There have been plenty of discussions on blog sites lately about the real value (or perhaps the lack thereof) of spankings, in particular as used as form of punishment, training or discipline. there have been plenty of lucid, logical and reasonable points and comments made on both ends of the spectrum. To some, they are valueless and merely are used in order to satisfy one's kink, either for the spanker or the spankee. Ok, I get that, and at the end of the, all of the opinions expressed are real and valid as they relate to each couples individual circumstances within the confines of their relationship. On the other hand, none of the comments or opinions are valid if those opinions are intended to dispute an opposing opinion. They are just that .... opinions. I'll try to describe mine.
Yesterday morning, Mistress K. informed me that at the end of the day, I was going to be spanked, as a punishment, for the recent transgression of failing to get her coffee for her on Sunday morning past. As it turned out, life circumstances took over which caused all of the energy necessary to properly execute my spanking, to be drained by the end of the day. I respectfully asked Mistress if we could postpone my spanking punishment for another time because I was dead ass tired and I could also tell that so was Mistress. She agreed, but with a caveat ........... that it will be more severe than what it would've been had it been performed last evening. "Yes Mistress, I understand" was my reply.
When we crawled into bed, I apologized to her for the transgression that earned me the upcoming punishment, much the same way I would've following the spanking had it actually been performed. I truly do feel regret when something Mistress expects from me doesn't happen. We talked a little about it and I actually said that I didn't like to be spanked. I mean, I didn't like the actual act of her pink leather paddle coming down hard on my bare ass. That part hurts. I also said that the comfort of knowing that I am to face something that I don't necessarily enjoy (the actual burning sting of that paddle), was something that am so very thankful of and that the joy and comfort I get from knowing that I will face a spanking punishment, completely eclipses any negative feeling I may have about the actual contact of the paddle on my bottom.
I've been thinking about it ever since and have come to the following conclusion. First an foremost, the very fact that my beloved wife will accept the role of my key holder, my disciplinarian, the leader of our marriage, the owner of my sex and the sole source of not my sexual pleasure, but life pleasure as well .... is very emotionally comforting and something that is very important to me. I also very much love basking in the ritual of being punished by her paddle. Being required to voluntarily present my naked body to her, in order for her ritualistically spank my naked ass while I hold still in a required position (whatever that may be), is so very important to me, as well as to Mistress K. The first time I was spanked had a element of humiliation. After that, the humiliation evolved into a source of pride and became an important, symbolic gesture of my devotion to Mistress K., every time I was spanked. Also, and just as important, the emotional cleansing that comes from being spanked as a punishment, and the subsequent emotional that come from the after care, is, well, beautiful. Mistress K. and I agree that the best thing that comes from using a harsh spanking as punishment is that it speeds the process of "wiping the slate clean" and allows us to go forward without the risk of one or both of us carrying any negative feelings forward.
Being spanked hurts, and when it is happening, I truly want it to end. But then, usually when the spanking is over, I secretly wish that it had been longer and more severe than it was ... that I had been required to put "more skin in the game" so to speak. I think this happens because as soon as it is over, the pleasure of demonstrating to Mistress that I am willing to participate in something that I don't logically want to do (spanking), is over. It's crazy, I know. It probably explains why when I read stories about submissive husband being required to consume their own cum, I always have two thoughts in my head. One is .... Gross! the other is Why do I have an erection?
At the end of the day, I am so very grateful to be subject to punishment spankings from my Mistress. I love you Mistress.
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Saturday, February 28, 2015
Friday, January 9, 2015
How did your punishment go this morning (by request)
Details of the punishment spanking I received this morning (see blog post title "will be kneeling and waiting" from yesterday as to why), as requested by my friend, Florida Dom:
Yesterday, after Mistress informed me that was to be punished within 48 hours, I texted her and asked if I should be naked, kneeling and prepared to receive my spanking this morning. She texted right back with a simple "yes".
This morning, as Mistress left the house to take the children to school, I immediately got in the shower. i wanted to be sure this body, that Mistress owns and was about to be presented to her, was freshly cleaned and freshly shaved. Quickly but thoroughly is scrubbed my body clean and put a fresh shave on my cock, balls and ass. After my shower I went over and quickly brushed my teeth, cleaned up the clothes I was wearing before I got in the shower and straightened up a little. I went into the closet to retrieve her pink, leather paddle. I had every intention of being kneeled, naked and holding her paddle in the palms of my hand when she entered the house. As I was making my toward the door to kneel and wait, she walked in the door. i wasn't kneeling but i was naked and I did have her paddle in my hand. She was very pleased.
At that moment I informed Mistress that I was in a bit of a rush because i was hosting a conference call and needed to get to the office to do that. Depending on the length and severity of the punishment she had in mind, I wanted to offer her the option of having enough time to get what she wanted accomplished, whatever she wanted that to be. There was still 24 hours left the 48 hour window. We had like 6-7 minutes. She looked at me a moment and simply said ... "go to the bedroom".
I walked in the bedroom, faced the door and stood there with my hands behind my back. In 30 seconds or so, she walked through the door toward me and pointed to the ground and said "get on all fours". I did so right away. She retrieved a throw pillow from her chair (the "Throne") that she uses in our bedroom, placed it on the floor and told me to bury my face in the pillow with my ass in the air. I began to worry because for me, this is the most painful position to receive a spanking in because it stretches the skin on my bottom tight. She stood before me then straddled my body facing away from me. In no time WHAP. The first swat came and it was no warm-up kind of slap. She repeated those until i received (guessing) 20-25 hard swats of the leather paddle. It was quick. It was purposeful and it hurt!!! When she was done, she rubbed my hot bottom with her warm hands for about a minute, then said "up", which means I am to kneel before her so I can thank her or my spanking and so she can apply after care. I wrapped my arms around her and pull my face into the favorite part of her body right after I get punished. Her belly. She rubbed my head and told me it was over and that she loved me. Then, she pulled her night shirt up so my face could rest on her bare tummy. Up to that moment, my cock was not hard. It was not a sexually arousing spanking. The she symbolically offered me her bare belly to recover in, my cock got rock hard (love boner) as I wallowed there in my sub space. After another minute she told me to get dressed and go to work. On this day, under my clothes ... my instructions were to wear nothing, including underwear.
When I got to the office and shut off the car, I texted her to tell that my bottom was still feeling it ... and then I said "Thank you".
Yesterday, after Mistress informed me that was to be punished within 48 hours, I texted her and asked if I should be naked, kneeling and prepared to receive my spanking this morning. She texted right back with a simple "yes".
This morning, as Mistress left the house to take the children to school, I immediately got in the shower. i wanted to be sure this body, that Mistress owns and was about to be presented to her, was freshly cleaned and freshly shaved. Quickly but thoroughly is scrubbed my body clean and put a fresh shave on my cock, balls and ass. After my shower I went over and quickly brushed my teeth, cleaned up the clothes I was wearing before I got in the shower and straightened up a little. I went into the closet to retrieve her pink, leather paddle. I had every intention of being kneeled, naked and holding her paddle in the palms of my hand when she entered the house. As I was making my toward the door to kneel and wait, she walked in the door. i wasn't kneeling but i was naked and I did have her paddle in my hand. She was very pleased.
At that moment I informed Mistress that I was in a bit of a rush because i was hosting a conference call and needed to get to the office to do that. Depending on the length and severity of the punishment she had in mind, I wanted to offer her the option of having enough time to get what she wanted accomplished, whatever she wanted that to be. There was still 24 hours left the 48 hour window. We had like 6-7 minutes. She looked at me a moment and simply said ... "go to the bedroom".
I walked in the bedroom, faced the door and stood there with my hands behind my back. In 30 seconds or so, she walked through the door toward me and pointed to the ground and said "get on all fours". I did so right away. She retrieved a throw pillow from her chair (the "Throne") that she uses in our bedroom, placed it on the floor and told me to bury my face in the pillow with my ass in the air. I began to worry because for me, this is the most painful position to receive a spanking in because it stretches the skin on my bottom tight. She stood before me then straddled my body facing away from me. In no time WHAP. The first swat came and it was no warm-up kind of slap. She repeated those until i received (guessing) 20-25 hard swats of the leather paddle. It was quick. It was purposeful and it hurt!!! When she was done, she rubbed my hot bottom with her warm hands for about a minute, then said "up", which means I am to kneel before her so I can thank her or my spanking and so she can apply after care. I wrapped my arms around her and pull my face into the favorite part of her body right after I get punished. Her belly. She rubbed my head and told me it was over and that she loved me. Then, she pulled her night shirt up so my face could rest on her bare tummy. Up to that moment, my cock was not hard. It was not a sexually arousing spanking. The she symbolically offered me her bare belly to recover in, my cock got rock hard (love boner) as I wallowed there in my sub space. After another minute she told me to get dressed and go to work. On this day, under my clothes ... my instructions were to wear nothing, including underwear.
When I got to the office and shut off the car, I texted her to tell that my bottom was still feeling it ... and then I said "Thank you".
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Wear your cage today
We are going to the resort to day for our celebration. I took today and tomorrow off from work in order to accomodate our vows renewal ceremony. When I woke up this morning my instructions were to be showered, shaved and in my cage.
How long and for what reason I am i my cage is unknown, nor is it my place to question the reasons why.
While milling around the house packing for stay at the resort, Mistress decided that now would be a good time for me to receive one of my two pending punishment spankings. "Go get my paddle and meet me in the bedroom", she said. When she arrived, I begged her to be lenient. She always seems to know just the right time to spank me. When I'm not expecting and so I go through a very quick spurt of anxiety about what lays before me in the next few minutes.
She began to spank me. She wasn't even swinging that hard and holy shit did it sting! I know that there are times when it hurts more than others. I've had her wailing on me for what seemed like 30 minutes, and I was feeling the sting but was more than able to handle. Then there are other times, like now, when she is only 5 swats into the punishment and I am already squealing and begging like a pussy for her to stop.
I still have another punishment that is due to me. Like I said in an earlier post, I'm not sure if Mistress wants to incporate it into our ceremony, our stay at the resort or just wait until after the whole thing is over.
Here is sit, on a very tender, red bottom, naked and in my chastity cage, waiting for the time to leave for the resort. I am so excited.
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How long and for what reason I am i my cage is unknown, nor is it my place to question the reasons why.
While milling around the house packing for stay at the resort, Mistress decided that now would be a good time for me to receive one of my two pending punishment spankings. "Go get my paddle and meet me in the bedroom", she said. When she arrived, I begged her to be lenient. She always seems to know just the right time to spank me. When I'm not expecting and so I go through a very quick spurt of anxiety about what lays before me in the next few minutes.
She began to spank me. She wasn't even swinging that hard and holy shit did it sting! I know that there are times when it hurts more than others. I've had her wailing on me for what seemed like 30 minutes, and I was feeling the sting but was more than able to handle. Then there are other times, like now, when she is only 5 swats into the punishment and I am already squealing and begging like a pussy for her to stop.
I still have another punishment that is due to me. Like I said in an earlier post, I'm not sure if Mistress wants to incporate it into our ceremony, our stay at the resort or just wait until after the whole thing is over.
Here is sit, on a very tender, red bottom, naked and in my chastity cage, waiting for the time to leave for the resort. I am so excited.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Don't forget the coffee
Submissives everywhere ..... do what you are told. Having her coffee ready when she wakes in the morning is not that difficult.
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That particular wooden spoon is like a cane. Especially when Mistress concentrates on 2 small areas. It's hard to see but I am also wearing my glass plug.
Sunday, September 7, 2014
It hurts now
Mistress K. and I recently had a nice regular meeting to discuss our FLM. We both agree(d) that we love what this lifestyle has brought to our marriage. I told her that now, whenever I have a sexual fantasy, it ALWAYS includes her. I didn't tell her that because it was what I thought she wants to hear> I told her that because it has become the truth, naturally. I truly do not have any desire for sexual gratification that does not include Mistress. Sure, it may include other women when I fantasize, but never, ever in the context of being alone with that woman or women. In every instance, Mistress is of course the Dominant one, even in those fantasies where she is used sexually like san insatiable slut. In those fantasies where another woman may be involved, Mistress is always the Alpha Domme, even if the other woman is also a Domme.
In any event, part of our conversation was about spankings. As I promised I would, I let Mistress K. know that I thought that the punishment spanking (the ones intended to deter abhorrent behavior) needed to be significantly more severe. I even said that I knew I would regret saying this to her each time I was subject to a punishment spanking, but I felt that I needed to be honest with her about it.
Yes ... well, yes, um ..... ow! I have had one punishment spanking from Mistress since that conversation. It was in the morning. For the first time in a very long time, while sitting at my desk in my office wearing panties, I could still feel the tingle and itch of what had been a sound spanking from hours before. That spanking hurt!
That isn't a picture of the actual aftermath. It is an actual picture of my ass after what Mistress used to give as a punishment spanking. If Mistress will allow it in the future, I will ask her to take a picture of my ass after her new version of punishment spankings.
Well, this morning Mistress K. had to wake at 5am to take one of children to a sports activity. Last night, both of use were down at the neighbors and I had a good bit to drink so when we got home, I asked for permission to go right to sleep and Mistress said yes. Well, I walked right past the coffee maker which is a place I would normally stop so I could prepare the coffee maker to start brewing coffee before we woke up. Long story short, Mistress did get up early, did take our child to the sporting activity and did accept my apology for not having her coffee available for her when she woke up. Whew!
Then it came. The text that read simply ............. 48 ............ All I could do was gulp, swallow and fret about what will be an upcoming punishment spanking that will result in my ass being on fire. Shit!
In any event, part of our conversation was about spankings. As I promised I would, I let Mistress K. know that I thought that the punishment spanking (the ones intended to deter abhorrent behavior) needed to be significantly more severe. I even said that I knew I would regret saying this to her each time I was subject to a punishment spanking, but I felt that I needed to be honest with her about it.
Yes ... well, yes, um ..... ow! I have had one punishment spanking from Mistress since that conversation. It was in the morning. For the first time in a very long time, while sitting at my desk in my office wearing panties, I could still feel the tingle and itch of what had been a sound spanking from hours before. That spanking hurt!
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Well, this morning Mistress K. had to wake at 5am to take one of children to a sports activity. Last night, both of use were down at the neighbors and I had a good bit to drink so when we got home, I asked for permission to go right to sleep and Mistress said yes. Well, I walked right past the coffee maker which is a place I would normally stop so I could prepare the coffee maker to start brewing coffee before we woke up. Long story short, Mistress did get up early, did take our child to the sporting activity and did accept my apology for not having her coffee available for her when she woke up. Whew!
Then it came. The text that read simply ............. 48 ............ All I could do was gulp, swallow and fret about what will be an upcoming punishment spanking that will result in my ass being on fire. Shit!
Friday, September 5, 2014
Cock-Therapy contnued
This morning was crazy.
On her way out the door to take the kids to school, Mistress whispers to me "be naked, have your bowels empty and your ass ready for me when I get home". Oh boy ...............
I wasn't sure if Mistress was intent on continuing the cock-therapy training this morning or not. I did have an idea that something was going to end up in my ass though. I did as I was told and she returned, I was working at the computer. She stopped by me, kissed me and said "stay here until I call for you" and disappeared into our Master suite. 10 minutes or so later she summoned me in with her and there she was, naked, gorgeous and wearing her strap on harness and blue rubber dildo. The blue one is still small, but it is bigger than the red one we had been using. She also had her pink leather paddle in her hand.
She called me over to the side of the bed and had me bend over the bed. She informed me that she was gong to give me a punishment spanking right now because i forgot to do something with the dog yesterday and in the caused the dog to pee in the house. She was not happy about that! Mistress proceeded to punish me with the paddle. it was obvious to me that she was intent on giving more severe, more significant paddling's when a punishment spanking was due. She seems to be adopting more and more the idea that a punishment spanking really is beginning once the whimpering and complaining starts. It hurt. Only on very rare occasion have I been able to feel the lingering effects of a spanking hours later. Now, as I write this 7 hours later, i can definitely feel the lingering effect of my spanking this morning. When it was over , Mistress had me stand, turn and then kneel before her for aftercare. Remember, she was wearing her strap on with the dildo in place, so it was something different for to kneel before her with her cock staring me straight in the face. I didn't think she had designs on me acknowledging her cock when she had me kneel because it's not her style, but I didn't know. She didn't. She pushed it to the side and it basically rested on my neck and shoulder while she administered the aftercare.
Next, she had me stand, then sit on towel she had laid out on the bed. The coarseness of the towel was immediately felt on the stinging, burning part of my ass i was resting on. She left the room to go into our closet. My cock was soft as i was recovering from my punishment. It was starting to come to life like it always does during aftercare but this was a harsh enough punishment that it was still soft. I was sitting on the side of the bed when she re-emerged in the room and informed me that we were going to continue with our cock therapy now. this time she had me count the number of strokes of her well-lubed, beautiful little hand on my cock. I can hardly last at all when she strokes my cock with her hand, but this time I was able to go well over 35 strokes before I had to tell her to stop. if you remember, our goal was 30 and anything less than 30 would result in that many more swats from the paddle.
Mistress was so proud of me and in turn I was proud of myself. I felt empowered and was rock hard and horny. She was sweet and tender when she told me to turn over so she could fuck my ass. She turned me over, bent over the side of the bed, told me to put my hands behind my back and tied them together. She smeared lube all over my rear hole and pushed a small silicone plug into my ass. At first it didn't have a lot of lube on it so it was burning. I immediately became discouraged that i wasn't going to be in any condition to take her strappy that looked so sexy on her. She did everything right. She didn't let me whine my way out of being fucked like she had intended. She forced me to find a way to deal with it and to give her what she was there to take ... my ass.
She expertly smeared lube all over the cock and my bottom hole and gently but firmly pushed her condom covered cock into my surprisingly eager hole. It was amazingly comfortable, even natural and my bottom accepted the intruder easily. Mistress smeared tons of lube all over my cock, ball and ass and methodically massaged my balls and perineum while slowly working the cock in and out of my ass. I could've gone on like that for Mistress for hours but she abruptly stopped, told me that she has business to attend to and told me to clean up the toys while she got ready to shower.
I had never felt like that before. I was so eager to continue. i was so eager to be taken to places that i had never ben before. To have my boundaries pushed. I was getting lost in the deep abandonment of the whole thing when it was abruptly over. I felt completely used. I loved it!
I think Mistress and I discovered a few of things this morning. A most severe and significant punishment routine is effective and useful. The sub will likely perform so much better when it comes to premature issues following a ruined orgasm, even the next day, and lastly, the subs ass can take Mistresses cock better, faster and easier than ever before.
It was a crazy good morning. I love you Misrtess K.
On her way out the door to take the kids to school, Mistress whispers to me "be naked, have your bowels empty and your ass ready for me when I get home". Oh boy ...............
I wasn't sure if Mistress was intent on continuing the cock-therapy training this morning or not. I did have an idea that something was going to end up in my ass though. I did as I was told and she returned, I was working at the computer. She stopped by me, kissed me and said "stay here until I call for you" and disappeared into our Master suite. 10 minutes or so later she summoned me in with her and there she was, naked, gorgeous and wearing her strap on harness and blue rubber dildo. The blue one is still small, but it is bigger than the red one we had been using. She also had her pink leather paddle in her hand.
She called me over to the side of the bed and had me bend over the bed. She informed me that she was gong to give me a punishment spanking right now because i forgot to do something with the dog yesterday and in the caused the dog to pee in the house. She was not happy about that! Mistress proceeded to punish me with the paddle. it was obvious to me that she was intent on giving more severe, more significant paddling's when a punishment spanking was due. She seems to be adopting more and more the idea that a punishment spanking really is beginning once the whimpering and complaining starts. It hurt. Only on very rare occasion have I been able to feel the lingering effects of a spanking hours later. Now, as I write this 7 hours later, i can definitely feel the lingering effect of my spanking this morning. When it was over , Mistress had me stand, turn and then kneel before her for aftercare. Remember, she was wearing her strap on with the dildo in place, so it was something different for to kneel before her with her cock staring me straight in the face. I didn't think she had designs on me acknowledging her cock when she had me kneel because it's not her style, but I didn't know. She didn't. She pushed it to the side and it basically rested on my neck and shoulder while she administered the aftercare.
Next, she had me stand, then sit on towel she had laid out on the bed. The coarseness of the towel was immediately felt on the stinging, burning part of my ass i was resting on. She left the room to go into our closet. My cock was soft as i was recovering from my punishment. It was starting to come to life like it always does during aftercare but this was a harsh enough punishment that it was still soft. I was sitting on the side of the bed when she re-emerged in the room and informed me that we were going to continue with our cock therapy now. this time she had me count the number of strokes of her well-lubed, beautiful little hand on my cock. I can hardly last at all when she strokes my cock with her hand, but this time I was able to go well over 35 strokes before I had to tell her to stop. if you remember, our goal was 30 and anything less than 30 would result in that many more swats from the paddle.
Mistress was so proud of me and in turn I was proud of myself. I felt empowered and was rock hard and horny. She was sweet and tender when she told me to turn over so she could fuck my ass. She turned me over, bent over the side of the bed, told me to put my hands behind my back and tied them together. She smeared lube all over my rear hole and pushed a small silicone plug into my ass. At first it didn't have a lot of lube on it so it was burning. I immediately became discouraged that i wasn't going to be in any condition to take her strappy that looked so sexy on her. She did everything right. She didn't let me whine my way out of being fucked like she had intended. She forced me to find a way to deal with it and to give her what she was there to take ... my ass.
She expertly smeared lube all over the cock and my bottom hole and gently but firmly pushed her condom covered cock into my surprisingly eager hole. It was amazingly comfortable, even natural and my bottom accepted the intruder easily. Mistress smeared tons of lube all over my cock, ball and ass and methodically massaged my balls and perineum while slowly working the cock in and out of my ass. I could've gone on like that for Mistress for hours but she abruptly stopped, told me that she has business to attend to and told me to clean up the toys while she got ready to shower.
I had never felt like that before. I was so eager to continue. i was so eager to be taken to places that i had never ben before. To have my boundaries pushed. I was getting lost in the deep abandonment of the whole thing when it was abruptly over. I felt completely used. I loved it!
I think Mistress and I discovered a few of things this morning. A most severe and significant punishment routine is effective and useful. The sub will likely perform so much better when it comes to premature issues following a ruined orgasm, even the next day, and lastly, the subs ass can take Mistresses cock better, faster and easier than ever before.
It was a crazy good morning. I love you Misrtess K.
Let's see how you do today
Thursday morning, Mistress was intent on continuing my cock-therapy. For those of you just joining us, cock-therapy is training that Mistress is putting me through to increase the amount of time I can have direct stimulation to my cock and not have to fight off the urge to cum (stop), when Mistress is wanting a spontaneous, good, hard fucking. Of course it can be accomplished with desensitizers and with the use of the cock sleeve, but that takes planning and therefore isn't spontaneous. Her training plan isn't scientific, but she is interested in seeing how it will work.
Mistress called me into the bedroom and in a methodical, clinical manner, explained that we were going to be continuing cock-therapy today while she was removing her clothes. Watching her do this was getting very excited and aroused and by the time Mistress commanded me to enter her and see how many pumps I could go before I had to stop, I was super horny. The previous day (day 1) is was able to have 7 good, long, slow pumps before having to stop to avoid cumming. Quite disappointing to both of us. It resulted in 23 hard swats from the pink leather paddle.
As was the case on the first day, Mistress wasn't done and decided that she was going to get her orgasm and had me get her vibrator for her and she proceeded to have her orgasm. Beautifully so I might add! She was still a bit mischievous after her orgasm and instructed me to see if i could make myself orgasm by straddling her tummy and humping the air above it, while i looked down on her. Although it is something i aspire to do some day, and have come close to doing in the past, i wasn't able to on this occasion. Without hesitation, Mistress instructed me to re-enter her pussy, give it 2 quick pumps, withdraw and see if it could cause myself to have a ruined orgasm that way. That was all I need. Boy did I ever have a ruined orgasm, futilely pumping my cum from my rock yet neglected cock, directly onto her tummy.
Mistress instructed me to clean her up and then she surprised by having me re-enter her pussy yet another to see how many thrust I could go (after the ruined orgasm) before I had to fend off the urge to cum. This time the number was 60. Mistress looked at me, smiled, got up from the bed to leave the room, kissed me and told me to clean up the mess before getting ready for work.
She had that "I think we may be on to something here" look on her face.
Mistress called me into the bedroom and in a methodical, clinical manner, explained that we were going to be continuing cock-therapy today while she was removing her clothes. Watching her do this was getting very excited and aroused and by the time Mistress commanded me to enter her and see how many pumps I could go before I had to stop, I was super horny. The previous day (day 1) is was able to have 7 good, long, slow pumps before having to stop to avoid cumming. Quite disappointing to both of us. It resulted in 23 hard swats from the pink leather paddle.
As was the case on the first day, Mistress wasn't done and decided that she was going to get her orgasm and had me get her vibrator for her and she proceeded to have her orgasm. Beautifully so I might add! She was still a bit mischievous after her orgasm and instructed me to see if i could make myself orgasm by straddling her tummy and humping the air above it, while i looked down on her. Although it is something i aspire to do some day, and have come close to doing in the past, i wasn't able to on this occasion. Without hesitation, Mistress instructed me to re-enter her pussy, give it 2 quick pumps, withdraw and see if it could cause myself to have a ruined orgasm that way. That was all I need. Boy did I ever have a ruined orgasm, futilely pumping my cum from my rock yet neglected cock, directly onto her tummy.
Mistress instructed me to clean her up and then she surprised by having me re-enter her pussy yet another to see how many thrust I could go (after the ruined orgasm) before I had to fend off the urge to cum. This time the number was 60. Mistress looked at me, smiled, got up from the bed to leave the room, kissed me and told me to clean up the mess before getting ready for work.
She had that "I think we may be on to something here" look on her face.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Stand up
Lately, when I hear Mistress say those little two word-type of commands like "stand up" or "come here", I think I am either in trouble or about to be edged. Last night, Mistress and I were sitting on the couch watching TV. The kids were laying in our bed, watching TV, and were decidedly NOT asleep. I didn't see her, but Mistress looks over and see the glass that was holding my cocktail was not on a coaster.
"Stand up", are the words I hear that tears my attention from the TV. I'd ask why. Now, I just stand. There was a ruler left on the coffee table from when the kids were doing some projects earlier in the day and all of a sudden it was in her hand.
"Turn around" were the next words to come from her mouth, followed by "lower them" referring to my shorts. At this point I thought Mistress was just being playful because we both knew that the kids were NOT asleep. She wasn't playing and repeated "lower them", only this time it was in a tone that left no doubt. I lowered my shorts and she swatted my bare bottom three time, pretty hard. At the moment, she absolutely wanted to go on, but became overly concerned about one of our kids walking in the room. "Up" she said, making a motion with the ruler to raise my shorts. "Sit!" I sat.
She looked at me with obvious frustration that she couldn't continue to paddle me with the ruler. Nothing more was said of it. Although it wasn't too painful, I sat there with three distinct, thin strips of stinging on my ass as we continued watch our show.
"Stand up", are the words I hear that tears my attention from the TV. I'd ask why. Now, I just stand. There was a ruler left on the coffee table from when the kids were doing some projects earlier in the day and all of a sudden it was in her hand.
"Turn around" were the next words to come from her mouth, followed by "lower them" referring to my shorts. At this point I thought Mistress was just being playful because we both knew that the kids were NOT asleep. She wasn't playing and repeated "lower them", only this time it was in a tone that left no doubt. I lowered my shorts and she swatted my bare bottom three time, pretty hard. At the moment, she absolutely wanted to go on, but became overly concerned about one of our kids walking in the room. "Up" she said, making a motion with the ruler to raise my shorts. "Sit!" I sat.
She looked at me with obvious frustration that she couldn't continue to paddle me with the ruler. Nothing more was said of it. Although it wasn't too painful, I sat there with three distinct, thin strips of stinging on my ass as we continued watch our show.
Saturday, August 23, 2014
I didn't mean to cum
Sorry everyone. I've been negligent in posting and replying this week. it's just been one of the weeks in the vanilla part of life. I won't bore you with the details, but suffice it to say it's kept me away from blog land.
On Tuesday morning, right after I wrote my previous post "punished", I got into the shower the minute Mistress returned from taking the kids to school. Before getting in, she let me stand before her, kiss her neck and rub my nakedness up and down on her. I got rock hard in 2.3 seconds! I was kind of in a hurry so I kissed her and rushed into the shower. While I was in the shower, Mistress suddenly appeared. Our shower is big, has three shower-heads and is one of those walk-in showers. It could hold four people at once without a problem. On those occasion when does appear, she will sometimes just watch me shower, or shave my cock, balls and ass, or sometimes she will stand and watch while I bring myself to the edge repeatedly for her viewing enjoyment. other times, like today, she has a handful of lube and like to call me over, stand at attention and stroke my cock, teasing me to the edge and then denying me. This is what she did that morning.
It was awesome. She was stroking my cock, edging me, stopping, then edging me again. While stroking she told me to squat, without letting go of my cock. She never did that before and while lowering myself, my balls became very exposed. She was still stroking my cock and with her free hand, she cupped my balls so tenderly. In a nano-second I was about to cum and told her and she immediately let go .... but it was to late. I was having a ruined orgasm. A small amount of semen dribbled and on to the shower floor.
She looked at me with disappointed then angry eyes. I had just ejaculated without permission. I had just had an orgasm, albeit it a ruined orgasm, without her permission. I was mortified. I didn't know what to do. She then grabbed my cock again, starting stroking it some more and immediately induced two more ruined orgasms.
She stopped, silently stood and said she was not very happy with me for what I had just done. I begged with her to understand that the combination of being stroked by her while squatting low to the floor, and then her soft, beautiful surprisingly cupping my balls was just something I couldn't control. I begged her to understand. She stood there above, me still squatting, semen pooled on the shower floor below my throbbing cock and balls. She told me to stand and although she seemed to have tempered her anger/disappointment some, she did inform that was going to punished for what just happened. She said it didn't matter that she didn't stop quick enough, it was up to me to be sure that I never steal an orgasm, ruined or otherwise from her again, and that allowing myself to ejaculate without her permission would not be tolerated. She told me to clean the mess on the floor and walked off.
After my shower, I shaved and finished getting ready for work. I went to her naked, as I do every morning, to inform her that I was ready to get dressed. She was seated at the computer doing some work and she immediately stood up and led me into the closet. On the way she informed that she was going to administer my spanking right then. Holy shit I thought. Mistress has been especially harsh with spankings lately and I thought I was going to be in for it this coming. I mean after all, stealing an orgasm and ejaculating without permission is a serious offense in our marriage. She had me get on my hands and knees and immediately began to punish me with her pink leather paddle. It hurt on my freshly bathed, naked bottom. I was absolutely certain this as going to be the time Mistress really laid into me with her paddle. She gave several swats and then 5 or really hard ones and then abruptly stopped, walked over to me, told me she was done and had me hug her while kneeling naked and red-assed before her, for aftercare.
Maybe she had sympathy for me because I hardly ever ejaculate while being teased and denied or edged. Maybe she knew is was running late for an appointment (I actually was), or maybe it was something else but Mistress was surprisingly lenient. She handed me a pair of panties that she had selected and told me to get dressed for work. She put her paddle away in her drawer and left the closet. Before I could get dressed, I had to get a hand towel to dry myself off with. It was warm in there. As walked out the door, I apologized profusely for my infractions and thank her for being lenient in my punishment. She just looked at me, then kissed me goodbye.
On Tuesday morning, right after I wrote my previous post "punished", I got into the shower the minute Mistress returned from taking the kids to school. Before getting in, she let me stand before her, kiss her neck and rub my nakedness up and down on her. I got rock hard in 2.3 seconds! I was kind of in a hurry so I kissed her and rushed into the shower. While I was in the shower, Mistress suddenly appeared. Our shower is big, has three shower-heads and is one of those walk-in showers. It could hold four people at once without a problem. On those occasion when does appear, she will sometimes just watch me shower, or shave my cock, balls and ass, or sometimes she will stand and watch while I bring myself to the edge repeatedly for her viewing enjoyment. other times, like today, she has a handful of lube and like to call me over, stand at attention and stroke my cock, teasing me to the edge and then denying me. This is what she did that morning.
It was awesome. She was stroking my cock, edging me, stopping, then edging me again. While stroking she told me to squat, without letting go of my cock. She never did that before and while lowering myself, my balls became very exposed. She was still stroking my cock and with her free hand, she cupped my balls so tenderly. In a nano-second I was about to cum and told her and she immediately let go .... but it was to late. I was having a ruined orgasm. A small amount of semen dribbled and on to the shower floor.
She looked at me with disappointed then angry eyes. I had just ejaculated without permission. I had just had an orgasm, albeit it a ruined orgasm, without her permission. I was mortified. I didn't know what to do. She then grabbed my cock again, starting stroking it some more and immediately induced two more ruined orgasms.
She stopped, silently stood and said she was not very happy with me for what I had just done. I begged with her to understand that the combination of being stroked by her while squatting low to the floor, and then her soft, beautiful surprisingly cupping my balls was just something I couldn't control. I begged her to understand. She stood there above, me still squatting, semen pooled on the shower floor below my throbbing cock and balls. She told me to stand and although she seemed to have tempered her anger/disappointment some, she did inform that was going to punished for what just happened. She said it didn't matter that she didn't stop quick enough, it was up to me to be sure that I never steal an orgasm, ruined or otherwise from her again, and that allowing myself to ejaculate without her permission would not be tolerated. She told me to clean the mess on the floor and walked off.
After my shower, I shaved and finished getting ready for work. I went to her naked, as I do every morning, to inform her that I was ready to get dressed. She was seated at the computer doing some work and she immediately stood up and led me into the closet. On the way she informed that she was going to administer my spanking right then. Holy shit I thought. Mistress has been especially harsh with spankings lately and I thought I was going to be in for it this coming. I mean after all, stealing an orgasm and ejaculating without permission is a serious offense in our marriage. She had me get on my hands and knees and immediately began to punish me with her pink leather paddle. It hurt on my freshly bathed, naked bottom. I was absolutely certain this as going to be the time Mistress really laid into me with her paddle. She gave several swats and then 5 or really hard ones and then abruptly stopped, walked over to me, told me she was done and had me hug her while kneeling naked and red-assed before her, for aftercare.
Maybe she had sympathy for me because I hardly ever ejaculate while being teased and denied or edged. Maybe she knew is was running late for an appointment (I actually was), or maybe it was something else but Mistress was surprisingly lenient. She handed me a pair of panties that she had selected and told me to get dressed for work. She put her paddle away in her drawer and left the closet. Before I could get dressed, I had to get a hand towel to dry myself off with. It was warm in there. As walked out the door, I apologized profusely for my infractions and thank her for being lenient in my punishment. She just looked at me, then kissed me goodbye.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
Punished
Early last evening, before dinner, we had a few moments we knew we would be alone in the house. Mistress looked at me and said "let's go and get this spanking out of the way". She led me into the bedroom and locked the door, then led me into the close where she keeps her paddle. I followed and immediately upon entering the closet, I removed my shorts and underwear. As is the case, that moment right before getting my punishment spanking is cause for much anxiety. Mistress has been more and strict and severe with her spankings recently.
She ordered me to stand against the wall at the far end of the closet and took her position behind me and started right in on spanking me. There was no tenderness. There was no warm up. She told me to massage my balls which had been firmly encased in the splitter cock ring all day and to stroke my cock while I was being spanked. Mistress could tell from my recoiling and my complaining that it was hurting pretty good. Mistress told me to be quiet and that we didn't have much time. In no time my bottom was really stinging and it had Mistress asking me if I was sorry. I told her I was so very sorry and began to plead with her to stop. I begged while she continued to bring the paddle down to meet my red ass. While still spanking and at what turned out to be near the end of my spanking, Mistress would ask if I thought I could take any more. I didn't answer. She asked me again if I thought I could take any more. I still didn't answer. Mistress finally stopped and told to sit up on my knees so she could hold me and I could hold her. This has always been a favorite moment for me because it when is feel super close of Mistress. There is just something so very special being naked with a burning ass and in an intimate embrace with my Mistress while she is telling me how much she loves me. It is a very vulnerable moment that we have together that I truly cherish!
After it was over, Mistress made me look at my very red ass in the mirror. I did and it was very, very red. As we were returning to the living room to wait for our children to return from the neighbors house, I asked Mistress why she asked if I could take any more. She didn't answer. She just grinned at me then kissed me gently. I told that I wasn't trying to be defiant by not answering when she asked, it's just that I was afraid to give the wrong answer. I felt that both a yes or no answer would be disrespectful to her. It was at that very moment when the correct answer occurred to me. I told Mistress that "whether nor not I was capable of taking more hard spankings was not something for me to decide". She just smiled and walked toward the kitchen. While we were still waiting for our kids, I had a very strong urge to reveal to Mistress K. that I felt that I needed to be truly punished more often. She just smiled and said "OK" with a small smirk on her face. Just then the kids came running in the door.
She ordered me to stand against the wall at the far end of the closet and took her position behind me and started right in on spanking me. There was no tenderness. There was no warm up. She told me to massage my balls which had been firmly encased in the splitter cock ring all day and to stroke my cock while I was being spanked. Mistress could tell from my recoiling and my complaining that it was hurting pretty good. Mistress told me to be quiet and that we didn't have much time. In no time my bottom was really stinging and it had Mistress asking me if I was sorry. I told her I was so very sorry and began to plead with her to stop. I begged while she continued to bring the paddle down to meet my red ass. While still spanking and at what turned out to be near the end of my spanking, Mistress would ask if I thought I could take any more. I didn't answer. She asked me again if I thought I could take any more. I still didn't answer. Mistress finally stopped and told to sit up on my knees so she could hold me and I could hold her. This has always been a favorite moment for me because it when is feel super close of Mistress. There is just something so very special being naked with a burning ass and in an intimate embrace with my Mistress while she is telling me how much she loves me. It is a very vulnerable moment that we have together that I truly cherish!
After it was over, Mistress made me look at my very red ass in the mirror. I did and it was very, very red. As we were returning to the living room to wait for our children to return from the neighbors house, I asked Mistress why she asked if I could take any more. She didn't answer. She just grinned at me then kissed me gently. I told that I wasn't trying to be defiant by not answering when she asked, it's just that I was afraid to give the wrong answer. I felt that both a yes or no answer would be disrespectful to her. It was at that very moment when the correct answer occurred to me. I told Mistress that "whether nor not I was capable of taking more hard spankings was not something for me to decide". She just smiled and walked toward the kitchen. While we were still waiting for our kids, I had a very strong urge to reveal to Mistress K. that I felt that I needed to be truly punished more often. She just smiled and said "OK" with a small smirk on her face. Just then the kids came running in the door.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
i didn't forget this morning
Yesterday morning (Monday), as she usually does, Mistress took our children to school. I was working at the computer and was mostly engrossed in what i was doing when each of them came over to kiss me goodbye for the day. I cherish that moment i have with each of my children when saying goodbye, even if it is for a only a few hours. I stopped what i was doing so i could give each of them my full attention when saying the i love you's and goodbyes before they left for their day. After they left, i returned to my work and found myself fully engrossed in short order. So much so in fact that when Mistress returned home, she realized immediately that i had failed to perform one of the basic functions of our FLM, which requires me to be naked in her presence when we are alone, unless otherwise instructed by her. She walked briskly past the chair i was sitting in and without stopping or looking at me said "follow me" and then disappeared into the bedroom. That got my attention. I thought i was either going to get to have sex with her, or she was going to edge me, or other tease and deny me, or something really cool like that. It took me several seconds to finish what i was doing enough to leave my workstation and met her in the bedroom and when i walked in, there she was, pink paddle in hand, pointing to the arm of the stuffed chair indicating that i had better lay over it and offer my ass for a punishment.
I actually did not know why she was about to punish me. I thought we had "settled up" on all scores. Her response to my not knowing why i was about to be punished "wrong answer. Want to try that again?" Still i didn't know what i was about to be punished for. She told me to get out of my clothes and get over the arm of the chair and that moment it occurred to me why. I failed to be naked in her presence. One of the most basic rules in our FLM. I was genuinely sorry that i wasn't naked when she came into the house. Her only logical response was "well obviously it was important enough for you to remember. I'm going to help you remember". She helped me remember and reddened my ass! This morning, exact same scenario, only this time, i was eager to so show her my nakedness the second she walked in the door.
I had an 8:30 to be at and told her so. She had me come to her in the kitchen and kneel before her. She proceeded to tell me that today i would be wearing my butt plug. In addition, i was to begin to beg here right there and then to think about me during the day. Then i was instructed to tell in what ways i had hoped she would think about me during the day. I hoped she would think about me masturbating for her ... me performing sex acts on her that would culminate in wonderful orgasms for her ... me performing sex acts on myself for her viewing amusement ... her using her strap-on on me and otherwise using me like a nasty little slut. (notice how i didn't ask her to think about ways to punish me) After telling her those things, she instructed me to stand and before sending me to take a shower, she said that touching my penis in any fashion other than to clean it in the shower or to urinate was prohibited today. I mentioned to her that i had always thought that was the rule anyway and she simply said "shut-up, don't talk back to me and come over here and kiss me on the neck". I did all of those things and while kissing her on the neck, pressed my rock hard cock against her yoga pants-covered ass and she scolded me for already not understanding the "no touching of the penis rule".
I went into the shower, clean my entire body (was very carefully to minimally touch my cock while washing it), inserted my pink, glass butt plug. Got dressed, kissed Mistress goodbye and left for the office.
How did your day start??
I actually did not know why she was about to punish me. I thought we had "settled up" on all scores. Her response to my not knowing why i was about to be punished "wrong answer. Want to try that again?" Still i didn't know what i was about to be punished for. She told me to get out of my clothes and get over the arm of the chair and that moment it occurred to me why. I failed to be naked in her presence. One of the most basic rules in our FLM. I was genuinely sorry that i wasn't naked when she came into the house. Her only logical response was "well obviously it was important enough for you to remember. I'm going to help you remember". She helped me remember and reddened my ass! This morning, exact same scenario, only this time, i was eager to so show her my nakedness the second she walked in the door.
I had an 8:30 to be at and told her so. She had me come to her in the kitchen and kneel before her. She proceeded to tell me that today i would be wearing my butt plug. In addition, i was to begin to beg here right there and then to think about me during the day. Then i was instructed to tell in what ways i had hoped she would think about me during the day. I hoped she would think about me masturbating for her ... me performing sex acts on her that would culminate in wonderful orgasms for her ... me performing sex acts on myself for her viewing amusement ... her using her strap-on on me and otherwise using me like a nasty little slut. (notice how i didn't ask her to think about ways to punish me) After telling her those things, she instructed me to stand and before sending me to take a shower, she said that touching my penis in any fashion other than to clean it in the shower or to urinate was prohibited today. I mentioned to her that i had always thought that was the rule anyway and she simply said "shut-up, don't talk back to me and come over here and kiss me on the neck". I did all of those things and while kissing her on the neck, pressed my rock hard cock against her yoga pants-covered ass and she scolded me for already not understanding the "no touching of the penis rule".
I went into the shower, clean my entire body (was very carefully to minimally touch my cock while washing it), inserted my pink, glass butt plug. Got dressed, kissed Mistress goodbye and left for the office.
How did your day start??
Friday, August 8, 2014
Ouch
There were 2 postponed punishments that were to come my way during that past week. Real life had prevented Mistress from punishing me for a variety of reasons. I knew that I was due the punishments, but frankly had allowed the knowledge to slip back into the middle of my mind rather that at the top of it.
This morning was a lovely morning. I was working on the computer like I do most mornings. Mistress had taken the kids to school, like she does most morning and while she was gone I got into the shower. It was a wonderful shower. I put a nice fresh smooth shave on my cock and balls for Mistress. After I was all done preening, I was naked and walked into the kitchen to fix a little breakfast before work. Mistress was back from taking the kids to school. We exchanged some delightful small talk when Mistress said ........... "Let's go take care of at least one of those punishments that you have coming." A giant lump appeared in my throat as I watched walk toward our bedroom.
I followed dutifully and walked right to the drawer in our closet where she keeps her paddle. I returned to our bedroom to find that she had prepared the padded arm of an easy as the place where I was to be punished. I dutifully laid my naked body across it and Mistress proceeded to administer my punishment.
Holy shit! It hurt today. A lot!!! Mistress was clearly uninterested in my begging for her to stop and continued to paddle my naked bottom over and over. It hurt!. I begged her to think that she had paddled me enough but for a few minutes, that was met with silence. Finally, she said "tell me your sorry". I said I was sorry and began to plead with her some more. She did stop then but did shortly thereafter. Did i mention that it hurt?
Then she walked to the middle of the room and called me over, told me to kneel at which point i wrapped my arms around her while she was standing. She asked me to tell her that I loved her, which of course i did, with emphasis, and held her tighter. She told me to stand up, handed me the paddle to put away and told me to get dressed for work. My previously rock-hard cock was soft, my ass was on fire and i had a thin layer of sweat over my entire body.
Um, yeah ...............
As I always do, i informed her that i was about to get dressed and she told me to wear my naughty-girl panties today because i was naughty.
I went to get dressed. I slipped those naughty-girl thong panties up my legs and over my still-stinging bottom. Right then i knew that the spanking i had just received was harder than normal. I finished getting dressed, my erection had returned in full forced and on my way to leave i went over to Mistress and hugged her from behind. I told her i was wearing my naughty panties because i was naughty. I don't know why, but I chose that moment to tell her that my slut hole was always available to her. She looked at me and paused for a moment, and then said simply said "of course it is".
I thanked her for my spanking and kissed her on the neck and left for the office with a completely full tank of energy. i love you Mistress.
This morning was a lovely morning. I was working on the computer like I do most mornings. Mistress had taken the kids to school, like she does most morning and while she was gone I got into the shower. It was a wonderful shower. I put a nice fresh smooth shave on my cock and balls for Mistress. After I was all done preening, I was naked and walked into the kitchen to fix a little breakfast before work. Mistress was back from taking the kids to school. We exchanged some delightful small talk when Mistress said ........... "Let's go take care of at least one of those punishments that you have coming." A giant lump appeared in my throat as I watched walk toward our bedroom.
I followed dutifully and walked right to the drawer in our closet where she keeps her paddle. I returned to our bedroom to find that she had prepared the padded arm of an easy as the place where I was to be punished. I dutifully laid my naked body across it and Mistress proceeded to administer my punishment.
Holy shit! It hurt today. A lot!!! Mistress was clearly uninterested in my begging for her to stop and continued to paddle my naked bottom over and over. It hurt!. I begged her to think that she had paddled me enough but for a few minutes, that was met with silence. Finally, she said "tell me your sorry". I said I was sorry and began to plead with her some more. She did stop then but did shortly thereafter. Did i mention that it hurt?
Then she walked to the middle of the room and called me over, told me to kneel at which point i wrapped my arms around her while she was standing. She asked me to tell her that I loved her, which of course i did, with emphasis, and held her tighter. She told me to stand up, handed me the paddle to put away and told me to get dressed for work. My previously rock-hard cock was soft, my ass was on fire and i had a thin layer of sweat over my entire body.
Um, yeah ...............
As I always do, i informed her that i was about to get dressed and she told me to wear my naughty-girl panties today because i was naughty.
I went to get dressed. I slipped those naughty-girl thong panties up my legs and over my still-stinging bottom. Right then i knew that the spanking i had just received was harder than normal. I finished getting dressed, my erection had returned in full forced and on my way to leave i went over to Mistress and hugged her from behind. I told her i was wearing my naughty panties because i was naughty. I don't know why, but I chose that moment to tell her that my slut hole was always available to her. She looked at me and paused for a moment, and then said simply said "of course it is".
I thanked her for my spanking and kissed her on the neck and left for the office with a completely full tank of energy. i love you Mistress.
Friday, July 18, 2014
There (pointing to the floor)
I just returned from dropping off the kids at the daily activity while we are on vacation. It means that we have the house to ourselves for about an hour. Eagerly i pulled up in front of the small cabin we are renting in the mountains, threw it in park and rushed inside. Once the door closed behinf me, i kicked off my shoes and slid my gym shorts to the floor whille pulling my tshirt up over my head. I knew to become naked the second i was in the house.
I found Mistress in the bathrooom, freshly showered and applying her makeup for the day so she was slightly leaning over the coubter. She was naked except for a pair of super sexy lace, thong panties. i wen't up bhind here, pressed my now hardening cock against her ass and tried to be playful with her. She said, we don't have much time before we have to go so ......... i interupted and said "well then can I cum inside you then?" "No you may not, but thank you for asking", was her reply. Will you edge me? will you ruin me? Can I masturbate to the edge??? Please , anything ............ "No, we barely have enough time for you to receive your spankings that are coming to you. My eyes widened. i wasn't expecting that at all. "THERE" She pointed to the floor at the foot of her sink in the bathroom. "Get on all fours there". As i got down on all fours, she went to the sink, ran some water and rubbed all over my ass. She obviously felt like we truly didn't have enough time and wanted the full benefit of a spanking to be realized sooner rather than later. She started spanking my wetted ass with her wet hand. In just a few minutes she told me to stand and get dresses. "Before you go, you may look at your ass in the mirror" Even though the spanking wasn't painful hardly, my ass was as red as it ever was after a spanking. After looking at my red ass in the mirror and the image of Her in her panties right next to me in the mirror, i couldn't help but ask if i could cum right then.
Go get dressed was all she said.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
It's done
It's done, now W/we can move on.
This is a picture of the actual paddle Mistress uses on me.
The spanking has happened and once again i feel the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The burden of regret for having disappointed Mistress is removed, and the anxiety of wondering if it will be one of those tolerable spankings, or one of those god awful painful ones. Since the spanking was delayed, i had more to time to sit and squirm in anticipation. One's mind will play tricks on itself, given the opportunity. Frankly, it had been some time since i had a punishment spanking and because they serve to "clear the deck" so to speak, the deck was quite cluttered. As such, iI began to worry that it was going to be a severe punishment. i even woke up in the middle of the night in a sweat because i became convinced that Mistress was going to have me masturbate to orgasm immediately before administering a harsh spanking. i don't know why i thought that, but the mere idea was upsetting. If you don't already know .......... THAT IS THE WORST!
i love Mistress Wife so very much and there are hardly any moments where i feel more emotionally vulnerable, emotionally close to her than when i am hugging and snuggling with her during aftercare.
Life is good!
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This is a picture of the actual paddle Mistress uses on me.
The spanking has happened and once again i feel the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The burden of regret for having disappointed Mistress is removed, and the anxiety of wondering if it will be one of those tolerable spankings, or one of those god awful painful ones. Since the spanking was delayed, i had more to time to sit and squirm in anticipation. One's mind will play tricks on itself, given the opportunity. Frankly, it had been some time since i had a punishment spanking and because they serve to "clear the deck" so to speak, the deck was quite cluttered. As such, iI began to worry that it was going to be a severe punishment. i even woke up in the middle of the night in a sweat because i became convinced that Mistress was going to have me masturbate to orgasm immediately before administering a harsh spanking. i don't know why i thought that, but the mere idea was upsetting. If you don't already know .......... THAT IS THE WORST!
i love Mistress Wife so very much and there are hardly any moments where i feel more emotionally vulnerable, emotionally close to her than when i am hugging and snuggling with her during aftercare.
Life is good!
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
* Another UPDATE * Spanked Today
At 8am precisely, I was standing beside Mistress's bed, leather paddle in hand. i leaned to kiss Mistress awake and She was groggy and obviously was being roused from a deep slumber. i told her that it was 8 am and that i was present and ready to receive my punishment. She said ............... "I am so tired .... we will have to reschedule". my shoulders slumped and i let out an audible sigh that caught Her attention. She said "I'm sorry baby, i am just so tired. "Go put your butt plug in and go to work". All i could do was say "yes Mistress" and walk back into the closet to put away her paddle and to retrieve the glass plug". Why did She so effortlessly and without regard to how it made feel ... decide to postpone? Because She can!!! No other reason is needed.
i lubed a finger and inserted into my bottom to loosen it a bit before putting the plug in. It is not a large plug but larger that the one it replaced. After loosing myself with my finger for a minute or so, i pressed the plug against my bottom hole and slowly pushed it inside me. Since it was the initial attempt at entry, there was a small amount of resistance but nothing at all like i was used to. On the second attempt, it slide inside me comfortably as if it was meant to be there, and plopped into place. Now, off to the shower i go.
i am conflicted on how i feel. It is 8:15 as i write this and i am grateful for having bruises and deep redness on ass right now. On the other hand, i know that it has only been delayed and not forgiven and i get to relive the worry leading up to my punishment one more time. As an added bonus, i have my ass filled with a butt plug that my Mistress told me to wear. i believe it will be a good day.
i lubed a finger and inserted into my bottom to loosen it a bit before putting the plug in. It is not a large plug but larger that the one it replaced. After loosing myself with my finger for a minute or so, i pressed the plug against my bottom hole and slowly pushed it inside me. Since it was the initial attempt at entry, there was a small amount of resistance but nothing at all like i was used to. On the second attempt, it slide inside me comfortably as if it was meant to be there, and plopped into place. Now, off to the shower i go.
i am conflicted on how i feel. It is 8:15 as i write this and i am grateful for having bruises and deep redness on ass right now. On the other hand, i know that it has only been delayed and not forgiven and i get to relive the worry leading up to my punishment one more time. As an added bonus, i have my ass filled with a butt plug that my Mistress told me to wear. i believe it will be a good day.
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
*UPDATE* Spanked Today
It won't be today. Today is just not possible for a variety of real life reason.
i texted Mistress earlier today and asked if we could schedule the corrective punishment for 8 am local time, Wednesday morning. i did this because at 9:54, the 48 hours since Mistress declared a punishment was to take place will expire. If it were to expire, it would mean another, more significant punishment. She agreed and now i will be punished shortly after i wake in the morning.
Wish me luck.
i texted Mistress earlier today and asked if we could schedule the corrective punishment for 8 am local time, Wednesday morning. i did this because at 9:54, the 48 hours since Mistress declared a punishment was to take place will expire. If it were to expire, it would mean another, more significant punishment. She agreed and now i will be punished shortly after i wake in the morning.
Wish me luck.
Spanked today
As many of you may already know, if i have done something that Mistress decides is an infraction, a 48 hour clock begins ticking the minute She says "48 hours". That very thing happened yesterday (Monday) morning at 9:54 am when i left the house with dirty dishes in the sink.
In a previous post i talked about the myriad of feelings that go through my head when i am in this very situation of being made aware that i had an infraction and that the 48 hour clock began ticking. The primary and sometime overwhelming feeling is of regret for having disappointed Mistress K. i truly feel bad when i know that she has feels i have a punishable offense. Another strong feeling is one of apprehension because i know it will hurt. i have also talked in previous posts about wishing how Mistress K would test my limits further when administering a spanking to me and although i am certain that more intensity is necessary in my training and in order to correct my behavior, i know it will hurt even more than before.
One of my followers MRBILL made a comment to yesterday's post and included a mention that he craved being dominated by his Mistress and wished she would spank him more (regularly). Like most submissive husbands, i share that sentiment because i feel that without regular spankings, i will always be in a cycle of behaving in a way that will make Mistress proud (right after a spanking) to slowly behaving in a way that will increasingly disappoint Mistress.
Lastly, when i am in the process of being spanked and if Mistress hasn't made me orgasm and ejaculate immediately beforehand (she'll do this only when there has been a serious infraction), my cock is rock hard even when the sting of the paddle is at it's very worst. i used to wonder why that was because even though the whole idea of being naked before my Mistress for the purpose of being corrected by spanking is of course very erotic, but it's still intended to hurt and when it is a punishment spanking there is never the prospect of sex to follow. Then i figured it out ... throughout my relationship with Mistress, starting when She was my girlfriend, then as my Wife, then as my Wife Mistress, i would get "love boners". a love boner is a hard-on that i would while thinking about how much i love my Wife. How much i ache for Her when i am not with Her and how beautiful She is. When i get a love boner, it has nothing to do with sex and has only to do with the emotional joy i am feeling by the love that i have for Her. Love boner is the explanation for my erection when i am receiving corrective pain or punishment from Mistress.
This is in my near future
In a previous post i talked about the myriad of feelings that go through my head when i am in this very situation of being made aware that i had an infraction and that the 48 hour clock began ticking. The primary and sometime overwhelming feeling is of regret for having disappointed Mistress K. i truly feel bad when i know that she has feels i have a punishable offense. Another strong feeling is one of apprehension because i know it will hurt. i have also talked in previous posts about wishing how Mistress K would test my limits further when administering a spanking to me and although i am certain that more intensity is necessary in my training and in order to correct my behavior, i know it will hurt even more than before.
One of my followers MRBILL made a comment to yesterday's post and included a mention that he craved being dominated by his Mistress and wished she would spank him more (regularly). Like most submissive husbands, i share that sentiment because i feel that without regular spankings, i will always be in a cycle of behaving in a way that will make Mistress proud (right after a spanking) to slowly behaving in a way that will increasingly disappoint Mistress.
Lastly, when i am in the process of being spanked and if Mistress hasn't made me orgasm and ejaculate immediately beforehand (she'll do this only when there has been a serious infraction), my cock is rock hard even when the sting of the paddle is at it's very worst. i used to wonder why that was because even though the whole idea of being naked before my Mistress for the purpose of being corrected by spanking is of course very erotic, but it's still intended to hurt and when it is a punishment spanking there is never the prospect of sex to follow. Then i figured it out ... throughout my relationship with Mistress, starting when She was my girlfriend, then as my Wife, then as my Wife Mistress, i would get "love boners". a love boner is a hard-on that i would while thinking about how much i love my Wife. How much i ache for Her when i am not with Her and how beautiful She is. When i get a love boner, it has nothing to do with sex and has only to do with the emotional joy i am feeling by the love that i have for Her. Love boner is the explanation for my erection when i am receiving corrective pain or punishment from Mistress.
This is in my near future
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Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Wear the cage
i have to wear the cage today because Mistress caught me smoking. i feel terrible and regret has set in. Not because i got caught, and not because my punishment will now include at least having to wear this blasted thing, but because i let Mistress down. :-(
It's been a while since i wore this thing under my clothes to work.
i am sorry Mistress!
It's been a while since i wore this thing under my clothes to work.
i am sorry Mistress!
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Long Distance Instructions
Via long distance instructions (texting), i informed Mistress this morning of my intentions to get dressed for the day. Yesterday, on Her way out of town and right after She paddled my bottom kinda red, She instructed me to wear panties to the office. As it turned out, i didn't go into the office because W/we had workmen there all day. Because i never got dressed for work, i never put the panties on. Not because i didn't want to follow instructions. i get genuine pleasure out of following Mistress's instructions, but rather because i was busy with workmen and distracted all day and it simply dropped out of my mind. Nothing too sexy for me to be around and dealing with sweaty workmen all. Although, i'm certain that Mistress would've gotten a kick out having me in panties while i was dealing with these workmen.
Well, after receiving a reply to my text this morning, and while Mistress was contemplating my instructions for this day, i informed Her that i inadvertently failed to follow her instructions yesterday. She replied and said that i was to wear my balls-separator harness and the panties was to wear yesterday. She made a passing comment that i "should've worn the panties yesterday", but did not elaborate. Although She didn't say, i suspect i am in line to be punished for that. Something else that i wish i had read in a text but never came was the direction/authorization for free self-play (no cumming though). Poor me!
Well, after receiving a reply to my text this morning, and while Mistress was contemplating my instructions for this day, i informed Her that i inadvertently failed to follow her instructions yesterday. She replied and said that i was to wear my balls-separator harness and the panties was to wear yesterday. She made a passing comment that i "should've worn the panties yesterday", but did not elaborate. Although She didn't say, i suspect i am in line to be punished for that. Something else that i wish i had read in a text but never came was the direction/authorization for free self-play (no cumming though). Poor me!
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Before she left
Before Mistress left on her little roadie with the kids, Mistress tended to some unfinished business. Earlier in the morning She had me put on a small towel-like wrap around my waist and had me accompany Her to let the dogs out. When W/we came back into the house, She pulled me into our large closet so that She could administer what She called a "mini punishment" for failing to have Her coffee ready for Her yesterday when She woke up. She had me put my hands on the island in the closet and had my pull up my towel "skirt" up around my waist. While She was administering my spanking, she was stroking my cock and edging me. Each time i told Her i was about to come, She came down kind of hard on my ass. She did that several times before finishing, i suppose so that i would associate the urge to come with a sting on my ass. Then She put the paddle away, had me stand, pulled facing Her and pushed my shoulders down indicating i was to kneel before Her so She could administer aftercare. Aftercare is a really special moment for me.
After the tender aftercare, i asked Mistress if i was allowed to be my own ass whore while She was away, like the last time i was home alone. She said that i probably shouldn't have asked, but that She would consider it. I also asked Her if i could cum before She left. She said no. Then i asked if i could have a ruined orgasm, and She said no. When pulling out of the driveway, She instructed me to wear panties today under my clothes.
i am really going to miss Her!
After the tender aftercare, i asked Mistress if i was allowed to be my own ass whore while She was away, like the last time i was home alone. She said that i probably shouldn't have asked, but that She would consider it. I also asked Her if i could cum before She left. She said no. Then i asked if i could have a ruined orgasm, and She said no. When pulling out of the driveway, She instructed me to wear panties today under my clothes.
i am really going to miss Her!
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