A stolen moment

It was Saturday (yesterday).  One of our kids had a friend over and the house was filled with the joy of children at play.  We had a kid's sports related event to go to at 5pm, followed by a gathering of the team at one of the parents house.  At around 3:30, the kids ended up going over to the friend's house before going to the event.  Mistress put them in the car and ran them over.

Then, at 3:50, this text string began ... MK: "Lover, get naked.  I will be home in a few minutes.  I want a glass of ice water waiting",  SHIP:  yes Mistress   MK:  Are you empty?  SHIP:  Not really   MK:  Can you be in the next 5 minutes?   SHIP:  Yes   MK:  Do it.

Mistress arrived.  I was naked and empty.  I just love being told to be naked in order to greet her when she comes home.  She came into the house, put her purse down and started kissing me passionately, rubbing her hands all over my exposed body.  She confirmed that I was "empty" and then pointed to the bedroom and said "in there ... go".  Once inside, she removed her pants and matter-of-factly instructed me to get the thigh harness and whatever I wanted to put into that would end up in my bottom.  

She told me to hurry because we didn't have much time.  While is was in the closet getting the harness and the dildo that would fuck me, Mistress retrieved her wand vibrator.

When I returned, she was sitting in Queen chair, vibrator in hand and instructed me to kneel between her legs and install the harness on her left thigh.  She promptly scooted toward the edge of the chair.  I put a condom on the rubber cock and slid it into place in the harness, and then secured the Velcro harness to her thigh.  She spread her legs wide, turned on the vibrator and placed it on her panty covered clit.  She pointed to the cock sticking up from her leg and said "come on, get over it and lower yourself on to it".  I straddled the rubber cock, smeared lube all over my bottom hole and it, positioned it at it's intended target and lowered myself on it.  Mistress was rapidly approaching the first of two orgasms she would have as I slowly lowered myself onto her cock.  After just a few seconds to allow myself to comfortable accept the intruder, she ordered me to fuck myself on her cock.  I moved my and down while watching her have an incredible orgasm.  The sight before me and the realization that this actually happening to me had brought me to the very edge of orgasm.  It was so hot.  I felt so very objectified and as you know, just witnessing Mistress having an orgasm can almost produce an orgasm for me and with my ass filled, facing her and witnessing an especially fast and strong orgasm, I was right there.

After her orgasm subsided, Mistress ordered me to place some lube in her hand.  I was almost whimpering at the prospect of her slippery hand on my cock while all this was going.  I was certain that her hand would take past the point of no return in seconds.  Seconds later, while she was stroking me, telling me to fuck her cock and warning me not to come .... I begged her to let go because I was a second away from not being able to control it.  She did let go and just then, clear pre-bum oozed from the tip of my cock and onto her thigh.  Her eyes got huge, thinking I had disobeyed her allowed an ejaculation without permission.  I took every ounce of strength I had to prevent that from actually happening, but in the end it was only clear pre-cum. 

My thighs were killing me but I was still bobbing up and down on her thigh, fucking myself when she put the vibrator back on her panty covered pussy.  I asked her if I could turn, facing away from her while fucking myself on her leg and she said yes.  I came off of the rubber cock, turn facing away from, held the cock at my bottom and lowered myself back on it.  In this position, Mistress got a front row view of the cock going in and out of my ass and in seconds was having a second massive orgasm.  After recovering from her orgasm, she told me to stop, get off of her cock and clean everything up and put everything away.   Ughhhh!   I was just getting started but the clock is also an un-yielding Mistress.   I cleaned everything, put everything away and hastily left to the kids sports event.  I was wanting so much more so very badly, but also wallowing in the appreciation of the treat Mistress just gave me.  Later, after the sports event, I returned to the house to pick Mistress up for the after event.  She was naked and had just completed showering and putting on her makeup and was about to get dressed, but before doing so, came right up to me and said ... "you may worship me for a few seconds before we go" while pushing me to my knees.  She had just put a fresh shave on her pussy and it was as smooth and as beautiful as I have ever seen, felt or tasted.  After about 30 seconds, she pulled away and told me to get ready for the party. 

Thank you Mistress!

Milked .......

It was Monday, just like Mistress said it would be.  As I said in my previous post, I had no idea of anything other than Mistress intended to drain me of my semen.  The 9pm hour was approaching and the kids were finally in bed.  Mistress had mentioned earlier in the week that she wanted to trim my body hair.  She sent me to the bathroom and told me to prepare the clippers and myself for some grooming.  Standing naked in the shower, Mistress arrived and began the chore of grooming me.  She trimmed my body hair very, very close ... like using electric clippers without any guard close.  Afterward, I looked at myself I the mirror and I have to admit, I like what I saw.  I've never been one to want to be feminized but with that being said, it did make me feel a bit like a slut, which you may already know, I do enjoy.  Especially now ... on the cusp of being milked by my Mistress ....

(side bar  -  In the middle of writing this post, I received a call from Mistress with instructions to go to her throne in our bedroom, sit there, masturbate for one minute (and DO NOT COME of course), video it and send it to her.   Mission accomplished.

Back tour story.  Mistress instructed me to shower to remove any loose hair.  In the shower I put a fresh shave on the area of my body that is owned by her.  I mean after all, if she was going to be paying close attention to that part of my body, it should at least e freshly groomed as well. When I emerged from the bathroom, Mistress instructed me to get a towel.  She laid it our on the floor at the foot of our bed, then disappeared into our closet telling me lie face up on the towel.  The Aneros milking tool was lying nearby. 

When she returned, she placed a blindfold on me and thus began the process of my milking.

It became clear early on that Mistress intended for this to be a romantic event and proceeded to subject my naked body to all sorts of sensation.  There was tickling, biting, scratching, tender kisses, soft tongue gentle hands and over my body.  Mistress even honored me by taking my cock into her Goddess mouth and pleasure me for several minutes that way.  I always consider it an incredible honor when Mistress will place her mouth anywhere on my body, and especially so when she takes my cock in her mouth.  Yummy. 

Mistress then straightened my left leg fully and secured my left ankle to the bed.  Then, she bound my wrists together and stretched them fully and secured them as well, leaving me fully stretched.  My right leg was left unsecured.  I was to discover shortly that she left it unsecured on purpose in order to be able to raise that leg and paddle my bottom from time to time, which she did several times.  On one occasion, she raised my leg and was paddling me and struck my balls.  It hurt!  She didn't seem to mind and continued with her procedure.  She also produced our flogger and proceeded to flog my exposed, vulnerable body all over, included my now aching balls.  Mistress hadn't shown much interest in the past for CBT but on this occasion seemed to enjoy the moans of pain that were coming from my mouth (which was gagged by this time with out ball gag).  After 30 minutes or so of delicious torture over my body, Mistress liberally applied lube to my ass and gently slide a finger inside.  It was time to get to the task at hand ... the draining of my balls of it's contents.

After a minute or so of her finger, I could feel the hardness of the Aneros at my rear hole.  Mistress slide it quickly but gently and soon my prostate was feeling the full effect of the intruder.  Mistress "primed the pump" by stroking my cock and in no time I was so very close to the edge I felt certain I wasn't going to be able to prevent an ejaculation.  I knew that if I had ejaculated now, without her permission to do so, I'd be subject to a very harsh spanking punishment like the one I received a week or so ago for the very same offense.  It took every ounce of strength I had to prevent an ejaculation.  There was an emission but it only precum.  I was so deep in subspace and lost in the sensations that were happening to me.  Mistress was working the Aneros on my prostate and in no time, the semen just ran from body and was pooling all over my tummy.  There was no controlling it.  It was a completely involuntary expulsion of semen, and there was a ton of it.  There was no orgasm.  None. There wasn't even the kind of slight pleasure that comes from a ruined orgasm.  it was merely the sensation of the fluid leaving my body.  Mistress removed the device from my wanton ass leaving me wanting more.  I just laid there, covered in my own cum while Mistress removed the restraints.  When my limbs were free, Mistress laid with not saying a word.  We just laid there holding each other.  A few minutes later, Mistress instructed me to clean everything up so we could go to bed.

Isn't she the greatest Mistress ever?  Mission accomplished!

The following morning, I was instructed to wear my glass again that day.  I felt the soreness inside my hole all day but it was the kind of soreness that felt wonderful. 

On this morning I asked Mistress permission to ask her to consider something (that's a new rule for us).  She said yes, so I asked her that since she was on her monthly visitor, and since it was the only time of the month that she even consider using her strapon on me, I asked her if she would consider donning her thigh harness that holds her rubber cock, and allow me to ride it while she sat in her throne.

She said she would consider it.  I'm so excite that she is considering it.  I love performing for her this way ..... I hope she says yes!

I'll ask again, isn't she the greatest Mistress Wife ever?

Wear your plug today

Mistress' bestie arrived last night and they spent plenty of time cathcing up, giggling and just having plain old fun.  They just left to go to an overnight activity that will keep us apart until tomorrow night.  Booo!  Mistress' friend that arrived in town is the other other person that knows all about our FLM.  There was no conversation about it that included me and frankly I am not aware that they even talked about it last night.  This morning there was a couple of casual remarks in direct reference to my being controlled by Mistress K. with her friend and they seemed competely natural and without any embarrasement...on anyone's part.  I don't know if there will be any conversation (or ?) or not once they return and before her friend leaves to go back home or not.  I will of course leave that entirely up to Mistress K.  I am prepared to demonstrate of role in our marriage in any way (subtle or otherwise) that Mistress K. might deem appropriate (or not).

This morning, after i got out of the shower and before they left, Mistress came into the closet where I was waiting for her, naked and in anticipation of her instructions on what to wear under my clothes today.  She seemed unsure about what she wanted me to wear and asked me directly what is most comfortable to wear under my jeans.  I'll give you two guesses as to what I told her, but you'll only need one.  My glass plug.  She agreed and ordered me to wear the plug.  yay! 

With that she stood up and reached for the lube and grabbed my flaccid cock and ordered it to get hard ... IMMEDIATELY.  I don't need to be told twice and in a matter of seconds it was hard.  She put lube in her hand and started stroking me.  She then looked me in the eye and apologized for not having edged me in quite some time.  Once i got close to orgasm and told her so, she held her hand firm and ordered me to fuck her hand.  She likes to watch he stand there and thrust into her slippery hand.  It was amazing as she continued to hold me at the edge for quite a while before she decided it was time to stop.  I have to admit that it was rather exciting to know that she was doing that to me with her friend in the guest room sleeping.  Once she was done, she told me to put my plug in and gave me an added bonus by standing there to watch while i put one foot up on a stool, bent over and worked the plug into my ass.  She smiled and said, "you enjoy putting things in your ass while I watch, don't you"?  All I could do was whimper a "yes I do Mistress".  My goal is to wear my plug the entire 30 hours or so before i see her again.  We'll see how that goes.

I can't wait till she gets home.

Can I please fuck you?

I came home from the office yesterday to find Mistress all alone in the house.  It was miserable hot yesterday (117) and when I walked in and was bathed in the AC, all I could was let out a "mmm".  When I got to the kitchen, there she was.  The woman of my affection.  The Mistress of my domain, My Keyholder, the owner of cock and the one that controls my orgasms.  I am still thrilled to first put my eyes on her even though we may have only been apart for a few hours.

After the usual the greetings and salutations, I asked where the kids where.  She said that she was just about to leave to go get.  "So we are alone????", I asked.  "yes, we are alone", she said.  Of course, right there in the kitchen I began to remove my clothes when Mistress said she had to leave that minute.  I got pouty and begged for a little something.  Anything.  I asked Mistress if I could fuck her before she left (only half jokingly).  "Uh, no", was her response.  I unzipped my pants to show her, to remind her that I was still wearing the balls harness

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she instructed me to wear (as if the idea of removing it without permission even occurred to me).  She looked at me a little amused, a little annoyed and summoned me over to wear she was standing next to the sink.  "Masturbate to the edge for me before I go" she said.  Quick like a bunny I fully unfastened my trousers and let them fall to the floor.  I was ready.  I like to wait until our eyes are locked together before I begin to masturbate for her.  When she looked in my eyes, I began to stroke.  I know she could sense the utter pleasure I had with complying with her command to masturbate for her. 

On this occasion, as I reached the edge of orgasm, I stopped moving my hand link I always do, only this time there was some pre cum that apparently needed to cum out.  I tried my best to keep it from coming because my first thought was it was going to be an unauthorized ejaculation (God help me).  Failing at keeping it from coming out, I quickly realized it was precum and was not the unauthorized cummies.

For a moment there, there was shock on both of our faces when it was thought that I very well may have just cum without permission for the first time.  Fear of what might happen was the first thing that I thought of.  Confusion and disappointment seemed to be what was on Mistresses' mind, but that is only supposition on my part.  I quickly informed that it was not cum but rather it was precum.  I showed her that the liquid that had gathered in three spot on the floor was water clear and not milky like semen.

She looked at me for just a moment and then seemingly agreed that I had in fact only lost a small amount of precum and I did NOT actually violate one of the most basic rules of our life together.  "clean your mess.  I have to go" ..... and out the door she went.

Something new to wear today

As most of you know, each morning, when I am completely naked and prepared to dress for the day, I will let Mistress K. know that I am ready to get dressed. Notice that I am not asking what, if anything, I am to wear that day under my clothes. I have made a very concerted effort to not "ask" for things, even if disguised as being a helpful question for my beloved Mistress. Instead of asking, each day I merely inform Mistress than I am ready to dress for the day, and without asking, I am offering Mistress the opportunity to decide what, if anything she would like for me to wear that day. Yesterday is was my favorite pair of panties (favorite because they truly do make me feel like a sexy, pretty slut when I wear them. probably mostly because they fit me) Some days last week it my balls separator while other days it was my cock ring. The week before that, it was my new (favorite) glass butt plug. As an aside, I wore the very same sexy panties on the day I wore my glass plug and feeling like a pretty, sexy slut in just my panties was magnified 100 times by the plug that was so firmly held in my willing ass under those pretty panties. Anyway, back to today .......... Finally, after threatening to do so for 2 weeks, Mistress "de-bear-ed" me. In other words, she trimmed (almost shaved) the body hair that was left un-groomed for almost 2 months. I don't know about you, but I feel my horniest/sexiest/sluttiest right after a fresh shave/trim. I love when she grooms me this way because it is a time where I am required to stand before her, completely naked and exposed, while she prepares my body the way she likes. I adore the objectification that goes along with it. Today, while grooming me, she was in regular old t shirt and panties that she slept in. She was also wearing a regular, normal robe that she left untied. Her beautiful red hair was disheveled and in a knotty pony tail. In other words, she didn't spend one second preening in front of the mirror before attending to the task of grooming me. Even so (maybe even especially so) when I looked down at her kneeling on the floor in order to be able to groom me, looking the way she did in her utter natural state, I was taken back by her beauty at that moment. Sure she is a beautiful woman when she prepares her makeup and clothes to make herself feel presentable to the outside world, but to me, in the just-woke-up condition, she is at her most stunning, her most beautiful. Needless to say, that when looking down at her like I was, my super hard, super erect cock kept blocking my view. So, on this particular morning, after having the bulk of my yucky body hair removed, and then after a fresh, smooth shave to my cock, balls, anus area and ass cheeks, I was feeling incredibly horny/pretty/slutty. Mistress could've done anything she wanted to/with me at that moment and I would've gladly gone along. When the time came for me to tell I was ready to get dressed, she had me follow her into the closet saying something like, "let's see, what should we have you wear today?" She had me sit on the stool then she straddled me, pulled her panties to the side and slowly lowered herself onto my rock hard cock. She leaned and in said today, "you will wear me". Those words got me as close to an unauthorized orgasm as I have ever been. With that, she stood up, pulled her panties back over her beautiful pussy and turned to walk out of the closet. She stopped to say "you will wear me on you today", and out she went. OMG! I touched my cock and balls, gathered her smell on my hand and put it to my nose. Honest to goodness, the smell of her sex was almost enough to allow me to orgasm right then and there. This woman owns me, in every sense of the word.

She let me watch

We had an hour or so where the kids where occupied with activities that allowed us to be alone.  I dropped off the kids and walked back into the cabin and Mistress said "go downstairs and get naked".  Yes Mistress, was my response and i walked downstairs.  She quickly followed and removed her clothes.  She told me to go put "pinky" on.  In case you don't already know, pinky is a cock sleeve that makes me thicker, longer and basically allows me to fuck her without any feeling on my cock whatsoever. 

She climbed on the bed and summoned me between her legs.  "I want you inside me", she said.  I moved closer and eased the my thicker, longer cock inside her slowly.  Once She felt comfortable with how it felt inside her, She rolled over onto her tummy and told me to fuck her.  Since i was selfish and forgot to bring her vibrator, She had to use Her fingers to get herself off quickly (we don't have much time).  It wasn't 2 minutes before She was having a deep orgasm with me inside.  i have to admit though, even though pinky is thick (like 100 condoms thick), the urge to orgasm was upon me.  frankly, i can almost orgasm by watching my beloved Mistress have an orgasm and even with my cock securely encased in rubber, having it inside her while She has an orgasm was almost too much.  i asked for permission to have a ruined orgasm and She said "that won't be happening today".

When She was finished, i asked if i could slide myself inside her for one slow thrust in the missionary poisition because it is one of my favorite things to be looking into her eyes when i enter her.  She said "no, not today".

She shooed me awa so She could get ready and told me to do he same.

Maybe tomorrow.

Thank you Mistress K. for allowing me see your naked body, for allowing my cock to be inside you and for allowing me to witness your orgasm.  If the day was over now (it's 11:30am), my day would be complete. 

i just love Her.

Free Day

i was just informed by Mistress that this evening i will have free access to the pleasure of by body , in any way i want, to do anything i wish to myself sexually.  Not only that ....... get this, i am required to bring myself to orgasm.  Yes, that's what i said, i am required to bring myself to orgasm.  What a special treat, a special that Mistress had given to me.

When i first saw the words on the text, i thought she must be kidding.  Maybe it was a typo?  So i asked for her to confirm that not only was i allowed to cum, i was REQUIRED to cum.  Holy crap!!  It didn't take long for me to realize that this would be the first time in 2 years that will orgasm fully and ejaculate without her being a witness.  my initial reaction was unsettling.  i have lovingly and willingly committed myself to only ever ejaculating while in the presence of my Mistress.  So late, when i am done teasing and denying myself repeatedly, and i am done repeatedly filling my hungry bottom with her strappy cock, i will have an orgasm.  One hour from now, i will be going to have dinner with some buddies.  While there i will be wearing my new glass plug (wearing it now) and will have my balls-stretcher harness on in tribute to my Mistress Wife.

There is an old joke .....  "I had sex last night and i was nervous.  Yeah, I was all alone."  Genuinely, i will be nervous.

I love you Mistress.  You are a glorious Mistress, lover, Wife and friend.  Thank You.

This was my treat

i came home from work Friday at 10:30 expecting Mistress's arrival shortly thereafter.  Then i stripped naked.  It is a standing rule in O/our house that i am to be naked at all times (when W/we are alone) unless otherwise instructed.  i was naked (except for my cage) and eagerly awaiting Her arrival.  Once i heard the dogs barking, i knew She was here.  i was soooo, excited because i was so ready to be at her disposal.  i had successfully avoided trying to steer Her into an activity that i might have wanted and it left me feeling as vulnerable and as excited to please as i have ever been.  i was also a little nervous ... like a slut that was there for one purpose, and one purpose only.  She had just come home from the gym and when i went to go kiss Her, She said no because She was "gross from sweat" as She put it.

She sent me to the shower even though i had showered 2 hours earlier.  She apparently had some calls to make which only took a few minutes.  When i emerged from the shower, i went right to Her and She said follow me, leading the way into the bedroom.  She pointed at the chair in the bedroom and said "sit", then disappeared into the closet.  She returned and placed a blindfold over my eyes after i had asked if i could watch the NCAA tournament while i waited.  She said "no, you won't be needing to watch TV".  After the blindfold was in place, She returned to the closet and placed a ball gag in my mouth.  It didn't take long before She was back placing Velcro cuffs with D-rings on my wrists and ankles.  Then, She placed a collar that i had bought for Her to wear a few years ago when we played and switch the dominant role in D/s role-play, which was before we started our FLM.  So there i was, gagged, blindfolded, Her cock caged and locked, cuffed and collared when She pulled me to my feet and led me to the closed door in O/our bedroom.  There She had placed a over-the-door hook.  She locked my ankle cuffs together, then my writs cuffs together, then attached the wrist cuffs to the top of the door, leaving me standing there, arms above my head, secured, vulnerable and unable to move.

She was rubbing my back and bottom and then started to give what amounted to a very substantial spanking.  It wasn't a punishment spanking, but it was a "good one" nonetheless.  After what seemed like an hour (probably 10-15 minutes), She told me She was getting in the shower and for me to wait here and not to go anywhere.  She giggled and walked away into the bathroom.  I heard the water running and some fumbling with drawers and cupboards when i felt a hand on my ass and kisses on my neck.  Once again She said "wait here while I shower" and proceeded to give me another 15-20 good spanks. 

i'll tell you, standing in that position, blinded, gagged, freshly spanked, naked, caged and not being able to move can cause you to go immediately into deeper subspace, which i did of course.  After Her shower, she returned, gave me several more hard swats to my red ass and asked if i was doing ok.  She unclasped my hands from above the door in order to allow the blood to go back into my arms.  She is so generous! She pressed my forehead to the door with instructions not to move.  Of course i didn't.

i stood there for (again, what seemed like an hour) another 15 minutes or so while i heard the sound of Her blow-dryer and other usual noise that come from the bathroom of a Goddess preparing her body to be worshipped.  I could even hear the sound of Her perfume being sprayed about a minute before smelling it. She finally returned to me, spanked me hard several more times and then led me blindfolded to the chair in the bedroom.

It is a big, comfy chair that She like to sit in when She relaxes and has become Her favorite chair to have me kneel before and worship Her ass and pussy.  She stopped me in front of the chair as i could feel here taking a seat in it.  Once seated She said, "kneel".  Once on my knees She grabbed the back of my head and pulled me between Her now spread legs and said "lick my pussy".   Holy shit .......... i was in heaven!!!!  Being deep in subspace, being given the honor of being able to put my mouth on Her pussy caused a good amount of pre-cum to dribble out of my cage and on to my legs.  That was entirely new for me.  The mere excitement of being allowed to worship her pussy caused precum to run from the end of Her cock.  i was shuddering with desire as i kneeled there and worshipped Her glorious, freshly shaved pussy.  After Her first orgasm (shit, that awesome), She unclasped my wrist cuffs and ankle cuffs and had me resume my worshipping.  She would tell me exactly where She wanted my tongue, in what position and how fast She wanted it moving, and position my head with Her hands accordingly.  OMG it was awesome!

After another glorious orgasm, She told me to stand because She said She wanted me to fuck Her with "pinky" (our pink cock sleeve).  She told me to remove my blindfold and when i saw Her there on the chair, legs spread, i could've cum right there.  i was so in love, so wanting to please this Goddess and so much in love with Her, i didn't want to leave to go get pinky.  "GO" she said impatiently, and off i went.  i returned to the bedroom and there She was, lying on the bed on Her tummy/side with one leg pulled up to Her chest.  i installed pinky on my hard-as-a-rock cock and climbed up on the bed, straddled Her extended leg and took my position behind Her.  I lubed pinky and placed the tip and the entrance of Her glorious pussy and slowly watched it disappear inside Her.  She moaned in delight and i could tell it wouldn't be long before i was going to have the honor of watching Her have another orgasm.  She then turned on Her vibrating egg and placed it on Her clit.  That's when the trouble started.

It had been 36 days since my last orgasm.  All of this activity plus the site of my beloved Mistress writhing in pleasure before was just too much for me to handled and i just involuntarily began to ejaculate.  i pulled out hoping to avoid cumming without permission but to no avail.  Even thought eh pinky sleeve is pink, it's also translucent, and i could see it filling with gobs of cum.  i mean gobs and gobs of cum.  i was ashamed and embarrassed for having disappointed Mistress by ejaculating without permission.  She was in the throes of pleasure and told me to take pinky off and finish her with my un-sleeved cock.  i returned to the position behind and pushed my ultra-sensitive cock inside Her so She could achieve Her orgasm.  Once She had her third orgasm, She all but collapsed on the bed and rested to gather her strength.  i was left to contemplate what i had just done and began to apologize profusely to Her.  She simply said "Shhh" and led me back to the door where She meted out my immediate punishment for ejaculating without permission .......... and it hurt.  A lot!

If you've ever had a post-orgasm punishment you'll know it is the WORST.  Since my ejaculation amounted to only a ruined-orgasm, it wasn't as bad, but it was in no way pleasurable.  She gave me a very sound spanking on my already tender ass then She turned me around, grabbed my chin and said "don't pout about it.  We just took care of correcting the wrong you did now move on and quit sulking".  Afterward W/we went to lunch after i decided to take the rest of the afternoon off, and W/we had a lovely time. 

So, here i am 37 days since my last full-on, real orgasm.  Needless to say i was disappointed that i ejaculated without permission and i'm certain Mistress was disappointed with me also.  i was also disappointed that my abrupt, unauthorized ejaculation pre-empted whatever other plans Mistress had for U/us on Friday afternoon.  i had hopes and dreams about what plans she may have had for me, but alas it was not meant to be.  If i were honest, my hope was that she was going to seduce me and then fuck me, but i guess i'll never know.  my guess is (and it's only a guess) that She intended for me to have a full-on, real, glorious orgasm that day, but that She was going to put me through my paces before getting there.

On the plus side, it being only a ruined orgasm, i am has eager to please her as i was on Friday.  i told her that and she just smiled at me for several seconds and then said "Hmmm'.