She Made be do it

Mistress made me have a full-on orgasm.  It had been at least 6 weeks since I had an orgasm.  This of course does not take into account the 3 ruined orgasms I had during that time. 

It was Friday evening about 8pm.  Mistress had just returned from having drinks with some friends.  Almost at that same moment, one of her besties (who wasn't out with them) came by to pick up our children to accompany her and her children for a treat (ice cream I think).  We said goodbye to her friends and told all the kids to have a good time and then Mistress went off to go to the bathroom.  I returned to the coach to watch the baseball game. 

About five minutes later I heard "come here pet" coming from the bedroom.  I sprang up from my previously reclined position, remembered that we were sudden alone and stripped naked before going in to the bedroom to see Mistress.  When I arrived she was wearing only her panties and was laying on the bed.   "Go put pinky on, and hurry", she said.  Pinky, for those of you that don't know, is a pink, translucent cock sleeve that I sometimes wear in order to fuck Mistress thoroughly without cumming.

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I rushed into the closet and sprayed my cock with desensitizing spray and slipped pinky over my rock hard cock using the still wet spray as the lube necessary to get it on.  I told Mistress that I wanted to wash the spray of the rubber cock so it didn't numb her pussy too. 

I returned to the bed and I fucked here good!  It was awesome.  I don't know how many orgasm she was able to have but I only stopped fucking her when she said she couldn't take anymore.  It has happened more that I would still have the uncontrollable urge to orgasm even though I was wearing pinky.  NOT THIS TIME.   I was so happy to be able Mistress K. the thorough fucking that she wanted right then.

I last fucked her to orgasm doggy style when she told me to stop.  I pulled out and watched her slowly lower her body down to the bed until she was resting comfortable on her tummy.  I love to see her like this.  I was about to ask her if I could get anything for her when she said "take off pinky and come put your cock inside of me".

I did as I was told and although I was still able to last a good bit before the urge to cum was about to overwhelm me, the need to cum was upon me.  I told Mistress that I was about to cum, hoping and fully expecting for Mistress to tell me I wasn't going to be cumming this night.  Instead she said, you will not cum until I cum again and started rubbing her clit.  She started to cum again and I knew I was about to be told to experience a full orgasm.  My instinct now is beg to NOT orgasm, and so I was begging Mistress to not let me orgasm fully and if I was going to be required to ejaculate for her, to please make it a ruined orgasm.  She would have none of it and forced me to have a full orgasm by demanding I not stop fucking her until I have cum.

Holy shit that orgasm was incredible!!!!!  Unbelievable in fact.   In the afterglow of our lovemaking, I mentioned to Mistress K. how ironic it was that the begging that takes place in bed is for me to not be allowed to cum.  It seems like the training I have been receiving has been paying off in that regard. 

Of course the reason I beg not to cum is because I don't want to be in the "orgasm hangover" state afterward.  I enjoy being denied and in a constant state of desire.  That being said, I can tell you that the "recovery" period in the last 3 full orgasms (only in the last 5 months) has been a day or so, rather than the normal few days it would've taken before we started our FLM. 

One of the things I remember us doing early in our FLM adventure was forced orgasms.  One Friday afternoon, Mistress informed me that I was going to be required to have 5 orgasms (ruined or otherwise) before we went to bed on Sunday night or I would be severely punished.  It was difficult.  On Sunday, mid-morning, I stall had only had 2 orgasms.  I was able to complete my task but it was tough as shit.  I wonder how i'd do now. 

Hmmm, interesting

Spanking Happened

A few minutes ago.  Mistress had me worship Her tummy while kneeling naked before Her.  She informed me that i was about to be punished.  She also said that She was aware that punishments have been coming for some time and that they just hadn't happened for one reason or another, and that such a scenario was not going to continue.  She informed me that W/we will begin a new regimen that will mandate punishment must be delivered within 48 hours of Mistress having declared that a punishable infraction has occurred.  It is my responsibility to keep track of punishable infractions and also my responsibility to let Mistress know when the 48 hour deadline is approaching. If W/we should allow the 48 hour time period to elapse, it, in and of itself will be considered n additional infraction.

Part of O/our problem lately has been associated with the hectic schedule that O/our family has been under lately.  Nothing bad, just hectic normal life. When real life does this to U/us, it puts a hurdle up for U/us to do the things that W/we feel W/we must do in order to maintain balance in our FLM.  Hurdles that W/we just sometimes can't get over.  Punishment spankings is just one area that suffers from the burdens (hurdles) of real life, which is why i suspect that Mistress has implemented this new rule.

The spanking that i received this morning was intended to "clear the slate".  In recent posts, i had mentioned that i was anticipating a severe punishment spanking for all the infractions that have built up over the past 3-4 weeks (since my last spanking).  It happened, it stung, it was uncomfortable and it reddened my ass good, but to be honest, it felt like a drive-by spanking.  I could even call it wonderful because midway through the spanking She also edged me several times. At first i thought she was going to stroke me to orgasm before getting into the heavy part of my spanking because, well, getting spanked immediately after an orgasm is the WORST!  Afterward, with Mistress hurrying to get out the door to attend to real life, i mentioned to Her that i think we have some unfinished business.  She said She didn't have time to discuss it (obviously) but that W/we would discuss it. 

In my mind, the unfinished business is a discussion on what a true punishment spanking ought to be.  Mistress is a kind, loving soul and if i am to be honest here, i know that she will "spare the pain" in direct correlation to the amount of complaining i may do when being spanked.  It hurts.  It's supposed to hurt.  But with recent punishment spankings, when it is over, i often immediately felt that i somehow got off easy.  It isn't my conscious intention to manipulate the type, amount and severity of the spankings that i get, but i know it happens.  When Mistress and i have the chance to discuss the unfinished business, i feel that i need to tell her that the punishments i have been receiving have been mostly token in nature and that if i am to truly be trained into corrective behavior, that the punishment should probably be much more severe.  Perhaps even some sort of ritual should be involved in order to enhance the intended effect of corrective punishment.  Mistress has also mentioned in the past that She feels the use of my chastity cage will mostly be used in administering punishment.  She feels that it is no longer needed in order to enforce chastity because chastity has been maintained without need to deny access to "Her" cock.  As recently as last night (when i was acting like a pissy bitch), She suggested that it might be time to lock me up. 

I've thought about this long and hard and have come to the conclusion that if i am to be honest to my Mistress (which is the only acceptable way to be), i need to let Her know that the level of severity in my punishments should probably be increased to something well beyond what either of U/us are accustomed to.  Some have said that true punishment spanking doesn't even begin until significant begging for it to end starts.  Other believe it does end until the spankee is brought to a level of emotional awareness (usually accompanied by tears) that truly allows the feelings of guilt and shame to have washed away.  I don't actually know because honestly, i've never been brought to that extreme.

This is crazy.  It already hurts but i know that if the punishment does not provide incentive for corrective behavior, than i am being dishonest with my Mistress which is something that cannot ever happen.  Ever.  It hurts now, but in my heart i know that the types and severity of spanking punishments i receive have mostly only been in the discomfort area and i may have possibly (unintentionally) been able to convince Mistress that i have received enough because of the fear i may have had at that particular moment about getting spanked further.  She has a right to expect complete honesty from me.  She has the right to know.

I love my Wife, my Keyholder, my Mistress, my Goddess more than anything and above all else, i know She is entitled to honest communication from me

Appointment for Pegging Love

We had an appointment.  i came home from the office at 10 am and found Her working on the computer.  She looks at me and said "get naked".  i asked Her if i could take a shower for her so i could be clean and freshly shaved.  She said yes.  Before i got into the shower, She told me to get Her some lube and bring it to Her.  She edged me right there and it only took a minute or less to get me to edge.  The She shooed me off to get clean and smooth.  While i was in the shower, She came in (it's a large walk-in shower that does have a door) with lube still on Her hands and called me to the edge and proceeded to stroke my cock and bring me right to the edge again.  i love that!

When i was done showering and shaving, i brushed my teeth and put her favorite cologne on.  i felt like a little slut knowing what was about to happen to me.  i was Her slut.  She called me over to the computer, slid Her chair back and told m to put my hands on the desk and not to move.  She disappeared for a moment then returned with something in Her hand.  It was a small butt plug.  She lubed me all up and eased the plug into my bottom.  i just loved being there, naked with instructions to offer my ass and not to move.  When the plug was She told me to sit on it and do some work while She went off and gathered other before getting into the shower Herself.  When She returned, i was told to stand a reassume the position i was in before.  She replaced the small plug with a larger one and had me sit on that and resume my work while she primped.

She returned with her strap on in place and a condom covered rubber cock protruding from it.  It's rather small and i have told her before that i was hopeful to be trained to take bigger from Her.  i was told to stand again and go remove the larger plug.  It came out with a plop and my ass was ready for Her to be there.  When i returned, again i assumed the position, standing while She nestled in behind me, placed the tip of the cock against my hole and slowly slid it inside.  It was wonderful.  i really loved being fucked like that, bent over and occasionally standing so i could kiss her over my shoulder while she fucked me.  She started jerking my cock and i asked her not to let me cum.  She informed me that it wasn't up to me and continued fucking and stroking.  Before i knew i would come, i asked her if she would put me on the floor and take me.  She pulled out took me to the bedroom and pointed to the floor and said, on your back.  i laid down, spread my legs and pulled them up to my chest like a whore.  my eyes pleading with her to fuck.  She got on her knees, eased the cock inside me and was looking right into my eyes like hoped She would.  She fucked me like for a few minutes and then started to stoke my cock again.  i knew i couldn't resist but still begged for Her to deny me an orgasm.  She declined and informed me i was going to cum.  Knowing i had no choice, i then asked permission to cum and She ordered me to cum while She was slowly working the cock inside me, all the time staring into my eyes.  God i loved that!!!  i felt like her ass-whore girl.  i came like a wildcat!  All over my tummy and chest, and even on my neck under my chin.  After i came, she did a little post-orgasm torture on me while i begged her not to.  She stopped, stood and removed the strap on harness and dropped it next me on the floor, telling me that i had plenty of things to clean.  i laid there for what seemed like hours before i could muster the strength to rise.

Oh my god what an orgasm!  What a gift She gave to me.  i love Her so much!

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Wow, what an orgasm

On Wednesday, i was able to come home for "lunch".  Mistress was going to be home and didn't have any pressing matters on her plate.  i let her know of my availability and if there was use for me that She might want to take advantage of.  She texted me and said "get home then".

i sprinted home to find Her freshly showered and naked in the kitchen.  OMG!  As always, as soon as i came in the house i stripped naked and went to stand before Her.  She kissed me and told me to go shower and when i emerged, she was naked on the bed, legs open and demanding an orgasm.  But first, She wanted the ritual of my worshipping Her body and to place little soft kisses and tender bites all over Her.  i so much love doing that.  i swear i could orgasm just from worshipping Her body with my mouth. 

She rolled onto Her back, re-opened Her legs and said "I want my orgasm now".  i immediately went to work, burying my face between Her legs and relishing the honor of just being there.  Frankly there is no place i'd rather be.  After two tremendous orgasms (without the need of her little bullet vibrator i might add!) She simply said i want you inside me.

Now remember, the last full on, looking-in-Her-eyes orgasm for me was on Valentines day.  i immediately became nervous that i would come in a matter of seconds and also a bit nervous of the prospect of what i would feel like after orgasm, should be i be granted one.  Looking in Her eyes with love and admiration, i was instructed to orgasm while She looked at me with Her beautiful face and smiled.  She truly relished in the fact that She was allowing me to orgasm and i couldn't have loved any more than i did at that moment. 

After the best orgasm i had in years, W/we both laid there in exhaustion.  It was glorious.  Thank you so much Mistress!!!

i began to worry that now it would be a few days before my body craved the desire to pleasure her.  i am happy (and proud) to say that although the time was measured in mere hours, it didn't take long for my level of chemicals to return to the point that caused my unquestioned desire to please Her in any way.  That was my affirmation that our FLM is truly working to make our lives better.