Are we there already?

Are we at that inevitable point in our relationship, where Mistress's pleasure naturally would/should include another man's cock?  Maybe one that isn't prone to erupt in seconds because it has been constantly teased and denied, for weeks on end, like mine can be?  Is it that time in our relationship already?  Is it inevitable?  Am I prepared?

Each of us has our own little worlds that we live in.  We want those worlds to be safe, warm and full of love.  My love for Mistress K. is undeniable and as deep as anything I know and feel.  I want to bring her pleasure in life.  I want for her to have access to and the ability to enjoy, as much pleasure in life as possible.  Not just sexual pleasures, but every pleasure that is available to her.  I trust Mistress K. to be a very good arbiter of common sense when it comes to determining which pleasures she can safely indulge in, and which ones she can't.  For example, there is pleasure in cake and pie.  Mistress K., I suppose, could decide that because eating cake and pie is indeed a pleasure, and because she is in charge of determining what pleasures she can indulge in, she can eat cake and pie as much as she wants without ramifications.  Right?  Of course not, and she, like any rational person, knows that. 

What about sex?  Ah, now that's a different story, right?  I mean after all, Mistress K. is among a select group of people in this world.  Like relatively few others, she is someone that lovingly owns the heart, mind and body of someone else, which of course means that she could have any kind of sex, anytime she wants, any way she wants, simply because she wants to.  She decides the if, the when, the how of sex.  She also is the one that decides the who.  How great is that? 

Like any other group of people, those of us the FLR/FLM world are sometimes subject to what is claimed to be "normal".  Newbies starting out are worried about whether or not they are "doing it right".  Experienced couples ask and are asked questions all the time, about "is it normal for us to do this, or normal to do that ....?"  Personally, I've never been a fan of worrying about where any of us actually do or should "fit in".  I get a bit weary at the natural inclination of people (me included) to constantly try to define everything into narrow definitions.  There are even those that will give unsolicited opinions of how you/we are doing it right or doing it wrong.  I have a commenter who is an anonymous "Mistress".  She will occasionally comment or email me to let me know that until Mistress K. requires me to consume my own cum, we really don't have a legitimate FLM because, well, you know, it's what everyone does in an FLM.  Although she's adamant about, she's pleasant enough and even humorous about it that I really can't take offence to it.  Besides, even if I did, unless a commenter is blatantly, obviously and needlessly offensive, I'll always leave their comments in place.  Thankfully, Mistress K. and I don't feel the need to allow anyone outside of our deep love for each other, to define the parameters that love.

Even though some things are never "always required" to define the kind of relationship Mistress K. and I have, there are undeniable commonalities to a D/s relationship.  Especially a Female Led D/s relationship.  Of course, one of those "not uncommon" things is for the Dominant Female to take on a male lover .....  be it a full-on cuckold relationship, with humiliation, forced bi and other things that serve to degrade and humiliate the submissive male;    or Her taking a random, nameless, faceless male, human sex toy, it's obviously not an uncommon thing in a FLM/FLR. 

That being said, there are many, many monogamous FLM's, and my marriage is one of them.  Neither Mistress K. nor I have previously expressed a desire in the past for a separate male lover to sexually service Mistress K.  We are both very, very protective of the core elements of our love, and would never do anything to risk that.  It's a key reason why we never actually did engage I a threesome with other women when we had the chances in the past.  Safeguarding our love. 

One of the effects on me that has evolved from our FLM is that is I get an ENORMOUS amount of joy and pleasure from seeing Mistress K. having intense sexual pleasure and orgasm.  It is a genuine thrill for me.  It really is.  I've even been able to have a ruined orgasm by simply watching my beloved wife having a orgasm.  I am also so grateful that Mistress allows me to see her have her orgasms.  I know that isn't always the case for many submissive husbands.  Witnessing her having an orgasm will usually put me into immediate and deep subspace.  Our evolution has brought me to now get as much sexual pleasure from her orgasms, as I could get from having one on my own.  It is just that much of a joy to be a part of and to witness my beloved Wife having such pleasure. 

One of the realities of a FLM, is daily teasing/edging, followed by orgasm denial. For many couples, it's a key component in their recipe for happiness.  I know it is in mine.  As such, the male is in a nearl constant state of arousal, which means that he often a hair trigger penis, and can usually come in a matter of seconds when his penis is pressed into service (pun intended).  I'm sure there are some men out there than can do it, ..... that can go from a teased/denied, constant state of edge-of-orgasm arousal, to a porn-star like man that can fuck as long as she wants, and cum on command.  For the rest of us mortal humans, that kind of thing is usually not possible. 

There are times when suddenly Mistress feels the desire to be fucked, good, hard and for as long as she wants. When the times comes, and because of my constant state of arousal, it usually requires some numbing cream, a cock sleeve and waiting time for the cream to numb the cock. Should she have to be concerned about her sub cumming without permission, or worse, having to stop altogether to avoid ejaculation? This doesn't seem fair for any Mistress not to have a hard cock available to fuck her like she wants.

Last night I was having many random, crazy dreams.  In one of them, Mistress K. was getting fucked by another man, she was loving every second of it.  Not only that, I was there, naked, sitting behind her, holding her legs apart.  Not only that, I helped this strange man him fuck my wife by grabbing and holding his cock, and guiding it into her pussy, then watched as he brought intense pleasure from being fucked long and hard.  (In my dream, he didn't have a big, giant cock like that depicted in the picture below, but there are only so many pictures of husbands holding their wife's legs apart so she can fucked, and except for the giant cock, it's pretty much how I remember the scene in my slumbering head. * smile)

Not only that, when recalling that portion of the dream, I got a huge erection, and then I got another huge erection telling Mistress K. about it.  Wait, what?  Did I just say that?  This is something new.

How could this be?  The last time I had a sex dream that included any other man, it caused me to wake up in a panic.  It was one of those .... "oh good, it was only a dream, but I still need some reassurance from you right now" kind of dreams.  And in this particular dream, all she did was barely handle a guy's cock that happened to be lying next to us in bed, for some reason. 

With these things in mind and being a bit jealous by nature, how could I go from near panic about a dream where Mistress K. briefly touches another man's cock, to waking up as hard as a rock and very  aroused because another man fucked her?  How could this be?  I'd say the biggest difference between the two "mind-fuck" dreams, was that the man in my latest dream was merely a faceless, nameless human sex toy.  There was no intimacy between him and my Mistress.  No kissing, no typical cuckold fodder about how I was a useless man when it came to sex.  There was none of that.  He wasn't there to steal her, or replace me in her life in any way.  Mistress seemed very intent on making sure I knew that, during the dream.  In fact, there was a great deal of gratitude and intimacy that was directed solely at me while she was being well fucked by this other man. 

Are we there already?  Are we at that milepost on our journey?  Are we growing up?  Are we growing into our journey?  Oh boy ..........  What's next?

Would you?

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Would you be willing to permanently mark yourself as an outward gesture of your submission and devotion to your Mistress/Master?  Absolutely!!!  I would do it in a place that would be discrete and only be seen when undressed.

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Would you get branded?  Not no ... HELL no.  Ouchy.

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I'd even do this if Mistress wanted me to.  By "this" I mean the tattoo.  Still not a fan of chastity cages which is why I am a very, very, very good boy when it comes to following the rule about not touching myself without permission and supervision.  But I digress ...........

I've wanted to blog about it for some time because I occasionally have come across pictures like these and have wondered how prevalent it is.  In a D/s situation that includes marriage, I can totally see how and why a Domme/Dom would ask and a sub would agree to be marked permanently, because there was a commitment of "till death do you part".

What say you?

Mistress Ivey's Post - Becoming a Mistress: For Him or For You?

Hi everyone.  Every so often I come across a collection of words that I find insightful, helpful or funny.  This link is to a post by Mistress Ivey that I think is essential reading for anyone involved in any Female Led Relationship. It's very possible that you are already familiar with Mistress Ivey's blog, but in case you aren't, take a look.

I really enjoy her blog mostly because it is a helpful resource for women who have had the suggestion of being dominant with their mate thrust upon them by their mate, who usually has spent a lot of time fantasizing and then building up the courage to reveal his feelings to his wife. It's practicable and useful information and not swimming in hyperbole or cheesy porno-like settings.  In addition to this particular post, I suggest you look at her other posts.  I think you'll like it.

Enjoy................

Becoming a Mistress: For Him or For You?

UPDATED 12/22/14 at 8:05am   -   Additional post from Mistress Ivey:

Becoming a Mistress: Anything???

Sub Space

There are logical times when a submissive "marinates" in subspace.  Then there are times when it isn't so obvious.  This morning was one such time.

I was standing in the shower, having just completed putting a fresh smoothness on my cock, ball and ass with a razor and shaving cream.  I always feel genuinely more sexual, more horny, even slutty at this very moment.  I found myself growing unusually excited about being able to present myself naked to Mistress K. in order to inform her i was about to get dressed.  I do this everyday, so no big deal right? But today I couldn't wait. 

I didn't exactly know why I was unusually eager this morning .... and then it hit me.  I, having been freshly shaved smooth (including my face) and being naked before her awaiting her attire instructions, I was found myself deep in subspace.  At that moment and since i have felt so incredibly grateful that this beautiful woman would not only accept me as her husband, but also accept my submission and the ownership of my sex.

I love you Mistress K.

Questions for you. Kindly reply with an answer

In a previous post (the one right before this one), I posted a few pictures of sub men being pegged in various positions.  I used these particular pictures because I felt that each of them had their own apects that made them unique, yet similar, and all of them erotic and not "pornish" so much.  You may disagree about the lack of "pornish" qualities.  Each of them was an image that depicted the some of the following:

• loving pegging between a male sub and his Domme
• genuine arousal and desire from the sub male at being taken this way by his Mistress
• a romantic, sensuous quality that seemed less "pornish" and more of a realistic portrayal of the desire and joy a sub male feels when being penetrated by his Mistress, unless of course the sub is being pegged harshly as a punishment.
• a variety of positions that promoted sensuality and total, unquestioned, loving domination and genuine submissive desire

Then I posted a question (although I see now that I failed to include a question mark) that asked subs what their favorite position was when being taken anally by their Mistress.  One of my favorite followers/commenters (Anonymous Mistress A.) left a comment expressing her disappointment and not being asked what favorite position(s) she (and other Dommes) prefer to place their subs in when taking them with a strap on.  And she makes a very good point.

Apologies to Anonymous Mistress A. and to all the other Dommes that follow/read/comment on this blog for considering that you too may wish to weigh in.  So, here goes .....If you are a dominant, what is your favorite position to place your sub in when taking them anally?  and .....If you are a submissive male, what is your favorite position to be in when you are taken anally.

I eagerly await your input.  Thank you

It's done

It's done, now W/we can move on.

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This is a picture of the actual paddle Mistress uses on me.

The spanking has happened and once again i feel the weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  The burden of regret for having disappointed Mistress is removed, and the anxiety of wondering if it will be one of those tolerable spankings, or one of those god awful painful ones.  Since the spanking was delayed, i had more to time to sit and squirm in anticipation.  One's mind will play tricks on itself, given the opportunity.  Frankly, it had been some time since i had a punishment spanking and because they serve to "clear the deck" so to speak, the deck was quite cluttered.  As such, iI began to worry that it was going to be a severe punishment.  i even woke up in the middle of the night in a sweat because i became convinced that Mistress was going to have me masturbate to orgasm immediately before administering a harsh spanking. i don't know why i thought that, but the mere idea was upsetting. If you don't already know ..........  THAT IS THE WORST!

i love Mistress Wife so very much and there are hardly any moments where i feel more emotionally vulnerable, emotionally close to her than when i am hugging and snuggling with her during aftercare.

Life is good!

Spanked today

As many of you may already know, if i have done something that Mistress decides is an infraction, a 48 hour clock begins ticking the minute She says "48 hours".  That very thing happened yesterday (Monday) morning at 9:54 am when i left the house with dirty dishes in the sink.

In a previous post i talked about the myriad of feelings that go through my head when i am in this very situation of being made aware that i had an infraction and that the 48 hour clock began ticking.  The primary and sometime overwhelming feeling is of regret for having disappointed Mistress K.  i truly feel bad when i know that she has feels i have a punishable offense.  Another strong feeling is one of apprehension because i know it will hurt.  i have also talked in previous posts about wishing how Mistress K would test my limits further when administering a spanking to me and although i am certain that more intensity is necessary in my training and in order to correct my behavior, i know it will hurt even more than before. 

One of my followers MRBILL made a comment to yesterday's post and included a mention that he craved being dominated by his Mistress and wished she would spank him more (regularly).  Like most submissive husbands, i share that sentiment because i feel that without regular spankings, i will always be in a cycle of behaving in a way that will make Mistress proud (right after a spanking) to slowly behaving in a way that will increasingly disappoint Mistress. 

Lastly, when i am in the process of being spanked and if Mistress hasn't made me orgasm and ejaculate immediately beforehand (she'll do this only when there has been a serious infraction), my cock is rock hard even when the sting of the paddle is at it's very worst.  i used to wonder why that was because even though the whole idea of being naked before my Mistress for the purpose of being corrected by spanking is of course very erotic, but it's still intended to hurt and when it is a punishment spanking there is never the prospect of sex to follow.  Then i figured it out ... throughout my relationship with Mistress, starting when She was my girlfriend, then as my Wife, then as my Wife Mistress, i would get "love boners".  a love boner is a hard-on that i would while thinking about how much i love my Wife.  How much i ache for Her when i am not with Her and how beautiful She is.  When i get a love boner, it has nothing to do with sex and has only to do with the emotional joy i am feeling by the love that i have for Her.  Love boner is the explanation for my erection when i am receiving corrective pain or punishment from Mistress.

This is in my near future

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Wear the cage

i have to wear the cage today because Mistress caught me smoking.  i feel terrible and regret has set in.  Not because i got caught, and not because my punishment will now include at least having to wear this blasted thing, but because i let Mistress down.  :-(

It's been a while since i wore this thing under my clothes to work.

i am sorry Mistress!

She's back!

Yay!  i was having dinner with a buddy when i got the text that Mistress and the kids were home.  Check please!  i left in a hurry.  Home was 2 minutes from where i was.  I pulled into the driveway and the car was there, trunk open and i saw the kids.  i was so happy to see them and they were so happy to see me.  We hugged and talked a little about their trip and then there She was.  The door to the garage opened and out She walked.  She was breathtaking.  A vision of gorgeousness.  The object of my desire.  my Mistress!

She saw me and smiled and came over and gave me a big kiss and a big hug.  It felt so good to hold Her.  She was wearing a very light sundress and i could feel Her naked body through the fabric.  i was hard in 2 seconds starting from when i first put my eyes on Her. 

The neighbor kids all gathered because they missed their pals and the house was in utter chaos with unpacking and kids running around everywhere.  One of O/our kids is leaving again today to visit a friend in San Diego so Mistress was busy focusing Her attention on getting him ready for his trip.  Laundry, unpacking, repacking and so on.  W/we had a few minutes to lay together on the couch and watch a show but there wasn't going to be any play tonight!  Holding Her, smelling Her kissing Her skin wherever it was exposed was glorious.  It was getting late and She had plenty more to do so She sent me off to bed but not before letting me know that for the foreseeable future there was going to be plenty of alone "we" time and that She was really looking forward to  putting me through my paces.

This morning She harnessed my balls with a splitter and sent me off to work.

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i feel Her now in my pants and am just so happy that She is back home.

Welcome home Mistress!

Today is the day

She comes home today.  After 9 long days apart, Mistress K comes home today.  i could not be more excited!!!!

Suggested Long Distance Instruction

One of my favorite regular commenters, Hannah Jay, made a comment on a recent post called "Free Day" where she explained how she enjoyed having her husband plunge his cock and balls into a bucket of ice water.  She described it as "fun" for her husband.

Well, Mistress must've been able to set aside some reading time while on the road because here is the text i received from Her last night;    

 

Hmmmm...

Tonight you are to chill your balls in a bowl of ice water 4 times. Each for 15 seconds with 30 second rests in between. At the end you are to masturbate to full erection and on the edge of ejaculation. Then dip your balls 1 last time for 15 seconds. Do not touch your cock after that for the rest of the night. =

 

I have never done that before and was a little apprehensive because, well, shit it was ice water and i was supposed to submerge my balls in it.  As i was preparing the bowl with ice and water, my cock got rock hard and i know it was because i was about to do something that i normally would not at all like to do, but doing it for my Mistress gave me immense erotic pleasure.

i placed the bowl on a short stool and lowered my trembling balls into the icy exactly as instructed above and then went on to complete the task as instructed.

How did it go?  IT WAS COLD!  It wasn't painful but it was cold.  During the last plunge into the icy water, i left my balls submerged for 30 seconds instead of only 15 because i wanted to see if i could do.  Of course i was able to do it but just barely.  i later texted Mistress and asked if this was an activity that She now liked and her reply was an ominous "maybe".  We'll see.

Well Hannah Jay, as promised, if it happened i was going to tell you about it, so here you go, consider yourself told.  Mistress seemed to enjoy your suggestion very much. 

Free Day

i was just informed by Mistress that this evening i will have free access to the pleasure of by body , in any way i want, to do anything i wish to myself sexually.  Not only that ....... get this, i am required to bring myself to orgasm.  Yes, that's what i said, i am required to bring myself to orgasm.  What a special treat, a special that Mistress had given to me.

When i first saw the words on the text, i thought she must be kidding.  Maybe it was a typo?  So i asked for her to confirm that not only was i allowed to cum, i was REQUIRED to cum.  Holy crap!!  It didn't take long for me to realize that this would be the first time in 2 years that will orgasm fully and ejaculate without her being a witness.  my initial reaction was unsettling.  i have lovingly and willingly committed myself to only ever ejaculating while in the presence of my Mistress.  So late, when i am done teasing and denying myself repeatedly, and i am done repeatedly filling my hungry bottom with her strappy cock, i will have an orgasm.  One hour from now, i will be going to have dinner with some buddies.  While there i will be wearing my new glass plug (wearing it now) and will have my balls-stretcher harness on in tribute to my Mistress Wife.

There is an old joke .....  "I had sex last night and i was nervous.  Yeah, I was all alone."  Genuinely, i will be nervous.

I love you Mistress.  You are a glorious Mistress, lover, Wife and friend.  Thank You.

Long Distance Instructions

Via long distance instructions (texting), i informed Mistress this morning of my intentions to get dressed for the day.  Yesterday, on Her way out of town and right after She paddled my bottom kinda red, She instructed me to wear panties to the office.  As it turned out, i didn't go into the office because W/we had workmen there all day.  Because i never got dressed for work, i never put the panties on.  Not because i didn't want to follow instructions.  i get genuine pleasure out of following Mistress's instructions, but rather because i was busy with workmen and distracted all day and it simply dropped out of my mind.  Nothing too sexy for me to be around and dealing with sweaty workmen all.  Although, i'm certain that Mistress would've gotten a kick out having me in panties while i was dealing with these workmen.

Well, after receiving a reply to my text this morning, and while Mistress was contemplating my instructions for this day, i informed Her that i inadvertently failed to follow her instructions yesterday.  She replied and said that i was to wear my balls-separator harness and the panties was to wear yesterday.  She made a passing comment that i "should've worn the panties yesterday", but did not elaborate.  Although She didn't say, i suspect i am in line to be punished for that.  Something else that i wish i had read in a text but never came was the direction/authorization for free self-play (no cumming though).  Poor me!

Before she left

Before Mistress left on her little roadie with the kids, Mistress tended to some unfinished business.  Earlier in the morning She had me put on a small towel-like wrap around my waist and had me accompany Her to let the dogs out.  When W/we came back into the house, She pulled me into our large closet so that She could administer what She called a "mini punishment" for failing to have Her coffee ready for Her yesterday when She woke up.  She had me put my hands on the island in the closet and had my pull up my towel "skirt" up around my waist.  While She was administering my spanking, she was stroking my cock and edging me.  Each time i told Her i was about to come, She came down kind of hard on my ass.  She did that several times before finishing, i suppose so that i would associate the urge to come with a sting on my ass.  Then She put the paddle away, had me stand, pulled facing Her and pushed my shoulders down indicating i was to kneel before Her so She could administer aftercare.  Aftercare is a really special moment for me.

After the tender aftercare, i asked Mistress if i was allowed to be my own ass whore while She was away, like the last time i was home alone.  She said that i probably shouldn't have asked, but that She would consider it. I also asked Her if i could cum before She left.  She said no. Then i asked if i could have a ruined orgasm, and She said no. When pulling out of the driveway, She instructed me to wear panties today under my clothes.

i am really going to miss Her!

Alone for 9 days

Mistress and i will apart for 9 days beginning tomorrow.  She isn't even gone yet and i am already missing Her terribly.  This morning i was awake early in anticipation of an early meeting I had scheduled at the office.  The entire house was sound asleep.  It was a wonderful, quiet summer morning.  It's supposed to be 112 here today, but at this time in the morning it was absolutely beautiful outside as i was watering some sickly plants we have. The kids were enjoying the kind of slumber a kid gets when out of school for the summer.  Cats, dogs and even a neighbor kid were all sleeping soundly as i went about my morning routine and then prepared for going to the office.

After is was done showering and shaving and putting on Mistress's favorite cologne, i went over to her in bed (our son sleeping beside her) and proceeded to "kiss her awake".  After all, i needed to know what is was to wear under my clothes this day.  Her eyes opened for just a brief moment, She said the word "splitter", rolled over and went right back to sleep.  i went right into the closet and proceed to get dressed, starting with the leather cock ring that snaps into place that has 2 separate straps that snap into place to spread and isolate each one of my balls.  it's one of my favorite things She has me wear. 

When i emerged from the closet, Mistress was in the kitchen going about starting Her day.  My first thought was ........... hole shit, i did not get Her coffee.  Right then She said "I got my own coffee".  Silly as it sounds, my heart sank for not having accomplished one of the simplest obligations i have to my Queen.  Then she said "you are due a punishment for that!".

Presumably, Mistress knows that while She is away, that i will do something that will earn a punishment.  i wonder if that will be on Her mind will She administers the latest earned punishment before she leaves.  Uh oh!

Making Love

On Friday night past, Mistress and i had made plans for Mistress to get fucked really well that night.  The plan was for us to get some of O/our chores completed, get the kids to bed early because they had to wake up early the next morning, and then W/we could spend some time alone.  i had no expectation of being allowed cum.  Mistress had to me to shower and an hour or so before the planned event, then i was to apply the Stud 100 desensitizing spray to her cock and allow that hour to really make it numb.  Also, that i would be using the cock sleeve on Her that night. This would really allow me to last long so She could have the good hard fucking she wanted. 

The night was kind of getting away from U/us because the kids weren't cooperating and shit in general was just going wrong.  i had showered as planned and applied the spray to my cock and then slipped on some loose fitting shorts to allow the spray to do it's thing.  Meanwhile, Mistress was becoming more and more frustrated with shit going wrong around Her.  Finally, when walking past me, She looked at me and said something to the effect that there would be no sex tonight because she was frustrated (in general, not with me) and losing interest, and then left the room to go into the bathroom.

i went to Her and told Her (in as cute a way as possible) that i understood and that if She did not want to get fucked really, really well, of course W/we didn't have too.  That seemed to lighten her mood a bit but not much.

The kids were finally in bed and She went in to take a shower.  When Mistress is frustrated, i know well enough to let Her have Her space.  That said, i poked my head into the shower and asked Her if She wanted me to be prepared to pleasure Her when She emerged from the shower, or if i should simply go about my business and give Her space.  She opted for the space.  Undaunted, i went about my business and began to close down the house for the night.  When i was done, i again poked my head into the bathroom to let Mistress know i would be in bed, waiting for Her, not knowing what, if anything would happen.

The room was dark except for the light of the TV.  When She walked out of the bathroom to the kitchen, She was naked and She never looked more beautiful and sexy as she disappeared from the bedroom. When She came back in the bedroom and came toward the bed, She was even sexier than She was 3 minutes before.  She climbed into and immediately began to nuzzle into my chest  and wrapped her arms around me.  She immediately felt my rock hard cock and whispered that She was pleased with that.  i had idea that sex was to come because Her hands roamed my back and then my ass and She did one of my absolute favorite things ......... She spread my ass cheeks with both hands.  It made my hard cock harder. 

She whispered "give me those kisses i like" and rolled over onto her tummy.  Regular readers of this blog will know that there is hardly anything i enjoy more than giving her entire body soft licks, kisses and bite on Her naked body.  After about 10 minutes of that, She rolled over onto her back and told me to resume my kisses.  After a few minutes of that, She asked me .... "are you hard for me lover?"  I sat up on my knees so that She could see my rock hard cock pointing to the ceiling.  Then She made it abundantly clear that She wanted my mouth on Her pussy by spreading Her legs.  i moved right and savored having the honor of putting my mouth on her pussy.  i'm sure someone has actually had an orgasm while licking his Mistress's pussy before, but i was actually close.  It is that much of an honor for me.

After Mistress had a nice orgasm while on her back, She told me She wanted my cock inside of Her for another orgasm.  i asked her is She wanted me to get the cock sleeve and She said No .... "fuck me now".  Even though my cock had been fully numbed by the Stud 100, it wasn't long before i felt an orgasm building in me.  i informed Mistress that i was about to come and She didn't say a word.  then i asked her if She intended for me to cum this night, and She didn't say a word.  Then i asked Her if i could have Her permission to cum and She said YES!!!!!!!! holy shit!  Yes?  i totally wasn't expecting that.  She said that i had better hold out until She had Hers and then i was allowed to cum inside of Her.  It was mere second later that Her orgasm began and i immediately began to orgasm while cumming deliciously inside of Her.   OMG!  It was a very strange orgasm because of the numbing spray but i didn't care.  Being able to have my mouth on Her body, then on Her pussy, then ......... being able to witness 2 orgasms ........... was glorious! 

i didn't asked if she intended on allowing me to cum that night and She didn't offer.  We feel asleep and slept like a couple of rocks.

I love this Woman so much!

Summoned for punishment

OK, so here's what happened.  i was told to be home by 3pm. The kids are out of school so during the summer, when they are off to a friends house, Mistress will inquire about whether i am able to leave work at a moments notice.  Mistress didn't explain why i was being summoned .... but i knew why.  It was to be spanked.  It was a hot day so i was instructed to get a cold fountain drink on the way home.

i walked in to the house and went to Mistress to give her the cold drink.  I started to go around the house and lock all the doors.  Once all the doors were locked, She told me to close all the blinds and curtains, but i had better remove everything i was wearing except the cock ring that i had on.  Once naked, i went over to Her for further instructions while She sat on the couch.  She informed me that we didn't have much time and that i should rush off and get Her pink paddle.

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i ran off and got it as She told me i had better hurry because we didn't have that much time because the kids were at a movie and it would be over soon.  When i returned She was patting her lap.  She pointed which direction She wanted me to lay my head.  i laid my naked body across her lap as she began to rub my bare bottom and begun to review with me the reason(s) i was there in the first place.  This was to be a corrective punishment, not a fun one.  As She was paddling, the spankings were pretty hard, yet they were comfortable.  Yes they stung, but they stung in a yummy way and frankly i laid there motionless in utter joy at being naked over my Wife's lap, under Her hand. 

While She was administering my spankings, She received a text from the mother of the kids my children were with saying that they were on their way home.  SHIT!!!!  W/we figured we had 10 minutes or so.  Mistress had planned to have me worship Her and plant soft kisses all over her body (her favorite way to relax) when the punishment was over.  With time running out, She immediately had me get off Her lap and stand before.  She laid on Her tummy and told me to start Her all over.  It was an attempt for her to get at least a little of the comfort and joy of my body kisses on Her body before the kids got home.  While kissing Her, i made my way down Her expose back and lifted Her skirt to reveal Her glorious ass.  God i love her ass.  I love the sight of Her ass and when i know that i may even be allowed to worship it, well it is one of my favorite things. Right then She quickly rolled over onto her back.  One of my other favorite things is to worship Her tummy and front with soft kisses as well.  "Resume" were my instructions.  i was absolutely filled with lust and without asking, pulled the top of her dress down and her skirt up and began my worship ritual on the front of Her body.  i quickly made my way down her gorgeous tummy to Her pussy and boldly pulled the front of Her panties down.  i pulled back so i could take in the full picture of the beauty that was before me>  There She was ..... my Goddess with her skirt pulled up, top pulled down and the fron of Her panties pulled down just enough to reveal Her gorgeous, smooth pussy.  Longing eyes and angelic face were irresistible and so i lowered my head and went right for her clitoris.  Normally, She will not allow me to go right at it but i took a risk knowing that time was short.  i didn't know if She had wanted an orgasm or wanted merely to luxuriate for a while and be worshipped.  as soon as my mouth touched her pussy i knew She wanted an orgasm ..... so i went to work.  She had an orgasm very quickly. 

i asked for relief and asked to cum and She quickly said no.  i asked if i could be given a ruined orgasm and She quickly said no.  She rose from the couch, grabbed my rock hard cock and while stroking it said "there will be none of that for you ... now stand there (pointing to the floor) and face away from Me".  She grabbed the paddle again and told me to stand still.  She resumed her spankings, only this time they were HARD.  In her post orgasmic glow, She was really letting me have it.  She gave 10 or so hard spanks, with the last causing me to take a few steps forward because it hurt so bad (good).  

She grabbed me, turned me around, pulled toward and gently pushed me to my knees before Her so She could administer after care.  She hugged me and told me She loved me.  I love these moments!  While kneeling and hugging her tight, my cock jutted up and out between Her legs and I tried to find friction there.  She merely widened Her legs and while tenderly rubbing my head and back as I kneeled She simply said "there will be none of that today".  After a few minutes of aftercare, she released me and told me to get dressed and return to the office.  I stood and looked Her in the eyes and sincerely thanked Her for the honor of allowing me to put my mouth on Her and for allowing me to view Her having an orgasm.  I promptly got dressed and returned to the office.

While i drove to the office, i reviewed what had just happened.  Being naked while in the presence of my Mistress Wife is such a joy for me.  Being required (allowed) to worship her body with my mouth and kisses is a wonderfully emotional experience for me.  Being required (allowed) to have my mouth on her pussy or ass for the purpose of having an orgasm is the kind of joy that almost cause me to have an orgasm while doing it!  

I couldn't help but feel like my punishment spanking was interrupted.  When Mistress received the text that said the kids would soon be home, i think She was only at place where She was just getting started.  i mentioned in a previous about how i felt i needed to be honest with Mistress about my tolerance for pain not being reached when i sometimes receive a punishment spanking. i have never really had my limits really tested and pushed when getting spanked.  i can only remember once that there was a small bruise on my ass the following morning from a spanking i had received the night before.  More on this in a future post but for now i often think about the delicious arousal and anxiety of anticipating something that logically you won't want have to do at the time but are required to in order to demonstrate your devotion to your Mistress.  Among other things, a "past-the-limits" punishment spanking is one of those things.

For the rest of the day, i was walking on air.  My business partners even asked if took some happy pills while i was out of the office.  i just nodded and said "yes, yes i did"!

I love you my Mistress Wife!

it's time to get punished

i was just summoned home by mistress for the execution of my punishment.  Frankly, i have butterflies in my stomach.  i'm nervous.  i feel like i was in 6th grade and was told to report to Mrs. O'Neill's room after school to be paddled.

I so very much love my Wife for, well for everything.  Wish me well.

The human mind

The human mind can be a scary place when one is not fully confident.  Not too long ago, i had a number of health related symptoms that cause me to self-diagnose by going to the internet.  By the time i was through, i was certain i had SARS, AIDS, cancer, polio, small pox, diabetes, malaria, rickets, a cold, the flu, lymphoma, pneumonia, Lou Gehrig's disease and a host of other ugly things.  Seeing things on the screen has a way of having an impact on how you think things may turn out.  i'm happy to report i have none of things but there was a time when i was scared that i did.

This morning, i was browsing some FLM/FLR/Femdom resource sites and came across a blog that some things in it that scared me a bit.  i was on a site that was intending to be one of those amateur advice sites that tends have it's own clearly defined path for how things have to be in a FLR/FLM/ Femdom relationship.  Some of it was actually pretty good.  i eagerly clicked on the link that talked about strap-on training, because, well, um, er, uh .... it turns me on a great deal. i've told Mistress before of my desire to be have my bottom properly trained and to be Her personal ass whore.  That's a story for another time though.

It concerned me when i came across a passage that basically said that in every instance when a man is taken anally by his wife with a strap on, it will sequentially lead to things like abandonment of all previous rules of the marriage, dismissal of limits, sissification, mild feminization, moderate feminization, full feminization, cuckoldry, and finally culminating in the woman losing all respect and desire for her husband and that she would ultimately seek out a new lover that she actually did respect in order to satisfy her sexually, yet still keeping her husband around in complete non-sexual, non intimate capacity.

Now ... i reject this notion wholeheartedly of course.  You can find "words" on the internet to support or deny any opinion one might have, on any subject.  i get that .  It did, however briefly, bring me back to how i felt when i was looking for the cause of what were my health related symptoms that i mentioned earlier.  i sat there for a moment in abject fear.

In my loving FLM relationship with my beautiful Goddess Mistress Wife, i have come to understand that it is HER that i desire to submit to. It is only Her that i have a true desire to offer my gift of submission, to allow to control my sex in the way the She deems appropriate.  Other than fantasy, i don't feel submissive to all women, just because they are women.  At the same, i certainly don't feel that i am in any way superior to any woman.  i have always been a courteous, loving, friendly, masculine, virile, strong, honorable, dominant but caring man in my vanilla life.  If you were to run into me on the street you would never know that i am the submissive husband portrayed here, by my outward appearance. I am the common "man-in-my-position" man that is in control all day type. Executive Business owner with more than 65 people that work for me.  There are a lot of people that count on my strength, my honor and my ability to lead others.  i give everyone the benefit of the doubt.  i think it is important as a human being that must the space on the planet with everyone else to be friendly to all folk. 

Just because when i am alone with my Mistress i feel i need to be naked, objectified, used, loved, vulnerable, dutiful and to be completely and utterly available for her, at her pleasure at any given time doesn't mean that Mistress will ultimately lose respect and desire for me. In fact, the man i am becoming as a result of my dedication and devotion to my Mistress Wife has made me a much better, kinder, more loyal, more trustworthy, stronger and more virile man to all other humans that aren't Mistress K as well.

I would love to know your thoughts?

Offending a Blogger I Admire

One other thing happened over the weekend. When I got home and opened my special subhubphx email account and there it was, an email from a Mistress Blogger i have admired for some time.  Imagine my excitement at the prospect of er telling me what a wonderful blog i had.  She started off by saying that she visited my blog because i was a frequent commenter to her wonderful blog, which she also thanked me for.  So far, so good right?  then it happened.  She told me that when she got to my blog, the vulgar pictures i had on display "offended" her, and she mentioned that she couldn't understand why men always do this.  I was crushed!  Here was a Mistress Wife blogger i admired a great telling me that my actions had offended and disgusted her.  So, it got me to thinking ................. She's absolutely right. 

The thing I enjoy about her blog so much is the sophistication and the pictures that are drawn in my mind's eye as a result of her use of her words.  This type of sophistication is what i have wanted and strived for since starting my writings, yet being just another male pig obviously has prevented that from happening.

Henceforth, if i feel the compulsion to add a visual to my words, i will do so by adding a link which will allow the viewer to see the picture if they choose to do so.  Thank you all so much for the kind words in your comment and for following my blog.  I hope to continue to learn from those that i admire.