The human mind

The human mind can be a scary place when one is not fully confident.  Not too long ago, i had a number of health related symptoms that cause me to self-diagnose by going to the internet.  By the time i was through, i was certain i had SARS, AIDS, cancer, polio, small pox, diabetes, malaria, rickets, a cold, the flu, lymphoma, pneumonia, Lou Gehrig's disease and a host of other ugly things.  Seeing things on the screen has a way of having an impact on how you think things may turn out.  i'm happy to report i have none of things but there was a time when i was scared that i did.

This morning, i was browsing some FLM/FLR/Femdom resource sites and came across a blog that some things in it that scared me a bit.  i was on a site that was intending to be one of those amateur advice sites that tends have it's own clearly defined path for how things have to be in a FLR/FLM/ Femdom relationship.  Some of it was actually pretty good.  i eagerly clicked on the link that talked about strap-on training, because, well, um, er, uh .... it turns me on a great deal. i've told Mistress before of my desire to be have my bottom properly trained and to be Her personal ass whore.  That's a story for another time though.

It concerned me when i came across a passage that basically said that in every instance when a man is taken anally by his wife with a strap on, it will sequentially lead to things like abandonment of all previous rules of the marriage, dismissal of limits, sissification, mild feminization, moderate feminization, full feminization, cuckoldry, and finally culminating in the woman losing all respect and desire for her husband and that she would ultimately seek out a new lover that she actually did respect in order to satisfy her sexually, yet still keeping her husband around in complete non-sexual, non intimate capacity.

Now ... i reject this notion wholeheartedly of course.  You can find "words" on the internet to support or deny any opinion one might have, on any subject.  i get that .  It did, however briefly, bring me back to how i felt when i was looking for the cause of what were my health related symptoms that i mentioned earlier.  i sat there for a moment in abject fear.

In my loving FLM relationship with my beautiful Goddess Mistress Wife, i have come to understand that it is HER that i desire to submit to. It is only Her that i have a true desire to offer my gift of submission, to allow to control my sex in the way the She deems appropriate.  Other than fantasy, i don't feel submissive to all women, just because they are women.  At the same, i certainly don't feel that i am in any way superior to any woman.  i have always been a courteous, loving, friendly, masculine, virile, strong, honorable, dominant but caring man in my vanilla life.  If you were to run into me on the street you would never know that i am the submissive husband portrayed here, by my outward appearance. I am the common "man-in-my-position" man that is in control all day type. Executive Business owner with more than 65 people that work for me.  There are a lot of people that count on my strength, my honor and my ability to lead others.  i give everyone the benefit of the doubt.  i think it is important as a human being that must the space on the planet with everyone else to be friendly to all folk. 

Just because when i am alone with my Mistress i feel i need to be naked, objectified, used, loved, vulnerable, dutiful and to be completely and utterly available for her, at her pleasure at any given time doesn't mean that Mistress will ultimately lose respect and desire for me. In fact, the man i am becoming as a result of my dedication and devotion to my Mistress Wife has made me a much better, kinder, more loyal, more trustworthy, stronger and more virile man to all other humans that aren't Mistress K as well.

I would love to know your thoughts?