, she was instantly reminded that I was still scheduled for a 48 (a spanking she declared was due within 48 hours because of an infraction).  Actually, I was due for 2 of them.  Still naked, I was ordered to the close and told to wait.  A few seconds later she entered, fully clothed and  started spanking my bottom with her bare hand.  She's a strong girl and packs a wallop, even with her hand, but Mistress prefers an implement and asked if I had packed her paddle.  After saying no, because she hadn't told me to, she spotted the belt still in my shorts in a clump on the floor.  She immediately pulled the belt from the shorts and proceeded to redden my ass with the belt.  I always my best to remain still because i want Mistress to see me being brave for her paddlings but sometimes the paddle (in this case the belt) stings like a mother and I'll instinctively move away.  After being ordered back into position, Mistress resumed then completed my spanking and had me kneeling on the floor, red assed and naked, for some after care.  She pulled my face into her belly and lifted her shirt so that I could kiss and nuzzle in her belly.  She knows that it is my happy place to be after a spanking.  I apologized for my behavior and thank her for giving me my spanking.  Just I was about to ask Mistress if I could ask her for something special in the punishment department,  everyone starting returning to the house, which require that discussion to happen at a later time. 

What I wanted to ask her was .... while we are in the mountains and when we are with so many others, which is most of the time, when Mistress declares that's a spanking was necessary, could we take a drive into the forest and have my punishment be executed there? 

More to come bur for now, real life needs my attention. 

Sunday, yummy Sunday (continued)

I mentioned in my previous about other yummy things that happened last Sunday, so here goes:

After receiving the surprisingly hard spanking earlier in the day, and the beautiful aftercare that followed, I found myself with a kind of "walking on air" feeling for the rest of the day.  It was getting close to bedtime.  We had finished a lovely dinner as a family and Mistress was putting the kids to bed.  She had informed me that we were going to sit outside and enjoy the beautiful Arizona evening before we went to bed.  You know, we time.  There were no sexual overtones.  It was just supposed to be the two of us sitting outside, enjoying quiet paradise.  It's something we do from time to time and is very relaxing.   I was still grimy from the activities of the day (working on the car and around the yard) so I went to take a shower so I could be clean, smelling good and better to cuddle with when were went outside.  

In the shower I put a fresh shave on my down-there regions because Mistress had recently told me that there were be more frequent inspections of that area in order to confirm compliance of the rule that I always be freshly shaved around my cock, balls and ass.  Spanking punishment would be the result of non-compliance and with Mistress' recent, renewed enthusiasm for harshly punishing me, and mostly because I don't want to disappoint Mistress, I have started to shave there every other day, sometimes on consecutive days.  For those of us that shave down there, you probably know that sometimes you just can't seem to get s nice, close shave, and other times you can get a beautiful smooth-all-over shave.  When that happens, at least for me, it makes me feel especially sexy.  This night was one of those awesome shaving experiences and I was as smooth and buttery I can ever remember.  Getting out of the shower and applying the Tend Skin, I was feeling especially proud and decided that I would accompany Mistress outside wearing only a t-shirt.  The one I wore went down about an inch or so past my but and in that moment, it felt like I was a naked girl, wearing no panties under a short dress.  It was hot.

I went outside dressed like, expecting to see Mistress but she was still putting the kids to bed.  After about 10 minutes, she emerged and came to join me on the outside bench couch to enjoy the quiet of the night.  Since it was dark, she didn't know that I was naked under my short "dress".  After a few minutes, we were cuddling and she went to put her hand on my cock and was surprised to find me naked down there.  She very much approved and began to inspect my down-there region of signs of hair.  She was very pleased with me that I was buttery smooth.  As she does often, she purposely avoids direct contact with my penis during inspection, as a way to tease me and to keep the act of inspection all business.  Jokingly, I mentioned that she didn't need to ignore my shaft during her inspection because there are the occasional hairs that grow there that she should be certain were removed.  She giggled and said no and removed her hand and we resumed our cuddling.  I was left with a growing cock and no expectation of anything further. 

She pulled away from me slightly, sat up and lifting my little shirt that was barely covering my parts and without warning, leaned down and took me into her mouth and starting to give me a beautiful, tender, lovingly sincere blow job.  I was in heaven.  I won't go on to explain the obvious joy of receiving a blowjob but I will tell you that for me, I consider it such an incredible honor anytime Mistress allows my penis to enter any part of her body.  Her body is my temple and to look down and see my beautiful queen making love to my cock with her mouth is almost an indescribable joy.  I immediately feel like I am the luckiest man in the world.  It's hard to explain, but it's more of an emotional euphoria than physical.  On this beautiful night, in this beautiful setting, my Queen, my Mistress was pleasuring my cock with her mouth.  It was absolute heaven. 

Event though I hadn't cum in forever, I was surprised at how long I could go without informing Mistress that I was near orgasm.  It was like 10 minutes of pure bliss.  When I was approaching orgasm, Mistress would stop for a moment and lay her head on my chest leaving my rock hard cock bobbing and wanting more attention.  About 2 minutes later, without saying a word, Mistress resumed her oral gift and it went on for another 7-8- minutes before she stopped to prevent me from cumming.  She then decided it was time for us to go to bed and ordered me to my feet.  She stood in front and pulled up my shirt as if her little slut was standing there, naked under her dress, waiting to be revealed.  That feeling of objectification that moment was magical.  "let's go to bed" she said and turned to walk inside. 

Once in bed, I asked Mistress (like I do every night before we go to sleep) if she would like an orgasm this night.  She said she would and she instructed me to stand at the side of the bed bed.  She then instructed me to knell on the floor beside the bed.  Once I was properly kneeling, she scooted to the edge, opened her legs and without saying a word, silently commanded me to service her orally.  Being allowed to put my mouth on her pussy or anus gives me the same feeling of true honor of being allowed to worship at her temple like this.  She had me stop when she said "put your cock inside me".  My cock was never harder.  Being allowed to worship at her temple always gets me that way.  I stood immediately and slowly entered her while she was marinating in sexual pleasures.  Looking down at her as I slowly slide my cock inside was yet another glorious moment of honor for me.  I slowly filled and began to slowly push in and out of her when the feeling of a pending orgasm came rushing toward me.  I stopped and at that point she could sense why and without skipping a beat, she said "get back down there".  This was something new an different because normally Mistress doesn't like the idea of me putting my mouth where my cock had just been.  It's probably for the same (or similar) reason that she doesn't like the idea of me having to consume my cum like so many other submissive men are required to do.

I alternated between cock and tongue for what seemed like forever when she instructed me to hand her the vibrator. When I did, she rolled onto her tummy then pushed her ass up in the air and ordered me to resume fucking her, but this time with my penis extension (pinky) on.  It was obvious she didn't want her orgasm being pre-empted by me finding myself on the edge of orgasm.  With the vibrator doing it job nicely on her clit while my cock was buried inside her, she had two intense orgasms, one after the other until finally collapsing on the bed.  I stepped back and stood dutifully at the side of the bed while she recovered.   That vision was yet another experience that I was honored to be allowed to have.  Seeing lead up to an orgasm, have 2 of them and then watch her lay there in post-orgasmic joy.  I stood there a very proud and thankful submissive husband, relishing in the gifts that my benevolent Mistress Wife had bestowed upon me. 

As she was getting her "legs" back following her orgasm, she asked me when was the last time I had an orgasm.  "Early February Mistress" was my reply.  Of course I was hopeful that her question was an indicator that I may be having one this evening until she next said, "put everything where it belongs and come cuddle me in bed.  You'll be going to sleep with a hard cock tonight".  After cleaning everything and putting things where they belong, I climbed into bed, nuzzled up next to my naked Mistress Wife that was still feeling the physical effects of her incredible orgasms, and held her close while she fell asleep.  Before she dozed off, I was able to whisper into her ear how grateful I was for the entire day and for her ownership of me.  She let out a moan that sounded like a contented smile and quickly fell asleep. 

What a lucky man I am.  My God, what a lucky man I am.

Wake up

I was in bed, sleeping like a baby.  Mistress was in our workout room when I went to bed.  She was working up quite a sweat this night.  She has been working out for a few weeks and she is looking yummy.

I awoke to hear the shower running, then fell back asleep.  Woke again and the shower was still running .... hmm, seems like she's been in there for a long time ... back to sleep.  Then I woke to the sight of my beloved Mistress, standing next to the bed, naked in the backlight of the TV.  Stunning.

She climbed into bed and aggressively moved to the head of the bed, straddled my head and with her hands she merely pushed me down between her legs.  She was in need of service and I was more than happy to oblige.  For me, there is nothing better than to be roused from sleep for the purpose of giving my Mistress oral pleasure.  She made it clear what her intentions where and had zero interest in whether or not I was awake enough or ready.  It was magnificent. 

As she neared orgasm, she informed me that she didn't want to cum until I was inside and ordered me to go get "pinky".  Pinky is a penis extension sleeve that she loves to have me wear sometimes when I am lucky enough to be able to fuck her.  I donned pinky and began to give my horny Mistress the fucking she so desperately wanted.  With the sleeve on, there is little or no direct stimulation to my penis so there is usually little chance that will prematurely reach the edge of orgasm.  That being said, it has happened in the past.  I mean sometimes, the mere sight of Mistress being fucked like a wanton whore is enough to cause me to want to orgasm.  Not on this night though.  Mistress got the fucking she wanted and deserved and it all ended in a glorious orgasm that left her panting heavily, completely satisfied.  At that, I was denied the ability to orgasm. 

After Mistress recovered, she ordered me off the bed and I was to lay on my back on the floor.  This was something new.  Was Mistress going to require me to sleep on the floor next to her bed?  After a minute or so, she climbed off the bed and got on the floor with me.  It seems Mistress recalls me mentioning the day before that my balls had the delicious dull ache that accompanies being overly horny for a period of time.  I posted about it in a previous post .... I'll you'll be milked tonight.

Anyway, Mistress filled her hand with lube and started stroking my cock.  She smeared lube over my bottom hole and slowly pushed a finger inside me and started to massage my prostate and then began to stroke my penis.  It didn't take long before I had to inform Mistress that I was at the edge.  She told me to let it go.  I confirmed with her that she intended for me to orgasm and she said "well, sort of".  Mistress is very in tuned with her submissive husbands body and knows exactly at which point to stop all stimulation in order to induce a ruined orgasm, which is exactly what Mistress had in mind for me.  She did stop stimulation to my cock but continued to massage my prostate as cum began to just pour out of my poor, needy cock.  Copious amounts of cum began to pool on my tummy antul no more was going to come out.  When she was, she smiled at me and said "there lover, that should help ease the pressure in your balls", and got up to go to the bathroom.  "Wait here" she said.  She was in there for about 2 minutes as I laid still on the floor, with a giant pool of cum on my tummy.  She returned with a towel, threw it to me and told me to clean up.  I gather the cum in the towel, grabbed pinky, which was laying on the floor next to me, and went into the bathroom to clean everything.

When I returned to bed, the sight of my beautiful wife, comfortable laying there under the covers, sexually satisfied with a smile on her face, made my heart soar.  I thought to myself how very grateful I am to have such a beautiful Mistress that cares for me so much.

Cucked?

Not really, no.

This morning, I was naked and approached Mistress to inform her that I was about to get dressed.  She then informed me that she had bought me some golf pants yesterday and that since i was already naked, it would be a good time to try them on.  She ordered me to our closet, showed me the pants and had me try them on, then stand on a stool so she could pin the legs where they were to be hemmed.  After both pairs were pinned, she ordered me out of my clothes and to stay standing on the stool.  She reached for some lube and starting stoking my rapidly growing erection.  At the same time, her other hand was roaming my naked body and she started to bite my butt.  Being naked on that stool while she was edging me was so hot that it was only a matter of seconds before I was straining to avoid an orgasm.  There is just something about being objectified by this gorgeous woman that sends me straight to the edge quickly.  After a few repeated trips to the edge, she abruptly stopped and told me to clean up and get dressed for work.  "You'll be wearing a cock ring today" she said as I made my way toward the bathroom.  it was hot.  Really hot.

I left for the office with a rock hard cock. I couldn't take my mind off of what just happened.  While sitting at a red light i texted here a few sexy pictures.  One of them was of the suction-cup dildo that she used to simulate a cuck experience.  More about that can be viewed in this post:

http://subhubphx.blogspot.com/2015/01/i-was-good-boy.html

I got to the office, had to focus on my job because an important meeting was waiting for me the second I walked in the door.  That meeting lasted about 90 minutes and as I was walking from the conference room to my office, i received a text from her that simply said "jealous?".   At first I didn't know what she meant.  Then it occurred to me that she was referring to the suction cup dildo in the pictures.  The very one she "cucked " me with a couple of weeks ago.  I had to stop and think .... am I actually jealous of a sex toy?  No.  I thoroughly enjoy using sex toys in our lovemaking, without ever having an ounce of self-consciousness.  Does she think I am jealous of the imaginary man that was represented by the dildo that day, and that was fucking her hard and for as long as she wanted?  Maybe a little, but no, because it wasn't an actual man that was pleasuring her that way. 

I replied by saying that jealous may not be the right word and that perhaps "conflicted" was the right word.  Immediately after sending it I thought to myself ... Conflicted?  Conflicted about what?  I came to realize that my conflict had to do with the disappointment I feel when I am not physically able to fuck her for as long as she wants to be fucked.  Not without having to stop and start frequently in order to avoid orgasm or ejaculation.  I understand this to be common among submissive men in a loving FLM if for no other reason than the constant edging and teasing, and for being in what amounts to a constant state of arousal.  Still, I want to be the kind of bull-like lover that she sometimes wants to be fucking her.  I can't absolutely do it with some time to plan and some knowledge that it is going to be something she will want right then.  A little desensitizing spray and maybe even a cock-sleeve usually does the trick. 

I went on to tell her that the other side of the conflict coin was my incredible desire to see my Mistress in the absolute throes of passion, and to witness the joy she has by being fucked hard, long and in a way that allows her to have reckless abandon.  I've said it before and often ... It truly is an enormous source of sexual pleasure for me to witness Mistress in that state of reckless abandon.  So much so in fact that I know I could conjure up my own ruined orgasm without any direct stimulation to my cock and by merely watching her. Ideally, the cock that would otherwise be giving her that pleasure would be mine.  I wouldn't be able to handle it emotionally, to watch my Mistress being fucked in that fashion by a living, breathing, other man.  In other words, I wouldn't be able to handle being actually cucked by her with an actual other man.  A rubber, suction cup dildo?  yes.  Another woman?  Yes!  (I know, I know ... typical piggish male attitude, but at least I am honest about it.)  But not another real, live man. 

It got me to thinking ... Is it inevitable?  Are we headed toward the cuckold conversation.  OMG, could this be happening?  You know how the mind works ... once a little anxiety sets in, illogical thoughts begin to take over at which point, I had to abandon any idea that this could actually be happening because it wasn't actually logical.

That was earlier today.  Since then I have had time to think about it all calmly and I have come to the conclusion that although I still am in no way able to emotionally handle actually (probably now more than before), really being cucked by my Mistress with real, other man, I do hope that Mistress will "cuck" me again with that suction cup dildo again real soon, and real often.  Somewhere in the back of my mind, I dreaded having the knowledge that this topic and conversation would someday come into my view.    Guh!

Conflicted.

She needed it now

We have the greatest neighborhood.  We can spontaneously end up at any of our neighbors house, have dinner together, get our drink on and just have a great time.  Last night was one of those occasions.  We were dancing, listening to music and having a great time.  Mistress K. came over to tell me that I had an "infraction" that I would be punished for at a later time.  I asked her what for and she said "I don't know.  All I know is that Julie (not her real name) just told me that you were being a bad boy".  I'm certain it wasn't in the context of Julie actually knowing our FLM dynamic and that she was just kidding but nonetheless, it seems I have earned a punishment.  Even tough she was only joking, Mistress replied to Julie very loudly for everyone to hear that she was gong to spank me later for that.  This was while the girls were all dancing with each other.  Laughs all around and nothing else came of it.  We'll see if Mistress really does intend on giving me a true punishment.

Mistress and I came home around 11pm and after made quick work of a temporarily, emotionally, needy child, she pulled me into the bedroom, locked the door and proceeded to the closet where she told me to get out of my clothes.  It wasn't 10 minutes earlier that each of us was saying how we regretted having drunk too much earlier in the evening and how we each hoped it wasn't going to be one of those regrettable nights hugging the toilet.  Now, Mistress is getting out of her clothes, telling me to do the same and she had that unmistakable look of "you are going to fuck me hard" in her eyes. 

Honestly, I wasn't in the mood but the mere thought that I was being called upon to fuck my Mistress, hard and dirty like she wanted me too got my cock to begin to grow.  She told me to get pinky, which of course is our cock sleeve.  Wearing it means that I feel virtually nothing on my cock and so therefore I can fuck Mistress as long as she wants usually.  That being said, even though it is like wearing 1000 condoms, eventually the mere fact that I am sexually satisfying my Mistress in this way is eventually enough for me to eventually have to tell Mistress that an ejaculation is near.  That didn't happen for a good 15 minutes of hard "fuck me like a whore" fucking, but alas, the need to informed Mistress I was nearing the edge was upon me.  She forbade me from coming.

She had already had one orgasm and although she was also fighting off the effects of maybe too much alcohol, Mistress needed to orgasm again.   This time she wanted me to put a finger in her ass while she held the vibrator against her clit.  What an incredible scene it was being behind Mistress with her ass in the air, face on the bed, vibrator on her sex, finger in her ass and a pinky covered cock in her pussy.  She was completely lost in the abandonment of being fucked like a wanton slut and I wasn't going to anything but encourage her.  When my finger entered her bottom hole and she let out a guttural moan of delight, I knew she wanted more.   So I leaned to where her head was resting on the bed and while she was being fuck, fingered and vibed, I whispered a suggestion that she would probably prefer to have my cock in her ass than her finger.  No response.  Nothing.  So I continue fucking her hard, pressing her head in the bed as if to hold her down while she was being fucked and she was loving every second of it. 

With that she said "you're right, I do need your cock in my ass" and she lifted her head from the bed, ordering me to remove pinky and to put some lube on my cock.  By the time I remove the sleeve, applied the lube to my cock and returned, she was laying on her side with one leg extended and the other leg had her knee pulled up to her chest.  She was working the vibrator feverishly against her clit and was inviting me to enter her bottom by pulling her cheeks apart slightly.  As much as she tried, she just couldn't find my cock entering her ass comfortable in the position, which was too bad because it was the sexiest that I have witnessed in a long time  The sight of my Mistress inviting my cock into her most intimate orifice was just so amazing.  She told me to lay on my back and when I did, she straddled me with her beautiful ass hovering over my cock.  She wanted to be able to control the penetration and she slowly lowered herself onto my cock while keeping the vibrator right on the sweet spot.  I could feel my cock slowly enter her warm, tight hole and I could the primal lust on her face and in her body as she hovered over.  Once inside, she began to slowly move and while never allowing the head of the vibrator to leave her clit, and while my cock fully buried in her most intimate hole, Mistress began to have the most incredible, powerful, intense orgasm she has had in some time.  It was just so awesome to see.

When she was done and after she recovered, she laid on top of me, holding me tight and with so much love I could feel it in my toes.  She left my cock in her bottom while we laid there for a while and then after a few minutes, she eased herself off the intruder in her bottom, rolled to the side and said, "go clean up.  It's time for sleep".  I did as I was told, cleaned myself, the toys and put everything away and waited for her to return to the bed after doing her thing in the bathroom.  She climbed in to bed naked and looking like a just ravaged Mistress that wanted to get some sleep.  I welcomed her in to bed, kissed her goodnight and laid there for a few minutes with my still rock hard cock, thinking how much I was glad that Mistress denied me any kind of ejaculation this night. 

Cock Therapy

Last night, while cooking dinner, Mistress walked behind me, patted my butt and whispered that in the morning, after she returned from taking the kids to school, we would resume my Cock Therapy.  I stoppped what I was doing, stood up straight and with a big smile on my face, turned my head toward Mistress, who was looking at me over her shoulder as she was leaving the room, sipping her wine and giggling.  I winked, nodded and indicated that I had heard her and that I understood.

For those of you who don't know what "cock therapy", at least as been described by my Mistress, you can read about it here:

http://subhubphx.blogspot.com/2014/09/summond-to-bedroom.html

The goal, of course, is to train me to be not so susceptable to coming so quickly, even though Mistress will tease and deny/edge me often and usualy denies an orgasm for me.  Like most sexual women, Mistress K. will often like to be able to have her man make love to her and frankly fuck her long and hard, whenever she wants.  She shouldn't have to hear ... "I'm close to cumming Mistress" ... before she is anywhere near getting the kind of sexual pleasure she is entitled to.

Yes, things like desenstizing spray help, especially applied under a condom and then under a cock sleeve.  Mistress K. gets the kind of fucking she really wants when we are able to plan that.  But soetimes, Mistress K. wants that kind of thing spontaneously.  That means I have to go from someone that has been probably teased and denied and held at the edge of orgasm, to someone that forget all that and resist the urge to come in order to pleasure Mistress.

This training goes essentially like this.  Mistress will say a number.  It can be 20 or it can be 100 or it can be ???  That number represents he number of thrusts I am required to make into whatever Mistress has decidd I must thrust my cock into.  It could be her hand, or it could be her pussy or mouth.  Whatever it is, i am to count how many thrusts I am actually able to consecutively complete without stopping or coming.  Oh, and God help me if I come because I aboslutely am prohibited from having any kind of ejaculation during this excercise.  If the number was 100 and my thrusts had to stopp at 50, then I am to receive 50 hard swats of her paddle.  Like this!  (That's actually me, and yes, that is a butt plug ... *smile)

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After that paddleing, the training will resume just a few minutes later under the same rules.

I am so happy to be resuming this training.  It was working before whe we were doing, although there was much more to do.  That said, we were making real progress.  It's hard work trying to prevent yourself from coming, and yes the spankings hurt.  At the end of the day I so much appreciate that Mistress is willing to train me the way she wants me to be. 

Bucket List

Mistress K. and I were talking night about our relationship.  I had told that I was giddy and nervous about our upcoming ceremony, but all in a good way.  About how I was truly eager to be able to memorialize my commitment and devotion in a ceremony of vows.

I also mentioned to her that it was a shame that society is such that we can't openly demonstrate our relationship.  Of course we could choose to do, but with comes certain societal ramifications that Mistress and I are not ready to impose on our family, friends or each other.  With that in mind, I mentioned to her that I felt hat our situation was very much like someone that gay and was in a constant internal struggle with wanting to "come out".

Anyway, it got me to thinking, what are some of the things that are FLM related that I would go on a bucket list, if I were able to create one?  What would be some of the things you might put on a bucket list of your own?  I'm certain there will several things (some specific) that I would/will add to a bucket list of my own, but I'll start off with this:

I'd like to be in an environment that Mistress and I could absolutely open with our relationship without fear of the usual societal concerns. Even if it was for a weekend.

How about you?

Cock Sleeve

This is what it looks like mostly when Mistress K. is being sexually satisfied the way she wants. 

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This is not a picture of us, but it is eerily similar to what it is we do when Mistress allows me to enter her. There is one big difference ... Mistress K. has a much sexier ass.  :-)

It is rare that get to have a full orgasm when we have sex, but when I do, it is often following several orgasms by Mistress K. being serviced this way, When she makes me orgasm like this, she will require that I remove the sleeve, reenter her and have a glorious orgasm looking directly into her eyes.  She knows that is my absolute favorite to have a real orgasm.  I believe she prefers me to orgasm after satisfying her with the cock sleeve because she gets very lovely-dovey afterward and wants me to feel some of that too.  She doesn't allow, she will require that I do.  She requires me to because often I am usually begging her to deny me an orgasm and if an orgasm is inevitable, i ask for a ruined orgasm.  (She's trained me well)

Summoned to the bedroom

Wow, 3 posts in one day.  A new record for me I think!

While generating my first post here today, I was summoned to the bedroom by Mistress K.  Right after she summoned me, she laughingly asked if that sent a shiver down my spine, not knowing why I was being summoned.  I admitted that it did given one the topics we had discussed the night before about punishments.

I walk into the room and there she is, naked and laying on the bed.  her beautiful red hair framing her beautiful face and she held out her hands, inviting me onto the bed with her.  It was beautiful.  She rolled over onto her tummy and had me worship her body with those little kisses and gentle bites that she likes.   She forbade me from putting my mouth directly on her pussy or bottom hole to which i whimpered .... "oh pleeeeease can I?"  She said no.  When Mistress doesn't feel clean there, she will not let me get anywhere near it.  I wish she would.  But, I digress.

After 10 minutes or so of Mistress body worship, she rolled back over onto her back, spread her legs and invited in between her legs.  Not to enter her mind you, but to tell me the reason she summoned me.  She called it cock therapy. Cock therapy?  What is cock therapy, I asked?  She describe cock therapy as something we would be doing in an attempt to train me to not be so eager to cum the minute i am inside her.  During cock therapy Mistress choose a number.  Today that number was 30.  I was to lubricate my cock and insert it into her yumminess and then I was to count the successive thrusts I could go without having to stop in order to avoid an orgasm.  Whatever that number would be, would be the amount of punishment spankings I would receive.  Obviously the goal being to train me to be able to thrust into Mistress more each time in order to avoid a stinging, burning red ass.  I made it to 6 and had to stop.  I was so horny after being away from Mistress for almost 6 days, then being denied any sexual attention upon my return home, then being allowed to worship Mistress's body just moments before.  So the number of punishment spanks was set at 24. 

Mistress then told me to see how well I would be able to do while wearing pinky (our cock sleeve).  I thought to myself OMG, I am so horny that I might just cum putting the cock sleeve on.  I was able to get 32 thrusts before i was certain that was going to cum.  We were in the missionary position and Mistress was really moaning and pulling me into her by my butt and it was an incredibly beautiful thing to see.  I was amazed that I was able to make it to 32 given the fact that i can almost come by simply watching her in the throes of sexual pleasure.

"Get my vibrator" Mistress said.  I immediately got it, turned it on and handed it to her.  She took it rolled one leg to the side exposing her beautiful pussy to me and i watched as she nestled in just the right spot on her clitoris.  "Get inside me.  I want to cum with you  inside me", she said.  I slide my sleeve covered cock inside of her and watched as she began to each orgasm.  Watching Mistress orgasm is about the most incredibly beautiful thing there is for me and right when she was about to get there she told me to start thrusting.  It was only a few thrusts before I knew I was about to ejaculate so I pulled out .... right when she started her orgasm.  needless to say she was none too happy and when she was done and had gathered herself she said "that will be 10 more swats for pulling out when you did.  And they are going "GOOD ONES"!.  All I could do was apologize and acknowledge the added 10 lashes. 

She got off the bed and had me bend over the edge and she gave me my 24 spanks for the cock therapy.  Then 10 gave 10 more that were harder than the first 24.  When she was done, she tossed the pink leather paddle on the bed, walked toward the bathroom and told me to cleanup.

I am co thankful that we will be on a training program to help with staying power.  I love this woman!!!

let me know how it works

Even though Mistress and i couldn't be together this past long weekend, Mistress did send along a couple of instructions for me while she was dealing with things at home.  One of those was to wear a cock ring all day to commemorate in my mind that she owns my cock and balls.  The other thing?  Well, that was a little more interesting.

2 weeks ago i was at the grocery store picking up a few things.  In my shopping, i came across this.

It's dental pain relieving cream that is 20% benzocaine and is designed to temporarily ease the pain of toothaches and the like.  I had hear (or did i read?) that some people will use Orajel to desensitize the penis to help with premature ejaculation.  I even heard that some Mistresses that keep their submissives locked in a cock cage for a long period, will remove the cage, apply a desensitizer, allow enough time for it to do it numbing, and then give the submissive something like 30 seconds to try and have an orgasm/ejaculation, before being locked right back up. 

Anyway, in reading this blog you'll know that we like to use a desensitizer on me before putting my cock into a cock sleeve whenever so that Mistress can get the kind of good hard fucking she wants from time to time.  So when i came across "Benzodent" I thought I'd give it a try and see if it worked as good as the spray we currently use. 

As you know, Mistress was unable to join me over the weekend so instead of trying it out together, Mistress texted me and had me apply it to my entire cock.  After waiting an hour, my instructions were to masturbate myself to the edge of orgasm and report back to her on how effective this cream was.  Shortly after her initial instructions, she sent supplemental instructions and those were .... keep applying the cream all day and masturbate myself tot he edge repeatedly during the day.  What a frustratingly wonderful day it was.  All in all, I've come to the conclusion that I really enjoy having my cock numbed.  It makes me feel like I can almost feel like i can thoroughly pleasure my Mistress with my cock as long as she likes, without telling her that I am about to cum.  I was so close so many times to having to let Mistress know that is ejaculated, but thankfully, I never had to report that.

How did it work?  Meh!  First, this cream is designed for the mouth (wet environment) and is thicker than toothpaste.  I applied it to my cock right out of the tube and it was very sticky.  After that first hour, when i started to masturbate, I applied some water to my hand and it became very, very slippery and the water seemed to ignite the numbing agent in the cream, so subsequently when I applied it throughout the rest of the day, I did so with water.  Knowing this, I'll try it again and see how it works out.

I have a question for all of you.  Which is the best numbing cream to use on a subs cock?  I've heard of Emla Cream but i understand you need a prescription for that.  Like I said earlier, I've heard that people use Orajel too and i think I'll ask Mistress if we can try it too.  Please leave a comment with your thoughts/suggestions/recommendations.  Mistress and I would very much appreciate it.

subhubphx

I'm horny and want to be fucked hard and long ... right now.

So, Thursday morning, I'm sitting at the computer working on a tersely worded email to some a-hole I was dealing with.  I was naked when Mistress arrived back from taking the kids to school, which was a good thing because those are the rules.  The day before I did just barely get them off after Mistress had come into the house and she saw with my shorts on as I remembered at the last minute and scooted off to the other to remove them.  She let it slide.

ON this day, walked up behind me and started kissing all over my rubbing everywhere on my naked body except for my cock, balls and ass.  She loves to teases me that way.  She left and 2 minutes later she called for me.  She said to hurry. I asked her if I would finish this paragraph I was working and she said "NO!  I want you in here now."  I did finish my sentence then go toward the bedroom.  I had my mind on my work and was frustrated when I entered the room, not knowing why I was even going in there.  I thought she was going to show me something "interesting" she saw on TV, which kind of aggravated me a little given the state of mind I was in. 

When I walked into the rook, Mistress was naked, on the bed and stacking pillows in the middle.  She laid herself on the pillows, her beautiful ass high in the air when she said "I horny and want to be fucked long and hard, right now".  With that she ordered my to fetch pinky (our cock extension) and to return quickly, hard and ready to fuck her.  I asked her to rub my cock to get it started and that was all I needed.  I went into the closet where we keep pinky and I lubed the inside of it and my cock with desensitizer lotion.  Normally I would use lube to get it on and hold it in place but all of a sudden I was faced with Mistress using me, my body and my cock for pure, raw animalistic fucking, and I knew that even though I was going to be wearing pinky and could feel a single thing with my cock, the vision before and the sensation of thrusting my pinky covered cock into Mistress gorgeous, extremely eager pussy was going to cause me to want to cum inside the extension. 

I was fucking Mistress good and hard for a good 5-10 minutes when the urge to orgasm was slowly coming on.  I let Mistress know and she told me to go get the rubber but realistic feeling large dildo, complete with ball, put a condom on it and use both it and my pinky covered cock to give her the fucking she demanded right then.  That's exactly what she got.  I caught a second wind and went back and forth with the two different cocks and fucked her hard!  She was so lost in being fucked like that and it was a beautiful thing to see.  She was doggie style the whole time, face and shoulders on the bed, legs wide, back arched and ass high.  She got fucked good.  I would put my hand on her head and force her head into the bed while fucking her to make her feel like she was just being taken,  I even slapped her ass a few times to let her be lost in the sensation of not having a choice of whether or not she was going to be fucked like this.  Looking down, watching my pinky covered cock stretch her pussy and slide in and out, her tiny rear hole was begging for some attention .... so I pressed my thumb against the opening.  There was barely any resistance at her anal opening and so I took that as I sign that my thumb as being invited inside.  It slide in very easily  and Mistress let out a guttural groan and came from her very core.  She reached for the vibrator she was holding nearby, turned it on placed it against her clit and had one of the most intense orgasms I have ever seen her have.  Ever!

When she collapsed, I got off the bed and walked over to the other side and tenderly kiss her sweat soaked face.  Her hair was wet from her sweat and sticking to her face.  She was the epitome of freshly fucked hard.  She was as beautiful as I have ever seen here at that moment.  I went to clean to the equipment and when I returned 5 minutes later, she hadn't moved an inch.

Yeah, I fucked her good!

She Made be do it

Mistress made me have a full-on orgasm.  It had been at least 6 weeks since I had an orgasm.  This of course does not take into account the 3 ruined orgasms I had during that time. 

It was Friday evening about 8pm.  Mistress had just returned from having drinks with some friends.  Almost at that same moment, one of her besties (who wasn't out with them) came by to pick up our children to accompany her and her children for a treat (ice cream I think).  We said goodbye to her friends and told all the kids to have a good time and then Mistress went off to go to the bathroom.  I returned to the coach to watch the baseball game. 

About five minutes later I heard "come here pet" coming from the bedroom.  I sprang up from my previously reclined position, remembered that we were sudden alone and stripped naked before going in to the bedroom to see Mistress.  When I arrived she was wearing only her panties and was laying on the bed.   "Go put pinky on, and hurry", she said.  Pinky, for those of you that don't know, is a pink, translucent cock sleeve that I sometimes wear in order to fuck Mistress thoroughly without cumming.

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I rushed into the closet and sprayed my cock with desensitizing spray and slipped pinky over my rock hard cock using the still wet spray as the lube necessary to get it on.  I told Mistress that I wanted to wash the spray of the rubber cock so it didn't numb her pussy too. 

I returned to the bed and I fucked here good!  It was awesome.  I don't know how many orgasm she was able to have but I only stopped fucking her when she said she couldn't take anymore.  It has happened more that I would still have the uncontrollable urge to orgasm even though I was wearing pinky.  NOT THIS TIME.   I was so happy to be able Mistress K. the thorough fucking that she wanted right then.

I last fucked her to orgasm doggy style when she told me to stop.  I pulled out and watched her slowly lower her body down to the bed until she was resting comfortable on her tummy.  I love to see her like this.  I was about to ask her if I could get anything for her when she said "take off pinky and come put your cock inside of me".

I did as I was told and although I was still able to last a good bit before the urge to cum was about to overwhelm me, the need to cum was upon me.  I told Mistress that I was about to cum, hoping and fully expecting for Mistress to tell me I wasn't going to be cumming this night.  Instead she said, you will not cum until I cum again and started rubbing her clit.  She started to cum again and I knew I was about to be told to experience a full orgasm.  My instinct now is beg to NOT orgasm, and so I was begging Mistress to not let me orgasm fully and if I was going to be required to ejaculate for her, to please make it a ruined orgasm.  She would have none of it and forced me to have a full orgasm by demanding I not stop fucking her until I have cum.

Holy shit that orgasm was incredible!!!!!  Unbelievable in fact.   In the afterglow of our lovemaking, I mentioned to Mistress K. how ironic it was that the begging that takes place in bed is for me to not be allowed to cum.  It seems like the training I have been receiving has been paying off in that regard. 

Of course the reason I beg not to cum is because I don't want to be in the "orgasm hangover" state afterward.  I enjoy being denied and in a constant state of desire.  That being said, I can tell you that the "recovery" period in the last 3 full orgasms (only in the last 5 months) has been a day or so, rather than the normal few days it would've taken before we started our FLM. 

One of the things I remember us doing early in our FLM adventure was forced orgasms.  One Friday afternoon, Mistress informed me that I was going to be required to have 5 orgasms (ruined or otherwise) before we went to bed on Sunday night or I would be severely punished.  It was difficult.  On Sunday, mid-morning, I stall had only had 2 orgasms.  I was able to complete my task but it was tough as shit.  I wonder how i'd do now. 

Hmmm, interesting

Plugged and pouty

Shortly after Mistress told me to insert my plug, she informed me that she was going to visit a friend for "a few minutes" and then she would be back home in plenty of time to go the neighbors party.  One of the things about Mistress K. is that she is often late.  When she is late, and it only affects me, there is no problem of course because I am a dutiful sub.  When her being late affects others, I can't help but get a little frustrated.

Well, on this night, she was late.  On this night, when our friends and neighbors were expecting us to arrive with our portion of appetizers to contribute to the party, Mistress was still with her friend going over decoration options for a bit of a remodel she is doing.  I went to the neighbors house alone (wearing the plug) with a cocktail in my hand.  Apologies all around for showing up empty handed but promising that Mistress would be along shortly with our contribution to the party.

45 minutes later, Mistress calls me home to help carry over the food.  I was clearly unhappy that Mistress's lateness was going to be the cause of us being the last one's to arrive with our contribution to the party.  She apologized to me for making it appear that we are rude and not appreciative of other people's time.  She told me the same things she always does and that is nice she and her friend got to talking, she lost track of time.  She told me that her friend felt so bad about keeping Mistress and causing her to be late, that she begged Mistress to give me a blow job in order to make it up to me. 

Mistresses friend is not aware that we live in an true FLM and that Mistress doesn't have to give me a blow in order to make it up to me.  She doesn't know that Mistress could've just come home and told me that there was no problem and that I would be punished for being pouty with her, and the situation would be smoothed over right then and there.  Her friend only knows that Mistress and I have a great deal of love for each other and that Mistress like to make me happy (if she only knew ...).  Anyway, Mistress still made it fun by teasing me that her friend begged her to suck my cock.  Even though it was not intended to fit in as part of our lifestyle (even in an ironic way), it was still a sexy dynamic. 

The party was fun but I left earlier than Mistress because the effects of my cocktails were wearing off and I was getting sleepy.  I went home laid down on the couch, while the kids were running around the house having fun.  While at the party, I asked if Mistress was going to do "what she was told" by her friend and suck my cock when she got home.  She simply asked .... "did you shower?"  I said I hadn't .... yet but was going to later. 

When she got home from the party she told me to meet her in our bedroom.  When the door closed behind me she told me to take off my shorts and get some lube.  She was going to edge me.  While edging me, she noticed that I was not smoothly shaved and asked me what this was about.  I told I was sorry for not being smooth for her at that moment.  While stroking me, she looked me in the eye and said "48 hours" (9:30 on Sunday night).   SHIT!  That feeling of regret for having disappointed her came rushing back.  I hate how I feel when she has determined that I will be punished because it means she is disappointed with me.  She brought me to the edge.  I pleaded with her not to make me cum and then she stopped stroking my cock  and simply turned and walked away.  not only was I wallowing in my regret, I had been a particularly bratty sub husband this evening because of Mistress being late and all.  Yes, I was teasing but I was also being a brat to emphasize my point and Mistress had mentioned on more than one occasion that she was well aware of my bratty behavior.  We were with friends when she made comments like "I'm going to beat you later" and "He'll pay for that later".  Even though our friends believe it is just harmless kidding, I knew that Mistress meant it and that she would remember it the next time she punished me.  I'm afraid there will be some extra stinging on my bottom in the next 48 hours.  We'll see.

After Mistress walked away, I jumped into the sower and cleaned my body really good.  I shaved and very carefully made myself as smooth as possible in those areas Mistress requires it of me.  I couldn't wait to show her.  You know, like a child that knows he is in trouble, has a punishment coming and tries to "soften the blow" by eagerly demonstrating what a good boy he is?  When I emerged from the bathroom she was tending to the children.  I returned to the couch.  When she was finished with the children, she called me into the bedroom once again, locked the behind us, turned to face me and pushed me gently so that my back was against the door.  The she pulled my t-shirt up and had me hold it in my teeth and then grabbed the waistband of my shorts and roughly pulled them down, stripping me naked.  Then she got on her knees and started to suck my cock.  It was amazing.  She held me against the door and sucked my cock like I had no choice in the matter (I don't actually, but ...).  When she could tell that I was getting to the point of having an orgasm, she stopped, stoop up, kissed me on the cheek and whispered .... "that was from _______________ (her friend)".  She then informed me she was going back to the neighbors house for one more drink and some chat with the lady of the house and that she was only going to be a few minutes.   Here we go again ............

She returned from the party, went into the bedroom and 5 minutes later texted me and told me to meet her there.  I went in and she was laying on the bed wearing only panties.  "Take off my panties and then come and put your cock in me"  Holy shit!  That was the sexiest I thought I had ever heard!  I did and climbed up on the bed, got between her legs, paused for just a moment to look at the beauty before me and relish in the fact that I was about to be allowed to be inside of her.  I am always so appreciative f the fact that she will allow for me to touch her body and especially will allow me the honor of being inside of her.  I never take that for granted.

It wasn't long before I knew I would be coming.  For some reason I felt that she was intending for me to have a ruined orgasm this way.  She's done it before and it was the most amazing thing ever.  Then, I was to thrust inside of her until I am there and then pull out and without any direct stimulation, I was required to empty my balls on her tummy.  It was so fucking awesome ... then ... but alas, I was not meant to be this night.  She said "DON'T YOU DARE CUM!  You will not be cumming tonight".  She told me to go get my cock sleeve (pinky) and come back to finish the job.  After putting it on and resuming my dutiful place between her open legs, I re-entered her with pinky and could feel her melt in pleasure before me.  She was moaning in delight, lost in the pleasure of being fucked properly.   Then it happened ............. KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK, followed by "Mom, are you in there?"  followed by jiggling of the locked door handle.  That was it, over.  "we're done" she said and got up to go tend to the children.  "Go clean up", she said as she made her way to her robe and to the door. 

Later I asked her if she wanted me to remove the butt plugged I had been wearing for her all afternoon and evening.  She thought about letting me sleep in it for a moment but decided against it and told me to remove it.

I loved every minute of it.

Tap on the shoulder

Our family vacation has been awesome. Relaxing in the mountains of Arizona. Perfect weather, the kids are having a blast and my Mistress had been happy, beautiful and awesome. Last night, it was late, almost 11pm. She was in the bathroom getting ready for bed and thekids were playing on their xBox. I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned to find Mistress standing there in her regular nightgown (which i think she is incredibly gorgeous in) giving me the "come here" finger and disappeared into the bedroom Before our FLM began, i would've asked he what she wanted. Now, of course i know better than to ask her "why" about anything. i assumed that i was about to be given a spanking ... but for what i wondered. All my previous infractions had been settled and mistress and i had just returned from a lovely dinner with friends where we had a ball. When we got home from dinner, she even kissed me softly and said "thank you or a lovely evening". Why was i about to be punished, i wondered. I got up from the chair and quickly cleaned up around me. i went into the bedroom and Mistress was lying on her back with her nightie pulled up past her waist, legs spread wide, revealing the sexiest, prettiest pussy on any woman ever. I stood there and stared for a minute. Then she said "come here". I was wearing a light jacket and quickly took it off before trying to climb on the bed. "Take your pants off" she said. I took off my pants and underwear and climbed on the bed and crawled between her legs. Often i am overwhelmed with lust, appreciation and utter joy in that moment before i am about to be allowed to pleasure her pussy with my mouth. This was one of those times. I licked her pussy lovingly, tenderly and with purpose for several minutes, then she said "enter me with your fingers while you do that" i slide one finger then another into her then continued to savor and pleasure her pussy. She was nearing orgasm and she told me to put my cock inside her so she could orgasm with me inside her. It didn't take long for the urgent need to orgasm was upon me. She told me to stop and "get pinky" (the pet name we have for our cock sleeve). Quickly i got pinky, some lube and a towel and returned to find her feverishly rubbing her clit, keeping herself at the edge of orgasm. I lubed my cock and put pinky in place and it was then that noticed the towel. "You won't be needing that tonight lover", she said, which of course meant that i was not going to be ejaculating this night. Undaunted, i got in between her legs and slowly pushed my now sleeve covered cock inside of her while she continued to rub her clitoris. She told me to not fuck her slowly, instead she wanted me to fuck her fast. Even though i was wearing the cock sleeve (that feels like i am wearing 100 condoms), i very easily could've orgasmed right there at the sight that was before me. I've said it before ... i'm certain i could orgasm merely by watching my beloved Mistress wife have an orgasm. For some reason however, i was able to fight off any urge to come and was able to give her the long, hard, fast fucking she wanted without having to stop in order to either ask permission to cum, or prevent myself from cumming. She had a glorious orgasm and of course i did not. This morning, when i was dutifully delivering her morning coffee, i enthusiastically thanked her for summoning me for her sexual use. She didn't wonder or care what i was doing or if i was willing. She didn't have to. Even now, as i write this, i am basking in the afterglow of my love and devotion for her. I am hoping that Mistress will be wanting similiar treatment tonight, our last night of vacation. I can only hope. As an aside ... yesterday during the day, Mistress sent me a naked selfie of her before she got into the shower. I thought it was stunning and of course told her so. Since the picture did not reveal her face, i (only a little) jokingly asked her if i cold post it here, on my blog. I told if I was allowed to tha i would be bragging. *smile She said she would think about it and as of now, is thinking about it. We'll see what she decides.

She let me watch

We had an hour or so where the kids where occupied with activities that allowed us to be alone.  I dropped off the kids and walked back into the cabin and Mistress said "go downstairs and get naked".  Yes Mistress, was my response and i walked downstairs.  She quickly followed and removed her clothes.  She told me to go put "pinky" on.  In case you don't already know, pinky is a cock sleeve that makes me thicker, longer and basically allows me to fuck her without any feeling on my cock whatsoever. 

She climbed on the bed and summoned me between her legs.  "I want you inside me", she said.  I moved closer and eased the my thicker, longer cock inside her slowly.  Once She felt comfortable with how it felt inside her, She rolled over onto her tummy and told me to fuck her.  Since i was selfish and forgot to bring her vibrator, She had to use Her fingers to get herself off quickly (we don't have much time).  It wasn't 2 minutes before She was having a deep orgasm with me inside.  i have to admit though, even though pinky is thick (like 100 condoms thick), the urge to orgasm was upon me.  frankly, i can almost orgasm by watching my beloved Mistress have an orgasm and even with my cock securely encased in rubber, having it inside her while She has an orgasm was almost too much.  i asked for permission to have a ruined orgasm and She said "that won't be happening today".

When She was finished, i asked if i could slide myself inside her for one slow thrust in the missionary poisition because it is one of my favorite things to be looking into her eyes when i enter her.  She said "no, not today".

She shooed me awa so She could get ready and told me to do he same.

Maybe tomorrow.

Thank you Mistress K. for allowing me see your naked body, for allowing my cock to be inside you and for allowing me to witness your orgasm.  If the day was over now (it's 11:30am), my day would be complete. 

i just love Her.

Come here

The past 2 weeks since Mistress returned from Her trip have been awfully hectic for a variety of reasons i won't get into (cuz they'll bore you).  All is well it's just that there hasn't been much time or opportunity to for intimate time together for U/us.

This morning i woke before Her and was making coffee.  She called me into the bedroom, flung the sheets off of Her body and said "come here".  I went over to Her and started kissing on her body thinking She was just warm under the sheets.  She wasn't.  She wanted to cum!  She told me to get inside Her.  Did i hear that right?  Yes, get inside her.

i was rock hard in an instant and climbed on the bed when She said "be rough with me".  I pulled Her panties down as if She was my willing little slut, waiting there for me take my pleasure from Her.  I slide my cock inside Her and starting fucking Her, but it only took a few strokes before i wanted to cum.  i begrudgingly told Her i was close and She said "no coming".  I ground into her forcefully but in a way that not make me cum right away but the feeling was building and i told her again.  She said again "no cumming".  i rested for a moment while She relished my cock being inside Her and then tried again to be the forceful lover that was just going to take her and fuck Her.  She was on Her tummy with Her left leg pulled up to her chest.  i leaned forward and with my hand pressed Her face into the pillow to hold her there while i fucked Her.  She loves it when i do that.  As i was approaching orgasm again She said "pull my hair".  Holy fuck, i can't hold off having an orgasm with the most gorgeous woman in my world telling me to take Her like a slut.  i finally had to tell Her that i wasn't going to be able to hold off my orgasm if She wanted me to continue fucking Her this way.  Had i known earlier, i would've sprayed my cock with desensitizer and put the cock sleeve my numbed cock so i could fuck Her the way She wanted to be fucked right then.  One of the downsides of orgasm denial is when i finally get to be inside Her, or She strokes my cock, or She makes me masturbate for Her, i can't last long before cumming.

In any event, She was well on her way to orgasm but wanted her fave vibrator (actual picture below)

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i gave it to her and continued to fuck Her while struggling not to cum.  She came hard while i alternated pulling Her hair and pressing Her face into the pillow.  When She was through, She said thank you and i was excused.

God I love her!

Postscript note:  i do love it when She wants it to be rough.  i love seeing be a wanton slut, begging to be fucked and used, albeit for a short period of time.  i know the unmitigated joy of surrender and release and know that She occasionally likes to feel that way too.  It now has me wishing for a day where She wishes to be the sub and have me dominate her.   Wishful thinking?  Perhaps.  A boy can dream

Making Love

On Friday night past, Mistress and i had made plans for Mistress to get fucked really well that night.  The plan was for us to get some of O/our chores completed, get the kids to bed early because they had to wake up early the next morning, and then W/we could spend some time alone.  i had no expectation of being allowed cum.  Mistress had to me to shower and an hour or so before the planned event, then i was to apply the Stud 100 desensitizing spray to her cock and allow that hour to really make it numb.  Also, that i would be using the cock sleeve on Her that night. This would really allow me to last long so She could have the good hard fucking she wanted. 

The night was kind of getting away from U/us because the kids weren't cooperating and shit in general was just going wrong.  i had showered as planned and applied the spray to my cock and then slipped on some loose fitting shorts to allow the spray to do it's thing.  Meanwhile, Mistress was becoming more and more frustrated with shit going wrong around Her.  Finally, when walking past me, She looked at me and said something to the effect that there would be no sex tonight because she was frustrated (in general, not with me) and losing interest, and then left the room to go into the bathroom.

i went to Her and told Her (in as cute a way as possible) that i understood and that if She did not want to get fucked really, really well, of course W/we didn't have too.  That seemed to lighten her mood a bit but not much.

The kids were finally in bed and She went in to take a shower.  When Mistress is frustrated, i know well enough to let Her have Her space.  That said, i poked my head into the shower and asked Her if She wanted me to be prepared to pleasure Her when She emerged from the shower, or if i should simply go about my business and give Her space.  She opted for the space.  Undaunted, i went about my business and began to close down the house for the night.  When i was done, i again poked my head into the bathroom to let Mistress know i would be in bed, waiting for Her, not knowing what, if anything would happen.

The room was dark except for the light of the TV.  When She walked out of the bathroom to the kitchen, She was naked and She never looked more beautiful and sexy as she disappeared from the bedroom. When She came back in the bedroom and came toward the bed, She was even sexier than She was 3 minutes before.  She climbed into and immediately began to nuzzle into my chest  and wrapped her arms around me.  She immediately felt my rock hard cock and whispered that She was pleased with that.  i had idea that sex was to come because Her hands roamed my back and then my ass and She did one of my absolute favorite things ......... She spread my ass cheeks with both hands.  It made my hard cock harder. 

She whispered "give me those kisses i like" and rolled over onto her tummy.  Regular readers of this blog will know that there is hardly anything i enjoy more than giving her entire body soft licks, kisses and bite on Her naked body.  After about 10 minutes of that, She rolled over onto her back and told me to resume my kisses.  After a few minutes of that, She asked me .... "are you hard for me lover?"  I sat up on my knees so that She could see my rock hard cock pointing to the ceiling.  Then She made it abundantly clear that She wanted my mouth on Her pussy by spreading Her legs.  i moved right and savored having the honor of putting my mouth on her pussy.  i'm sure someone has actually had an orgasm while licking his Mistress's pussy before, but i was actually close.  It is that much of an honor for me.

After Mistress had a nice orgasm while on her back, She told me She wanted my cock inside of Her for another orgasm.  i asked her is She wanted me to get the cock sleeve and She said No .... "fuck me now".  Even though my cock had been fully numbed by the Stud 100, it wasn't long before i felt an orgasm building in me.  i informed Mistress that i was about to come and She didn't say a word.  then i asked her if She intended for me to cum this night, and She didn't say a word.  Then i asked Her if i could have Her permission to cum and She said YES!!!!!!!! holy shit!  Yes?  i totally wasn't expecting that.  She said that i had better hold out until She had Hers and then i was allowed to cum inside of Her.  It was mere second later that Her orgasm began and i immediately began to orgasm while cumming deliciously inside of Her.   OMG!  It was a very strange orgasm because of the numbing spray but i didn't care.  Being able to have my mouth on Her body, then on Her pussy, then ......... being able to witness 2 orgasms ........... was glorious! 

i didn't asked if she intended on allowing me to cum that night and She didn't offer.  We feel asleep and slept like a couple of rocks.

I love this Woman so much!

Human Sex Toy

i had a notion yesterday.  Mistress had a couple of orgasm just a couple of days ago and i wanted for her to be in a position to be able to enjoy a nice hard fucking, followed by an orgasm, followed by sleep.

While Mistress was putting the kids down to sleep, i showered, shaved and prepared my body to be used as her human sex toy.  i made sure that my body was in pristine bull-like fucking condition for Her.  Before showering, i prepared the bedroom and bed for sex.  Sex for Her.  A good hard fucking for her to be exact.  i folded the sheets down, lit a few candles in the room, turned the lights waaaay down lo,  placed a pile of pillows in the middle of the bed and even laid her favorite vibrator there for east reach should She feel She wanted it.  All the while She was luxuriating in our big tub. 

About an hour before, right after i showered, i liberally sprayed "Stud 100 - Male Genital Desensitizer" (which is a lidocaine spray) to my cock.  i didn't want for my trying to resist cumming to take away from the good hard fucking that Mistress was going to get.  i know how much she like to be fucked long and hard and under normal circumstances, especially after weeks of tease and denial, well cumming very quickly is what happens.  On top of sufficiently numbed cock, i wore a penis sleeve to subdue the sensation even more.

Long story short, Mistress loved it !.  i was able to go for as long and as hard as Mistress wanted.  She came HARD!!!!!  She was reduced to a puddle.  A completely satisfied puddle, but a puddle nonetheless. 

i love my Mistress and seeing her in such deep sexual pleasure is the most satisfying and thrilling thing for me to see.