It happened. It has never happened before but it happened. About a week ago, Mistress wanted me inside her while she was using her vibrator to have an orgasm. On this occasion, she had specifically told me that I would not be having an orgasm, ruined or otherwise. It is my job of course to pull out if I get too close to the edge but on this occasion, I pulled out too late. I didn't have an orgasm (not even a ruined one for that matter) but my body just took over and a small ejaculation happened. All over her tummy. My initial hope was that it was just a build up of pre cum, bit alas, it was the real thing.
This marks the first time that I have ejaculated without permission. Not only did I not have permission, but was specifically told NOT TO!
My friend little girl talked about the nervous anticipation that goes along with knowing that a punishment spanking is pending, and not knowing when or to what extend. You can read her words here:
http://submissivelittlegirl.blogspot.com/2015/04/crawling-back-to-you.html?showComment=1427987278030#c5562281381450916194
Nervously, I attempt to "prepare myself mentally" for what is coming, but it only seems to manifest itself in shame and regret for having displeased Mistress the way I did.
I'll keep you posted.
Hi sub hub, I am sorry that this happened to you. I can only imagine that this will be a harsh punishment for you. We have a similar rule here for me and hubby has punished me for an orgasm without permission too. It was really bad but I have learned to be better. I hope everything will be ok soon!
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Nina
PS: I have nominated you for the Real Neat Blogger Award. The rules and questions are in my blog. :)
Hi Ni Na. Thank you for the nomination for the Real Blogger Award. I'll get on that as soon as I can. I'm swamped right now, but I so very much appreciate your nomination.
DeleteI'm still waiting for my dreaded punishment and it's killing me. GUH. I can't wait till it's over.
This reminds of a time early in our marriage where my husband accidently ejaculated without permission in a very similar way to what you described. In our dynamic, ejaculating or having an orgasm without permission is near the top of the list of really bad things that he could do. Aside from obvious and blatant disregard for my authority, his inability to place the proper importance on preventing ejaculation/orgasm without authorization is as severe as it gets. I made the mistake of not punishing him severely enough the first time it happened. It had the effect of him allowing it to happen a few times more shortly after the first time. I was furious!
ReplyDeleteSo I secured him to the spanking bench and paddled him to bruising. I then ordered him to masturbate into cup and drink his cum. Then I instituted a rule that from that point forward, every time he came without permission, he was required to ingest it. I'll sometimes have him ingest it even if he is given permission as maintenance. That way, he really had to think long and hard about his obligation to not violate that very sacred rule in our house of not ejaculating without permission. We never had another problem.
Mistress A.
Hi Mistress A. Long time no see. Thank you taking the time to leave your comment.
DeleteYou certainly seem to have corrected the problem that you recognized with your husband. Our life has been unusually hectic lately and Mistress K. hasn't been able to dole out punishment like she has in the past. Although I'm certain that this has nothing to do with my gross negligence by ejaculating without permission, it something that she has recently recognized as being a problem and has vowed to correct with swift, harsh punishments for all infractions. Although it makes my ass hurt a lot, I know that is what our relationship needs.
The reason I don't think the lack of punishments had anything to do with my ejaculating without permission is because for me I hold that rule very, very sacred. I had/have genuine shame in not following one of the most important aspects of my vows to her. A severe punishment is pending as a result and although I am not at all looking forward to that punishment, I do realize that it is necessary.
A question for you ... was ingesting his cum something that wanted to do? If not, is it something that he has become more accustomed to? Mistress seems to have zero interest in anything like that. My guess (and it's only a guess) is that it gets too close to something that would represent male homosexuality for me. Mistress has said that the idea of me being involved in sex with another man is not something she has any interest in. Again, I'm only guessing that this might have something to do with her not wanting me to eat my own cum. I could be wrong.
Thank you again for stopping by. Don't be such a stranger.
I'm sorry SubHub. I have a feeling that you abusing yourself over displeasing her will be almost as bad as the actual punishment.
ReplyDeleteHope it's over soon. And I'm sure all this will help you never to do it again.
Hi CM, thanks for stopping by. You're right, the regret is almost as bad as the actual punishment that I will be getting, although Mistress has promised this punishment will be harsh because there was an infraction of one of the foundations of our marriage. She feel like I allowed one of my orgasms (ruined or otherwise), the very orgasms that she owns. Makes sense. Doesn't make it any easier, but makes total sense.
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ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the mention. However, I hate that find ourselves in similar situations. While that isn't what I am being punished for this time, I too have been punished for orgasm without permission. I don't know in your situation what Mistress K means by "mentally preparing" but I know Heron's expectation for me is to accept whatever punishment He deems appropriate with grace.
Sending good thoughts your way. xx
Hi lg. I don't know what she means by mentally preparing either, but she has never said that before, but then again, I've never been subject to a punishment for something so egregious before either. *nervous Like you, I am expected to accept whatever punishment She deems appropriate too and it appears that She deems this punishment tobe something I need to mentally prepare for.
DeleteThank you for your good thoughts.
P.S. I noticed this morning on your blog that you are lucky enough to be on the other side of your pending punishment. Congratulations and enjoy your clear slate.
XOXO
I'm sorry this happened sub hub. The anticipation is truly awful and the feelings of disappointment even worse. Sometimes I think what we put ourselves through in terms of remorse is worse than the punishment.
ReplyDeleteI hope everything is resolved soon. Sending positive thoughts.
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Roz
Thank you Roz for the kind thoughts. Yes, I agree, we do put ourselves through so much regret that it can be considered worse than the actual punishment. At least the actual act of being punished does clear the slate. There is nothing like living in my marriage with a clear slate!
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Hi Sub Hub
ReplyDeleteI can well imagine the disappointment you must have felt in your inability to follow instructions, you haven't mentioned how your Mistress reacted... was she cross, disappointed...?
Hi RA. Always love hearing from you.
DeleteMistress' reaction was surprisingly calm at the time. She herself was building toward an orgasm of her own and I think she didn't want to allow my infraction to lessen the joy was wallowing in at that very moment. She was disappointed of course, and didn't hesitate to mention at that moment that it was a serious infraction but she didn't miss a beat on her way to get what she wanted. Her own orgasm. Truth be told, seeing her have that orgasm almost caused a spontaneous additional ejaculation, even though, as you can imagine, I was not allowed any stimulation from that point forward. I just love seeing her have an orgasm!!!
Hi SHIP
DeleteYeah, I totally get that... seeing Mistress cum is the best thing of all. Sounds like you are in a lot of trouble though, sooner you than me!
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Robert
I've actually been able to cum without any stimulation, simply by seeing her tease me visually. OMG ........ She even told me she was impressed.
DeleteYes, it does sound like I've got some ass bruises coming.
Sorry to hear this, punishments are never nice, but thats the point, and once its done, over with, the slate is wiped clean, guilt gone, i hope and all forgiven.
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tori, you exactly correct, punishments are never nice. That being said, they are necessary and since they have waned in our relationship lately, I miss them. A lot! Coincidently, this morning, Mistress addressed that issue and has said that things will return to swift punishments being given for even the smallest of infractions.
DeleteMistress has already forgiven me for my infraction, but that has nothing to do with we both kow is a necessary punishment as a result. Especially for something as sacred as allowing an ejaculation without permission. Not doing the dishes is one thing. Allowing an ejaculation/ruined orgasm after specifically being told not to is quite another.
Thanks for stopping by tori. I always appreciate it.
When we are told not to climax we try our best to please. However some times accidents happen. And when they do punishment is in order. Look at your up coming punishment as her way of showing you she cares and loves you and wants to make you a better submissive.
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Very well said my friend. This is only the second time ever that I failed to follow this sacred instruction. The first time, Mistress accepted the blame for that by not stopping in enough time. She knew it then and even though it was of her hand, I still did not follow her instructions to avoid an orgasm. This time is quite different. It was me that allowed it to happen and not only that, it interrupted something beautiful for her. Her orgasm. I was inside of her while she on her back. My instructions were to remain inside of her while she used her vibrator to achieve her orgasms. My rapidly pulling out while she was on her way didn't help matter. After my "accident" she resumed and was thankfully successful in achieving her orgasm but as she has said, it wasn't as good as it could've been if I had been more diligent.
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